to feel alive

I am healing, I am growing | Christina Dameria | 22 Jakarta, ID 

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[rai-r]

[sarassri02]

What Matters to Me ?

As I’ve aged, things that are more personal to me have become somewhat less important. I realize the younger adolescent me thought that matters that were important, weren’t so important in the long run. Coming to the realization in my 20’s is living life to the fullest.

I’m known to have a reckless attitude that jumps into situations without thinking about the aftermath. People tend to ask to me if I did anything reckless would I regret it later?  Surprisingly to some it’s a no. I don’t believe in regrets, if I had fun at the time, learned something, or had a new story to tell because of it, then what reason was there to regret. Not to mention, nothing ever came from regrets, you can’t change the past and the only things that will come from worrying about it are wrinkles. I try to give every opportunity a chance, experience everything once, and always keeps my mind open to all possibilities. Through this lifestyle I have been rewarded ten-fold. I have received appreciation of my family, amazing friends, once in a lifetime opportunity, unforgettable experiences, life lessons, and stories that no one else will ever tell. It is this kind of life, opportunity and fearlessness that matter.

[her-minds-a-mess]

People ask me how I can be so naive, but that’s not it. I’ve seen beautiful parts of awful people, and awful parts of beautiful people. That is why I can never judge another person, that is why I hurt so much.

[hxrrymybae]

no more toxic friendships or relationships, only toxic by britney spears.

[1-800-444-tune]

By the powerful Universal Law of Attraction, you, draw to you the essence of whatever you are predominantly thinking about. So, if you are predominantly thinking about that which you desire, your life experience reflects these things. And, in the same way, if you are predominantly thinking about what you do not want, then your, life reflects those things. And so, we manifest our lives. We are the true creators. How do you feel about that? No more second guessing what tomorrow will bring, you are the master of your universe! Right?! Beautiful, LAW of Attraction, allows this to happen. It’s a simple yet complicated matter of matching your vibration with your environment to create certain desired results. The tip I will give to you is, monitor your emotions, this is your connection to Source Energy, The All. Just master your emotion regulation method and then coming into play is simply asking. Ask and you shall recieve. You not need even speak it, only intend it, desire it. It is that simple. That is how the universe knows your energy intent and desires, not with words spoken. It speaks in vibrational tongues not in the languages of many spoken across the galaxies, so now you know exactly where to begin creating your perfect world and existing in a reality you can call your own truly because you designed it.. truth is we are constantly manifesting without even trying or putting forth the effort. The universe had to this day given you exactly what you have asked for , intentionally or unintentionally, that’s how you got to where you are seated now. So then, powerful creator with all the tools, knowledge , and freedom to have what you wish, what will, you create today?

By: FionaFaeRipley The Super moon Snow - Full Moon Manifestation x

[cestmoi-christina]

Turning 22.. I’m feeling so lucky to be surrounded by my loved ones. Just for a sec I looked back at those times when I had thought about giving up on life.. when waking up to another day felt sooo exhausting. I feel sorry for my old self but if I can say anything to her right now, giiirlllL, you just made it to 22!? You have no idea how loved you are and how much your mindset has shifted. 🌱 Now waking up to another day feels exciting. Yes it’s a short life but each day I’m being given a new chance to meet new people, to discover a new place, or to experience a new event that can add to my identity. Even if I don’t, simple things like waking up having my family with me is a big thing itself. It won’t be forever but for now maybe that’s all there needs to be. Anw my heart is about to burst with gratitude right now here’s to 21 2.0 ♒️🥂

[wholesome-suggestion]

life works out. i cannot stress this enough. life always works out. it always turns out in your favor even if it doesn’t go according to the original plan. you may be utterly confused and lost right now, it may feel like everything is falling apart and there is nothing you can do to salvage any of it. but believe me when i say that this is just a transition period. things are constantly changing and evolving around you even if you can’t actively see that. life is changing you to prepare you for what is to come. you are growing and as you grow you are being built into the person that you are going to be. because see, life always has this funny way of working out. 

[aubreyandrobyn]

[salemwitchtrials-deactivated202]

every morning i wake up & get my coffee & i recite in my head this excerpt from ‘invitation,’ by mary oliver:  “it is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in the broken world.” & i just say it over & over again until it sticks to my mind for the rest of the day. it is a serious thing. i am alive. i am so lucky. this fresh morning i get the chance to live again & again & again

[little-miss-tragedy]

Note to self: On my worst days; the days, in which I am nothing more than an overflowing sink of self-doubt, cancelled subscriptions to self-love weekly, and empty promises full of “it’ll get better,” “I’m okay,” and “I will always be there.”

On my worst days, the ones when I don’t really know where I end and the sadness begins; the days my tongue is heavy with overused metaphors that no one wants to hear about anymore.

On those days, I must remember just how many stars died so I could be here today. Remember that the very particles that created the universe live inside of me. I am made up of shooting star wishes, guiding lights, and constellation kisses. The stars that guided the lost, comforted the lonely, and gave hope to weary; the stars that heard so many wishes, witnessed a lifetime of first kisses, and kept just as many secrets; the stars that never once asked for anything in return. Those stars now allow me to breathe, they gave up their light to let me shine.

How can I call myself worthless without also calling the stars such? How can I tell myself that I am nothing, when there is only everything inside of me?

On my worst days, the days I cannot find a reason to keep on living, I have to remember: there is a universe inside of me, and who am I to destroy it?

Note to self: you mustn’t forget just what you’re made of, darling. by (DS)

[euesworld]

“A bad day is just that, a bad day.. and things will get better again. Go to sleep, and when you wake up things will reset.. giving you another opportunity to smile, another opportunity to laugh, tomorrow is an opportunity for change. And the sleeping rests you up so that you have the energy to keep moving forward.. things will be ok, things are always ok, they just don’t seem ok cause you are having a bad day, and bad days never last forever.”

You are ok, a bad day is sign that things are not in the place they are supposed to be, that’s why tomorrow gives you a chance to start putting things where they belong in your life - Eue

[moved-to-jellihye-deactivated20]

Your friends aren’t your therapists. They won’t always have the perfect response to your problem. Sometimes they won’t have a response at all. Sometimes the problems you are going through are too much for an untrained person to process. Sometimes what your going through can be triggering to others so they might not be able to help even if they want to. I know a lot of people here are younger and I want you to know that your friends are kids just like you so they can’t always help. Even adults don’t always have the answers.

That being said people can still support each other without knowing all the answers. Be willing to listen. Be a shoulder to cry on. We will help where we can and with what we can. But we aren’t trained to diagnose or treat you. We can offer you support but sometimes it may be from afar. That doesn’t mean we don’t care. Because we do. Because you matter.

[cestmoi-christina]

Don’t stress too much about the what ifs. If it happens how you want it to be, you’re a lucky one and you deserve it. And if it doesn’t, it is teaching you to shift your point of view until you realize that it is also something to be grateful of. If life gives us so many possibilities we can encounter, why do we limit ourselves to just a few? Even when we feel lost, we’ll eventually learn to go with the flow of life, no matter how high or how low the tide is. 

[cestmoi-christina]

Maybe you gave up on something that meant a lot to you. When you lost it, you become tired of trying. Right now it seems unfair how you invested your time and energy into something only to find out that it did not work out. 

The truth is that I know you’ll go on when you feel like breaking. I know you have a faith so strong that another day to wake up to will always be a surprise to you. And even when everything is breaking, I hope you remember that a single day can offer you a chance to encounter anything new that is going to move you forward. 

[inscendo]

“and we didn’t talk after that” is probably the saddest thing to say

[vibaio]