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System Failure - Chapter 80: Monaco

Pairing: Max Verstappen x Dr. Anastasia "Ana" Wolff (Original Character)

Summary:

Max Verstappen to Mercedes? The paddock is buzzing. The media’s in meltdown.

Dr. Anastasia “Ana” Wolff, Mercedes’ notoriously brilliant, emotionally unavailable lead systems engineer and Toto Wolff’s eldest daughter, is not handling it well. Because Max isn’t just a potential signing, he’s the man she’s been sleeping with in secret for nearly a decade.

And if the rumours are true, and Max Verstappen really is joining Mercedes, then Ana’s carefully compartmentalised world is about to explode.

Warnings and Notes: Therapy time! We'll get into some more nitty gritty of Ana's time in Vienna.

Let me know if I missed something else, and I'll add it!

As always big thanks to @llirawolf , who listens to me ramble.

Wolff Residence, Monaco - 8 October 2025

Toto did not bring it up until they were in bed.

That, more than anything, told Susie that whatever Ana had said to him had gone in deep.

He had made it through dinner. Through emails. Through one call he took in the study with the door half-closed and the expression of a man explaining something expensive.

Through brushing his teeth and setting his watch on the nightstand and the usual quiet choreography of two people who had lived together long enough to make domesticity look like instinct.

Only when the lights were out and the room had gone soft with dark and familiar silence did he finally say, into the middle of it:

“Anastasia thinks I have autistic traits.”

Susie, who had been turning onto her side with every intention of sleep, stopped halfway.

Then, very slowly, she turned her head on the pillow and looked at him.

Toto was lying on his back, one arm tucked behind his head, staring up at the ceiling with the expression of a man who had carried something home from work and was still not sure where to set it down.

Susie watched him for one second. Then said, with complete sincerity: “Darling. Are you actually surprised?”

That got his head turning. “Susie.”

“What?”

He stared at her.

She stared back, entirely untroubled. “No, genuinely,” she said. “Are you?”

Toto let out a breath through his nose. “She said I share traits with her.”

“Yes.”

“She said Jack also shares some traits.”

“Yes.”

“And Max.”

At that, the corner of Susie’s mouth twitched. “Yes,” she said. “That also tracks.”

Toto closed his eyes briefly.

The mattress shifted as Susie propped herself up a little higher against the pillows, studying him in the dark with the kind of affectionate calm that had gotten under his defenses years ago and apparently never intended to leave.

“Anastasia said,” he went on, “that Formula One attracts this sort of thing. That environments like the paddock normalize certain intensities because they reward them.” He paused. “Which was, annoyingly, a very coherent argument.”

“That does sound like Ana.”

“Yes.”

There was silence for a moment.

Then Toto turned his head back toward the ceiling and said, a little more quietly, “She said Max understood her because he shares enough traits that he always knew how to read her.”

Susie’s face changed. “Yes,” she said.

Toto looked back at her. “You knew that too.”

She considered the question. “I knew,” she said slowly, “that he has never seemed frightened by the parts of her that frightened other people.”

Toto was quiet for a while after that.

Susie let him be.

Eventually he said, with the peculiar tone of a man still trying to fit a new map over an old life, “Anastasia told me I share traits and then sat there like that was a reasonable thing to say to someone at fifty-five.”

Susie smiled into the dark. “It is a reasonable thing to say.”

“Not in the middle of a workday.”

“That part I’ll grant you.”

“She said Freya probably isn’t neurotypical either.”

That got a proper laugh out of Susie. Real enough to shake the bed a little.

“Oh, well,” she said, “that one’s almost unfair.”

Toto turned his head again. “You too?”

Susie lifted one shoulder against the sheet. “Toto, your sister disappears into gemstone markets for months, forgets to text, and then returns as if everyone else has been paused like a Youtube video. That woman has never moved through life in what anyone would call an ordinary way.”

toto looked offended on Freya’s behalf.

