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« Ta froideur, me brise le coeur. »
I found One Direction when I was in high school. In the world of confusing teenage hormones and trying to find out who the hell i was. I found joy in their first album, and then found community through their fandom very quickly after. I remember sitting with my three best friends and replaying the first 2 seconds of Taken over and over again to hear Liams low note at the beginning.
I met a girl online who lived across the globe from me in 2013 because of that community. I have spent the last 11 years talking to her. We've both had children now. We still share so much of our lives even now.
My best friend in the world and I use to have sleep overs and listen to 1d and go on tumblr together to scream about 5 idiot boys. We spent years together giggling and crying about them. We flew together to a different state after we graduated High School to finally see them and I remember every moment of that trip even 10 years later. We drove across the state 9 months later to see them again on our first 'adult' trip so far away. Through our biggest fight and two years we didn't talk, 1d was a thread that stayed between us and eventually when we moved past our own shit, we came right back. We still loved these boys.
I had One Direction when I was at my lowest points. Sitting alone in my dorm in college, depressed (so depressed) and lonely and SAD. But I had my silly 1d blanket, and a blog on tumblr to keep me company. And I made it through the dark. I had these boys and this community through the death of two very close family members, watching the love of my life struggle with addiction (and overcoming it), a pandemic, and infertility.
But I also had them during the happiest times. While in labor with my kids I listened to 1d. While driving on long road trips I listen to them. I attended their movie premiere and had the time of my life. I got married and danced to WMYB at the reception with my loved ones around me.
And with all that, I knew those boys had made a sacrifice during their creation of that little world. They were worked so incredibly hard. They weren't given the support they needed to cope with the crazy shift their lives took. They did so much to provide those who adored them with joy.
Liam. He said it himself that he wanted to save people. I hope he knows that he did. So so many people. I don't sit here writing this pretending that these boys are perfect because they aren't. But they truly are part of the reason I'm here today and who I am.
Liam. I'm so fucking sorry your life ended so soon. You deserved a chance to turn things around. You deserved to be free from addiction. You deserved so much better than what was given to you all those years ago. I owe you an essential piece of me forever. Rest In Peace.
I just hope he knew how loved he was by not just me and you but MILLIONS of people worldwide. He deserved all the love he was given.
Here’s to a Child Star
Here’s to a child star, put on a stage
Where everyone saw every flaw and mistake
Yes, here’s to a child star, in a zoo cage
Poked at and prodded and goaded to shame
You deserved more.
Not more money or fame or riches
But more support, more kindness, more resources to be better, to get better
To deal with the hurt and pressures that come with Fame
Fame when you sell your name before you know what it stands for
Fame where you become someone to everyone before you have your own full identity
Fame when you’re a paycheque for some washed up execs
Who don’t care who you are or where you go as long as you serve them for the length of your contract
When death comes, we hope for peace
Not a drugged addled death on the ground in a country that’s not your home,
where tabloids identify you to the public by your tattoos before you own son gets the news
Before he can grieve the public balks over your body like some sort of show
Why do they get to know?
Why do they get to know how you died when they barely knew how you lived?
How you loved?
How you cared?
Here’s to a child star that brought us joy
Who gave all he had to his fans with his boys
Yes here’s to sweet Liam, may his demons lay to rest
While his dreams live on in those that are left
In your memory, let us vow
To stop treating children as consumable goods
To stop using them for our entertainment and casting them out when we are done
In your honour, may we vow
To give therapy and love to those struggling to return to a “normal life”
That they can live without self medicating with drugs, sex, and false platitudes from their previous stardom
In memory of you, those that came before, and those that go on
May WE do better, be better, love better.
Here’s to a child star, gone too soon.
May death be kinder to you than life.
9 pictures of Zouis that make me want to jump off a cliff
me of 2020: #been 5 years but there are still days i can’t believe that zayn left
me of 2024: oh boy. u’ve not seen nothing yet.
Never ever in a million years i thought i would come back to my blog to share this . Its been years since I’ve been active on here but Liam Payne was a huge part of my life . HUGE . I just want to hug every single one of you because only we know how much this is hurting. rest in peace Liam Payne , like i said millions of years ago i will love you forever .
I came into this fandom a very broken human being. I was twenty-four, had just come out and ended an engagement, and had no fucking clue who I was.
