I am not the best person to judge myself and I often judge myself the hardest to give up before I even start. Encourage me to keep going for my goals and know what they are and help ensure I am doing my best to make my life something i can be proud of. Hold me to a higher standard than I do to myself because my strength is always found when you tell me you believe in me and if I can’t believe enough, you can order me to. I need you not let me give up.
Sometimes I will fight from things that scare me. I will want to resist change when it’s hard. I will beg you to “just this once” let it go. Don’t. Don’t let me be so comfortable as to think I can walk on you or bypass you or not respect the submission that I promised you and want to give you. Make sure I honor it, don’t be afraid to set me in my place because i really DO want it even if I resist. Even if I am defiant. I want you to make those choices because I trust you have my best interest at heart. I trust that if it’s hard for me to do that you will push me, but guide me and not let me just have my way. I need you to remind me of my place.
I am finding my way still. I am learning and growing and I will sometimes make mistakes and sometimes even disappoint you. My instincts are to hide or run when I am frightened of admitting what scares me. Please, gently remind me you love me and you are here for me and that we promised to communicate. Don’t raise your voice and demand I do what you need, but instead wrap me in your arms and let me catch my breath before I open the gates. It will get easier the more I trust you and the more you are there for me. I take time to open up, I think we have all been hurt before, but I need you to be patient with me on the days I find it difficult. If you are frustrated with me, please be patient enough to find the best ways to communicate and talk it out with me and always work through it. I’m not trying on purpose to upset you, only that sometimes I am human and I need you to remind me that I can always tell you anything.
I have lived indoors for so long, unable to really join “the real world”. Life is suddenly changing and things are getting a bit scarier as I step out into the world, especially when I feel so little. Please support me when I get too scared, be the powerful force behind my encouragement, be the proud Daddy when I bravely step into a new place. But keep your eye on me and sometimes I may trip or falter, or get overwhelmed..be the arms and safe place I can always run back to. Be my rock, my home, and my comfort when it all becomes too much.
It’s easy to become consumed with just one way to do things. Help me remember that our relationship is not linear. it is not based on just one role. When I feel little, be my rescuing Daddy. When I feel big, be the man honored to have me on your arm. When I feel submissive, be the Dominant that brings me to my knees. When I am a Mother, be the man who ensures I get the time and space with my daughter. But mostly, don’t let me forget how beautiful this is. How incredible it is to weave all these roles together. Don’t let one become the only good thing left of us, take care of all of them; love all of them.
I don’t ever want to stop talking and telling each other what we want. My desires, fantasies, needs, my wants (no matter how silly they may seem), and my fears too. You are my Daddy, I want to talk to you and not be scared to tell you the good and the bad. Please don’t use those things against me later. If I confide my trust in my Daddy and open up, please keep that between us.
Please don’t hold back from me, Daddy. Don’t hide things from me. Please be open and honest if things change or circumstances change. Both od us shouldn’t have to hide things from one another. I want a relationship that doesn’t hold back. Daddy is my strength, but I am his too. So when we aren’t feeling our best selves, let’s be honest and not pretend to be something we feel we can’t be in those moments.
Let me be taken on a journey with you, Daddy. I want the world to be bigger and brighter by your side. I want to be treated so small that everything seems and feels like Christmas morning. I don’t want to feel embarrassed to be your little girl. I don’t want her forgotten about. Help me see the world through Daddy’s eyes. Help me feel little. Help me keep the sparkle of amazement in all the little wonders around us. Like I am seeing the world for the first time.