And then, because unfortunately he knew exactly what she meant, not quite offended enough. “Ana also said autism is a spectrum,” he murmured after a while. “Overlap. Environment. Friction. That the architecture is not the same as the suffering.”

Susie’s expression softened.

“That sounds like a good thing to hear.”

“Yes,” he said. “It was.”

He was quiet again.

Then: “She made the software for Jack.”

Susie’s face went still.

She had known parts of that already. The instinct behind it. The intensity of Ana’s attention from the moment Jack was born. The way she had gathered him into the structure of her care with that fierce, almost frightened devotion she reserved for people who mattered enough to her to change the world around them.

But hearing it in that form—made it for Jack—was still different.

“She told you that?”

“Yes.”

“How?”

“I asked the right question, apparently.”

“That must have been exhausting for you.”

That got him a faint laugh. “Yes.”

He looked at Susie properly now, not at the ceiling, not at the dark—at her.

“Ana said she didn’t know how to be a big sister,” he said. “So she learned everything she could about child psychology because she was afraid she would damage him.”

Susie closed her eyes for one second. “Oh, Ana.”

“Yes.”

He swallowed once. “She really thought that.”

They laid with that for a moment, the dark room holding the ache of it between them.

Then Toto said, quieter now, “She has been building bridges before anyone reaches the river.”

Susie reached across the space between them and laid her hand over his.

“Yes,” she said. “That’s what she does.”

He turned his hand under hers and threaded their fingers together. “I told her I was proud of her.”

Susie smiled. “Good.”

“She said ‘okay.’”

That made her laugh softly.

“Yes. That sounds right too.”

There was silence again after that, softer now. Less sharp around the edges.

Then Susie said, almost casually, “I made an appointment at the lawyers Friday morning.”

Toto blinked.

He turned toward her fully this time. “You what?”

“For the adoption paperwork.”

That pulled him all the way into the moment. “Friday.”

“Yes.”

“Morning.”

“Yes.”

“Without asking me first.”

Susie looked serene. “I was going to tell you.”

“You are telling me.”

“Yes,” she said. “And now you know.”

Toto stared at her for one long second. Then let out a breath that was almost a laugh and not quite anything else. “Susie.”

“What?”

“That is not a small thing to put in the middle of this conversation.”

“It seemed like a good place for it.”

He shook his head once, helpless and fond and still not entirely recovered from the day. “Friday,” he repeated.

“Yes.”

He looked at her hand in his. At the woman beside him. At the dark ceiling above them. At the life that had somehow become so complicated and yet, in the important places, so clear.

“For Ana,” Susie said quietly. “And for us. Properly.”

Toto’s throat tightened in the stupid, inconvenient way it sometimes did now when he was too tired to keep every feeling in orderly containment.

“Yes,” he said.

Susie squeezed his hand.

“And before you overthink it,” she added, because of course she did, “I’ve already spoken to the lawyer. We’ll go through the structure, the timing, the formalities. Nobody is ambushing anybody.”

“That’s kind.”

“I know.”

He lay there for another moment.

Then said, almost to himself, “Today my daughter told me I may share autistic traits with her, my future driver also does, my sister likely does, Formula One is apparently a concentration of unusual cognitive profiles, and now my wife has casually informed me that on Friday morning we are progressing the legal adoption of our daughter.”

Susie considered that. “Yes.”

Toto looked at her.

“What even is my life?”

Susie’s smile went slow and warm in the dark.

“Ours,” she said.

That undid him slightly more than he would have liked.

He turned onto his side then, still holding her hand, and looked at her the way he only really did when the world had stripped him down to the bones of himself and left no room for performance.

“You know,” he said quietly, “marrying you is still the best idea I ever had.”

Susie’s expression softened all the way. “I know,” she said.

And then, because she was still Susie, because love in this house was never allowed to remain solemn for too long without somebody grounding it back into the practical world: “So don’t be late on Friday.”

That got a real laugh out of him. Short. Tired. Whole.

“Yes, boss.”

“Good.”