I never saw this fandom coming— the people who changed me, the people I hurt, the lessons I learned, the ways I grew. The truth is, one of the reasons I sidelined myself in this fandom is because I didn’t like the person I had become, and my actions had caused hurt that I needed to take accountability for. So I left. And I did work. And I am SUCH a different person at 34 than I was at 24. But I got that chance. And Liam didn’t. All of the nights spent awake until the early hours of the morning, shitposting and memeing and headcanoning. All of the press junkets, interviews, talk show appearances, performances, releases, charity events. All of the fan initiatives. Project No Control. Rainbow Direction. All of the laughter, some of the best friends I have ever known.
Liam had a part in that. A big part. I remember once, some fandom friends telling me that if I was anyone, I was Liam. I never quite knew how to feel about that. He was a child who was paraded, stripped down, abused, overworked, but he also became someone who was enabled, inflated, unaccountable. And I know what all of that feels like. He never got the chance to grow up, and that’s what fills me with rage the most. Coming from someone who DID get that chance, who has a life beyond her wildest dreams now. Why not him.
I keep thinking about how purely sparkling 2015 was, how giddy and bright-eyed we all were. I’m so sad. I’m so, so sad. I’m so angry, there are so many people I want to torch and pitchfork and roast over a spit. I have no idea how I’m going to ask my boss to work from home tomorrow and how to explain it other than to tell her I don’t feel well.
We have experienced lost. Jay. Fizz. Robin. Others. But I don’t think anything could have ever prepared any of us for this. It was all of our worst unexpressed fears. I just… I love you all. So very much. And I am so, so sorry. May we all remember that We Are 1D Family. We will see each other through this.
If you or someone you love is struggling, please know that I stand here as someone who will happily meet you where you’re at with grace and compassion, and absolutely zero judgement. I think we all need to feel this together, and we all need places to talk. I’m here for that, so happily— because it’s what we do. For family.
Liam was a boy, and then a man, who suffered so much trauma and pain. He was bullied as a child and then lived a nightmare that I think none of us can really imagine of having that triggering experience replicated on a literally global public scale. He became a man who inflicted trauma on others. He was an addict who was unable to find a way out of that disease, and now never will, but who was open and vulnerable about his struggles. He was an incredibly talented musician and artist and an absolutely integral part of one of the most important bands of a generation; his voice and songwriting and skill in the studio shaped every aspect of what One Direction became at their best. He loved that band and being a part of that experience with his whole being and would never have stopped celebrating what they meant to us and to the world. He had problems and did bad things; that doesn't mean he was a bad person who didn't deserve to be loved and helped to heal- everyone deserves that- and the fact that that's not something that can ever happen now is devastating. I was very distressed by many of his actions; and I cared deeply about this man I didn't know and wished for better for him than this outcome.
I'm so deeply, deeply SAD tonight. I'm sad for Liam, who will never now have the chance to look back on this hard time and reflect on how far he's come, and for Liam's family, for his parents and his sisters who loved and supported him so much, and for everyone in the 1D band family and circles. And I'm sad for us. It feels like nothing will ever be quite the same, and that's hard and sad and shocking. It's a special kind of doubled grief, to mourn the loss of the person, and also of what he meant to us in this strange world of parasocial fanning, for the real him and also for the version of him that we made up and attached so much meaning to and for the escape that brought us. For him, and also for the easy uncomplicated joy of listening to those beautiful songs from happier times, which might never feel the same again. For the other boys, who we love so much and wish we could shield from suffering and loss and pain. For our fellow fans, who we also worry about the impact of this on. Everything about this is terrible, and I am sending so much love out to all of you. We are not alone, and it's okay to feel complicated emotions and it's okay to mourn and it's okay to care about how it effects you and your life, whatever you're feeling- it's okay. We are here with you. We are 1D family.
Je suis une fille sur booktok qui dénonce la dark romance et à chaque vidéo sur le sujet il y a des grosses folles dans les commentaires qui défendent le genre alors qu’on sait à quel point c’est dangereux, on sait que ça a un impact psychologique néfaste et que ça renforce le patriarcat. Et elles sont là à s’extasier sur des hommes qui 🟣, étranglent, séquestrent etc etc. Eh faut voir comment le féminisme quitte mon corps à chaque fois.
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8 ans aujourd’hui !
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Je vais te prouver que tu as tords. Je vais te montrer que je vais y arriver. Je ne vais rien lâcher je vais me battre je ne renoncerai pas. Cette fois ci je n’abandonnerai pas je ne faillirait pas à ma parole à mon engagement. Je vais ressortir la tête haute changer. Je vais devenir quelqu’un, quelqu’un de clean, quelqu’un qui en veut. Quoi qui se passe mon coeur n’a place que pour toi et je patienterai le temps qu’il faut.
Si vous ne luttez pas pour ce qui est juste, ayez au moins la décence de respecter ceux qui le font.
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