forever yours

anything you want from me, i will give. anything you want for me, i will take.

[cghostrayne]

hii im ghost (≧∇≦) i am new to this side of tumblr and haven't used this app in over three years D: my blog is my vent space and diary :333 i do not put tws on my posts (except for this one) !!!!

☆ nineteen

♡ he / they

☆ tw for yan, ed, sh, drugs, stockholm syndrome, agere, violence, stalking, etc...

i do not condone any violent actions and do not act out on them !!! this is coming purely from my little disordered brain :33

i love hello kitty and bts (〃ω〃) i also like drawing & writing !

i am a silly little guy !!! i am just a little cat. what do you want from me ?????

dni : posts jumpscares, anti anything i post, transphobic, homophobic, racist, pedo

this is a safe space !!!!!

[cghostrayne]

i gained 20+lbs from binging.

my experience with binging, going from 109lbs to 133lbs.

- i started wearing tshirts instead of crop tops with my friends

- my thighs always touch when i stand, and they chafe when i walk

- my pants feel tighter around my thighs and waist

- some of my shirts don't fit right anymore

- i don't want to go out with friends anymore because i'm too fat to be seen with them

- i don't take pictures with my friends, and if they do, i ask to be cropped out if they are to be posted

- no one stares at me anymore. i'm just normal now

- i don't get called "cute" anymore

- i've gained the action of wrapping my arms around my stomach when standing and walking

- i don't look good in my outfits anymore

- i often wear jackets, even on hot days, to hide how much fat is in my arms

- i'm the unphotogenic friend

- i only see my ribs when i stretch

- my hipbones are so much less noticeable

it's painful. it's so painful. i'm missing out on so many things because i gained weight.

never binge. it isn't worth it.

[cghostrayne]

i'm losing so much weight for you, darling ♡ i'll be your skinny little doll to play with in no time.

[cghostrayne]

horny men leave me alone challenge

i want my bf and my bf only

[yuyuorchid]

Need someone to stalk me lovingly and act all creepy with me only

[cghostrayne]

your new gf is ugly. she'll look prettier covered in blood, though!! so don't worry <3 i'll fix her up for you

[cghostrayne]

if you keep sending me pictures of her then i'm just going to go to her house and smother her with her pillow so you think she ghosted you and forgot about you.

why would you want her anyways? she's so ugly and i'm pretty!! you said so yourself. what do you see in her? i'll just take her clothes when i'm done.

[schizo-superpsycholove-deactiva]

[cghostrayne]

"if he told you to jump off a cliff, would you do it?"

i would do anything for you, darling. i'm under your command, forever and always.

[cghostrayne]

why do you not feel broken when you're not talking to me? why is it just me that feels like that?

why do i feel like i can't live without talking to you? why is it so hard when you don't answer me when i know you're on your phone?

why do i cry every night wishing you would call me love again? why do you think i can deal with you doing this to me?

[cghostrayne]

chain me up in your basement, put my food in a dog bowl and leave it across the room out of reach. watch me struggle to reach it until i give up and become your tiny doll to play with <3

[ilurvyer]

[cghostrayne]

lol you're trying to motivate yourself to starve when your doordash is on the way. do yourself a favor and just toss it in the trash when it gets there, just like you'd be throwing away your chances of being skinny by eating.

show everyone that you have dignity and self-control, because nothing is more unattractive than a chubby bitch complaining but doing nothing to change.

[cghostrayne]

when your bf buys you things except he's my captor and he's buying me a smaller cage <33333

[pastelfairytears]

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[iamagirl]

just girly things 𓏲๋ ⊹ ֢

[cghostrayne]

please if i ever try to leave, break my legs so i can't run away from you.