She leaned over and kissed him once, gently, before settling back into the pillows.

The room went quiet again after that, but it was a different quiet than before.

And as Toto lay there beside her, hand still tangled with hers, he thought of Ana in Monaco, back under the same roof as Max, back where the piano waited, back in the life that had become hers in ways even he was only now beginning to understand.

He thought of Friday morning.

Of paperwork. Of lawyers. Of the absurdity and beauty of making something official that had, in all the ways that counted, long since become true.

And in the dark, with Susie beside him and the day finally loosening its grip around his chest, he let himself feel what he had not had time to feel properly in Ana’s office: that their daughter had spent years trying to build kinder futures for the people she loved, and now, finally, perhaps they were building one for her too.

***

Text Messages: Max Verstappen & Victoria Verstappen

Max: you awake?

Victoria: Yes. Why?

Max: Ana got home and had a meltdown.

Victoria: About what?!

Max: Toto bought her a piano. Her childhood was so fucked up, Vic. I knew it was bad in theory. I didn’t know about the pianos.

Victoria: The pianos?

Max: Her grandmother in Russia taught her how to play. Then she died and her mother sold that piano because Ana’s playing annoyed her

Max: Then in vienna there was another one and apparently her playing annoyed Stephanie too. So Toto got her a keyboard with headphones for her room?!

Max: And she took that to boarding school. And in Brackley she has that little yamaha that she doesn’t even really like, but she considers enough.

Victoria: Oh, Max.

Max: And now there’s this huge grand piano sitting in our living room and she just completely lost it

Victoria: Of course she did.

Max: I didn’t get it at first. But it’s not about the piano. It’s about how many times she learned to make herself smaller around it

Victoria: Yes. That’s exactly what it is.

Max: I hate all of them a bit

Victoria: That sounds healthy and proportionate.

Max: i’m serious

Victoria: I know you are

Victoria: How is she now?

Max: Asleep. I think she needed it. She cried herself empty and then just fell asleep.

Max: also

Victoria: Never good when a man types “also” at midnight

Max: i think she might actually be richer than me

Victoria: Oh, excellent. You’ve reached that stage.

Max: i’m serious

Victoria: I know

Max: she has companies, Vic

Victoria: Yes.

Max: YOU KNEW?!?!

Victoria: She mentioned a software company when you had the second surgery.

Max: Why do i keep finding out that everybody knows things about my fiancée except me?!

Max:Ana never told me about the software company. I said I know that Ana plays the stock market and Susie looked at me like I was stupid.

Victoria: For what it’s worth, I do think she may actually be richer than you in the “hidden structures and future-proofed ecosystem” sense.

Max: great

Victoria: Don’t sound so upset.

Max: i’m not upset i’m just trying to recalibrate around the fact that my future wife appears to quietly own half the future

Victoria: That sounds right.

Max: I think i am just going to let Ana do whatever she wants and make my life better.

Victoria: That is, for once, an extremely intelligent strategy.

Max: Thanks

Victoria: Embrace it. Just accept being the trophy husband, Maxie.

Victoria: You moved into her beautiful house.

Max: our house

Victoria: She has more companies than you.

Max: rude

Victoria: She is smarter than you.

Max: that’s not new

Victoria: She is richer than you.

Max: again rude

Victoria: The trophy husband allegations are becoming difficult to defend against, honestly.

Max: you know what i’m going to ignore you

Victoria: You say that now.

Max: i’m serious

Victoria: Also you do realize “letting Ana do whatever she wants” implies you have any control over that?

Max: i hate that you’re right

Victoria: I usually am.

Victoria:And Max?

Max: what

Victoria: You can’t fix what happened to her before. But you are very good at making sure she doesn’t have to shrink here.

Max: i know

Max: that’s the plan

Victoria: Good.

Victoria: Now stop texting me and continue your new life as an aggressively devoted almost-trophy husband.

Max: goodnight vic

Victoria: Goodnight, Maxie. You are absolutely the trophy husband.

Max: go away

Victoria: Never.

***

Maison Étoiles, Monaco - 9 October 2025

Ana woke before the sun had fully decided what kind of morning it wanted to be.

For one disoriented second she did not know where she was, only that the air was soft and the sheets were expensive and there was warmth beside her in the shape of another body.

Then memory settled back into place in layers: Monaco, Max, the piano, crying so hard she had embarrassed herself past language, falling asleep in his arms while he held her as if there were no version of the world in which he would do otherwise.

She laid still.

Max was asleep on his side, one arm crooked toward the space she had occupied, hair a complete disaster, mouth softened in sleep in a way that always made him look younger and less armored than he ever permitted in daylight. His leg was arranged carefully. His shoulder, too. Even unconscious, he looked like someone who had learned how to negotiate pain.

Ana watched him for a moment with that strange, private tenderness exhaustion sometimes left behind in its wake.

Then she slipped out of bed.

Not because she wanted to leave him. Because she did not want to wake him. He was finally sleeping properly, and after the last weeks she would have fought God before she disturbed that.

Ana went downstairs barefoot, one hand trailing lightly over the banister. Dawn had not yet fully breached the windows, but the rooms had begun to gather light in pale, careful increments.

Jimmy trotted immediately toward her, winding himself around her calves with all the affectionate shamelessness Sassy found vulgar. Ana bent to pick him up, settling him against her shoulder, his body warm and solid and alive in that uncomplicated feline way.

“Dobroye utro,” she murmured. Good Morning.

Sassy took the more dignified route, descending from the stool with a controlled little jump and approaching only when it became clear Ana intended to remain stationary long enough to be useful.

Ana crouched automatically, running her hands over warm fur, grounding herself in the simple solidity of them.

“You are both very dramatic creatures,” she told Jimmy softly in Russian as he pushed his head harder under her palm. “Terrible boundaries. No discipline. Completely spoiled.”

Jimmy purred like an engine starting.

Sassy accepted her own head rub with the grave tolerance of a queen permitting tribute.

The kitchen was quiet. The garden beyond the glass still dark. The house holding itself in that suspended, almost holy stillness before daylight breached the peace.

She set Jimmy down eventually and crossed into the sitting room.

And there it was.

The Bösendorfer sat in the sitting room exactly where it had yesterday, dark and impossible and still faintly absurd even now.

In the early half-light it looked less like a gift and more like an animal at rest—something self-possessed, intelligent… sleeping and waiting to see if it would be addressed correctly.

Ana stopped at the threshold.

Jimmy wove once around her ankles. Sassy jumped onto the back of the sofa and sat down with the severe posture of a disapproving patron of the arts.

Ana looked at the piano for a long moment.

Yesterday it had been too many things at once.

Moscow and Yelena and Irina and Vienna and Stephanie and the keyboard and Switzerland and Bosworth and Cambridge and Brackley and the whole humiliating architecture of having learned, again and again, that music became a problem the moment it took up too much room.

Memory and grief and want and shame and love all arriving at once in one beautiful object.

Last night the piano had stood there like a challenge to every smaller version of herself Ana Wolff had ever had to become.

This morning, with the house asleep and nobody watching, the piano was only a piano.

Waiting.

Jimmy wound around her ankle. Ana straightened slowly and crossed the room barefoot, the cats following in the silent, ceremonial way they had when they suspected a human required supervision.

Ana stopped at the bench.

Looked at the piano.

Then sat down.

The wood was cool beneath her fingertips when she lifted the fallboard.

The keys beneath were pale and perfect and faintly unfamiliar in their weight before even a note had sounded. She rested her hands just above them and closed her eyes.

And there they all were, as they always were when music reached into the older rooms of her memory: Yelena’s wrist tapping tempo into her skin in Moscow; the smell of old paper and tea; the keyboard with headphones in Vienna; the first Bösendorfer in Switzerland; the Yamaha in Brackley, practical and careful and chosen, in part, for how little it could offend anyone but her.

And beneath all of that, deeper than the rooms and the instruments and the women who had loved or resented her through them, the one constant thing that had never left: the music itself.

It lived in her body differently than language. Once learned, it remained.

Ana never needed notes if something had been truly learned by her. It simply stayed, waiting behind the eyes and in the hands, ready to come back at her call.

Her fingers found the opening chord of Rachmaninoff’s Prelude in C-sharp minor before she had consciously decided on it.

Of course it was that.

Of course, after everything, it would be a Russian composer. Something grave and dark and storm-heavy, something built from repetition and force and ache. Something that did not apologize for intensity.

Something that understood that beauty could be enormous, and severe, and still true.

The first tolling chords filled the room.

It was not tentative. It could not be. The piece did not allow for tentativeness. It demanded weight and certainty and a kind of emotional clarity that bordered on brutality.

Under her hands, the Bösendorfer answered with a richness so deep it felt almost alive, the sound opening beneath her like dark water.

Not through headphones. Not softened. Not translated into something smaller.

The Bösendorfer gave the sound back to her in full—deep, resonant, orchestral in the way it carried through the house.

Ana felt it under her hands, under her ribs, in the floorboards.

Ana did not think while she played.

That was part of the relief.

No translation. No decisions. No correct social response.

Moscow. Yelena. A small hand on a keyboard. A tap against her wrist when she rushed. Again, Nastyusha. Stay with it. Again.

She did.

Always she had stayed with it.

Through repetition. Through grief. Through being told she was too much. Through keyboards and headphones and careful self-containment and the thin practical compromises of survival.

And now here, in Monaco, in the half-light of a house that was hers, on a piano no one could take from the room because it made them uncomfortable, she let the piece take up all the space it wanted.

The chords rose and broke and gathered again under her hands, dark and furious and beautiful.

Perhaps that was why she had always loved Russian composers best.

They were not frightened by intensity.

***

Maison Étoiles, Monaco - 9 October 2025

Max woke slowly, the way people only really did when they had finally slept hard enough for their body to trust the dark again.

At first he only registered warmth and the absence of it.

The place beside him was empty.

That, on its own, did not worry him. Ana got up early the way some people developed habits and others developed weather systems. Besides, after the day before—Brackley, the flight, the piano, the crying—he had not really expected her to sleep late like a normal person with sensible boundaries around stress.

Then he heard the piano.

Not loudly.

Not in the showy way music filled a house when someone wanted to be heard.

It rose through the floorboards and the morning quiet with a kind of grave certainty, the first chords so dark and deliberate that for one disoriented second Max thought he was still dreaming.

He lay still.

Listening.

The sound was nothing like he imagined. This was bigger. Deeper. It moved through the house instead of merely existing in it. The Bösendorfer gave every note back with weight, and under Ana’s hands it sounded almost orchestral—too large for one person and therefore exactly right for her.

Max stared up at the ceiling and understood, all at once, what Susie had meant yesterday when she said Ana could have made a career out of it if engineering hadn’t worked out.

Not because Ana played beautifully.

That was almost too small a word for what this was.

It was the authority of it. The command. The way she did not sound tentative even in solitude. The way the piece seemed less performed than drawn out of something she had been carrying for years and had finally found room to let loose properly.

He did not know enough about music to name what made it extraordinary in technical terms, but he knew what his body did in response: went still, then quiet, then a little wrecked around the edges.

He stayed where he was until the last notes died away.

Then he got up.

Slowly, because his leg still demanded negotiations in the morning, and because some instinct in him said this was not a moment to arrive carelessly.

By the time he reached the sitting room doorway, Ana was still at the piano bench, hands fallen loose into her lap, back very straight, head slightly bowed as if she had not yet fully come back to the room. Jimmy had installed himself beside her with all the smug intimacy of a creature who knew he had front-row seats to something important. Sassy sat on the back of the sofa like a tiny, judgmental patroness of Russian melancholy.

Max leaned one shoulder against the frame and looked at her.

Barefoot. One of his old shirts on her, sleeves pushed back. Hair half-fallen over one shoulder. Morning light gathering pale and careful at the windows beyond the piano.

For a second he did not say anything.

He only watched her in the aftermath of the music and felt, with sharp, almost humiliating clarity, how badly he wanted to understand every part of her he had not yet been handed.

When she finally noticed him, she turned her head slightly and said, very softly, “Hi.”

Max’s mouth moved before he was ready for it.

“Hi.”

Ana studied his face for one second, then glanced toward the stairs. “I didn’t mean to wake you.”

“You didn’t.” He came a little closer, crutch under one arm, eyes still on her. “Or maybe you did and I’m forgiving you because that was…” He stopped. Shook his head once. “Jesus.”

That got the smallest flicker at the corner of her mouth.

“Very eloquent.”

“I’m serious.”

“I know.”

He stopped beside the bench and looked at the keys, then at her hands, then at her face again.

“What were you playing?”

Ana glanced back at the piano as if the answer still lived there in the wood.

“Rachmaninoff,” she said. “Prelude in C-sharp minor. Opus three, number two.”

Max repeated none of that because there was no chance he would get it right and she knew it.

“Russian.”

“Yes.”

“You like Russian composers.”

Something in her expression softened, not into a smile exactly, but into a kind of tired truth.

“Yes,” she said. “I do.”

Max looked at the piano again, then back at her.

“You don’t need sheet music?”

“No.”

“You just remember it?”

“Yes.”

“All of it?”

“Yes.”

That should not have surprised him after everything else he knew about her mind, and yet somehow it still did. Not because he doubted her. Because there seemed to be no limit to the things she could carry once they were properly hers.

He leaned one hip carefully against the side of the piano.

“Susie said that you could have made a living out of that.”

Ana looked at him, and this time the smile that came was smaller and stranger. Not disbelieving. More like she had lived too long with the sentence occupying a category all its own. “Susie says many things. I am rusty.”

“Ana,” he said slowly, “if that was rusty, then I’m only kind of good at driving.”

She laughed softly, a little embarrassed now. “I haven’t played properly in years.”

He reached out and touched the back of her neck lightly, thumb brushing the soft skin there.

“I’m glad I got to hear you.”

Her expression changed.

Only slightly.

Enough.

“Me too,” she said.

Then, because reality was rude and clocks existed and this was still not a morning allowed to belong entirely to music, Ana exhaled and looked toward the kitchen clock over his shoulder.

“I need to get dressed.”

Max frowned. “Why?”

She blinked once, as if the reason ought to have been self-evident even before coffee.

“I am supposed to go to the psychiatrist with my father.”

Right.

That.

He straightened a little. “Today.”

“Yes.”

She did not say unfortunately. She didn’t need to. The word hovered over the sentence anyway.

Max studied her face more closely now in the morning light.

She looked better than last night.

Not good, exactly. More assembled. More vertical inside herself. The crying had carved something out of her and left her quieter, but not in the dangerous way.

Still, he could see she didn’t want to go.

He brushed his thumb once against her nape. “You’ll be okay.”

Ana gave him a look that suggested she considered this both unsupported and annoyingly kind.

“That remains to be seen.”

Max huffed a laugh. “I’ll get things ready for lunch,” he said.

Ana, who had clearly not yet mentally re-entered the social calendar, frowned faintly. “What lunch?”

Max looked at her. “The housewarming.”

There was a beat. Then:

“Oh,” she said. Another beat. Then, deadpan: “Oh joy. Twenty Formula One drivers in one place.”

“More or less.”

She closed her eyes briefly.

Max watched the exact moment she recalculated the shape of the afternoon and found it wanting.

Then he added, because he was not cruel enough to let her discover it only when the door opened, “And some of their girlfriends.”

Ana’s eyes opened immediately. “What?”

Max had the grace to look only a little guilty. “Oscar asked.”

“And?”

“Was I supposed to say no?”

She stared at him. He stared back.

Because genuinely, what had been the alternative there? Tell Oscar Piastri he could attend the housewarming but only if he surgically separated himself from Lily in the interests of preserving Ana’s peace? That seemed less realistic than simply accepting the chaos and seeing what survived.

Ana made a noise under her breath in Russian that was almost certainly not complimentary. “That is not going to end well,” she said.

Max frowned. “Why?”

That got him a look so dry it could have aged wood. “Because,” she said, “historically, me being myself in rooms full of women I do not know has not always produced euphoric social outcomes.”

He looked at her for a second. Then said, very simply, “Be yourself.”

That made her laugh once, but there was very little joy in it. “Yes,” she said. “That has also historically not gone well often.”

Max reached for her then, one hand settling at her waist and drawing her a little closer before she could retreat fully into irony and logistics and expecting to be too much for a room.

“They’re coming to our house,” he said. “And you’re allowed to be exactly who you are in it.”

Ana looked at him.

He could see the resistance first—the instinctive disbelief, the old expectation that being permitted and being liked were never quite the same thing.

So he added, quieter: “And if any of them are stupid about you, that sounds like their problem, not yours.”

That, finally, got the faintest real smile.

Her hand came up then, fingertips brushing once over the front of his shirt, absent and affectionate and still maybe a little stunned by being home and by the piano and by the fact that this was her morning now: Russian music before dawn, a psychiatrist by obligation, and lunch with half the paddock because apparently Max had lost all commitment to manageable guest lists.

“I really do have to get dressed,” she said after a moment.

“I know.”

“You’ll survive the preparations without me?”

“Don’t worry.”

A softer look crossed her face then.

“Toto will pick me up in an hour.”

Max nodded.

He should have let her go.

Instead he leaned in and kissed her once, because morning and music and the memory of last night were all still too close to ignore, and because he wanted one more second of her here before the day started pulling pieces of her away again.

When he drew back, he said, “Play again later.”

Ana looked at him.

Then at the piano.

Then back at him.

And something in her expression changed—small, uncertain, but real.

As if the request itself still surprised her. As if some part of her had not yet adjusted to the possibility that someone might hear her and simply want more, without complaint or correction or narrowing.

“Yes,” she said. Then, more quietly: “I think I’d like that.”

***

Somewhere in Monaco, Monaco - 6 October 2025

Of all the rooms Ana disliked on principle, therapy offices ranked unusually high.

Not because they were ugly. Dr. Elise Chirac’s office, like most expensive Monaco professional spaces, was designed to be aggressively inoffensive. Soft cream walls. Two armchairs angled toward each other but not so directly that conversation felt like combat.. Shelves of books meant to imply both intelligence and calm. One lamp. One window. One abstract painting with colors so carefully regulated it might as well have been on medication.

ana hated the soft tissues placed within tasteful reach. The tea tray. The calm art. The low table with smooth stones in a ceramic bowl, as though a person in real emotional distress might at any moment think, yes, what I really need now is a decorative pebble.

Ana hated it.

She hated the entire category of place.

Not because she didn’t believe in psychology. Quite the opposite.

She believed in psychology a great deal. She had read enough of it, studied enough of it, applied enough of it to herself and Jack and software architecture and systems design to know that minds were real and damage was real and patterns were real.

What she distrusted was therapy as performed around her.

Too many offices. Too many voices. Too many adults paid to ask questions and then fail, with varying degrees of professionalism, to understand that she was spending more energy in the room trying to look acceptable than they were spending trying to see her.

Growing up, therapy had mostly felt like another environment in which she was expected to become legible on other people’s terms.

Therapists had wanted eye contact, emotional spontaneity, verbal softness, cleanly named feelings, neat child-sized narratives about pain.

They had wanted access to the inside of her while rewarding only the parts of it that arrived in a format they recognized.

So Ana had done what she always did when placed under observation by adults with power and poor pattern recognition:

She had masked.

She had sat correctly.

Spoken precisely.

Given them enough to make them feel useful and not enough to let them get anything important dirty with their interpretations.

She had become, in therapy offices, a version of herself so controlled that sometimes she left more tired than when she’d arrived and with nothing remotely repaired.

So no, she did not like therapy.

She had agreed to this session with Toto because she had said she would, and because he had asked honestly, and because part of her—small and treacherous and impossible to fully eliminate—had understood what he meant when he’d said he wanted one hour in which neither of them had to be efficient.

Unfortunately, therapy offices all but demanded efficiency from her on contact.

Dr. Chirac, at least, did not seem surprised by the visible reluctance in her posture as Ana took the chair nearest the window and folded herself into it with the straight-backed composure of someone waiting for an unpleasantly intelligent customs interview.

Toto sat opposite her, somehow managing to look large and slightly overformal even in a soft upholstered chair. His suit jacket was gone. His shirt sleeves were rolled once. He looked like a man trying not to treat the session like a board meeting and only partially succeeding.

Dr. Chirac sat between them at an angle that suggested neutrality.

There was the usual beginning. Ground rules. Confidentiality.

The reminder that the purpose of the session was not to “fix” either of them, but to create space for conversation that had become difficult elsewhere.

Ana hated that phrasing too.

Still, she said nothing.

Toto, beside her, also said nothing.

Dr. Chirac let the silence breathe longer than most people did, which Ana noticed and filed accordingly.

Then the therapist said, gently, “Toto, perhaps you can begin. You were the one who asked Ana to come.”

Toto exhaled once through his nose.

Ana kept her eyes on the edge of the low table.

“There are things,” he said slowly, “that my daughter does not tell me.”

That was one version of the problem.

Not the whole one.

She could already tell he knew that too.

Dr. Chirac inclined her head slightly. “Such as.”

Toto gave a short laugh that had no amusement in it. “Apparently software companies. Holding structures. Patents. A scholarship. A relationship with Max Verstappen that somehow remained private for nearly ten years without me knowing.”

That did get Ana’s eyes up.

Not because the content surprised her.

Because hearing the list aloud in a therapist’s office made her want to leave through the wall.

Dr. Chirac’s gaze moved to her. “Ana.”

Ana rested her hands together in her lap so tightly the knuckles whitened.

“Yes.”

“Why didn’t you tell him?”

There were, she thought, many possible answers.

Ana’s first instinct was the technically correct answer: because disclosure had never reliably improved outcomes.

Because information, once given, tended to become something other people managed rather than something she owned. Because privacy was often the only viable form of control left when you were young and bright and perpetually being interpreted by adults.

All true.

She chose the cleanest one.

“I didn’t think he wanted to hear about it.”

The room went quiet.

Toto turned his head toward her immediately.

“What.”

Ana did not look at him.

“Not in a dramatic sense,” she said, because she could hear the tone of her own sentence and already disliked it. “I didn’t think you were interested in those parts of my life unless they became administratively relevant.”

“You always tried to keep the peace,” she said to Toto.

He was already frowning slightly, not in disagreement but in the way he did when he saw a structure forming and suspected he was not going to like its conclusions.

“Yes,” he said cautiously.

“Yes,” Ana repeated. “That was the governing principle of much of my childhood with you.”

Dr. Chirac glanced at Toto. “Keeping the peace with whom?”

Toto answered before Ana could.

“With Stephanie. With the household. With…” He stopped. “Everything, probably.”

Ana let that sit.

Then she said, “And when the governing principle of a house is peace, the child who creates friction learns things.”

Toto went very still.

Dr. Chirac asked gently, “What did you learn?”

Ana’s voice stayed flat. That helped.

“That being wanted and being tolerated are not the same thing.” She folded one thumb against the edge of her other hand. “That noise has a hierarchy. That repetition is fine when it belongs to men and machines and ambition, and less fine when it belongs to a girl at a piano in the sitting room.” Her eyes dropped once to the carpet, then returned to the therapist. “That if the room keeps reorganizing around other people’s comfort, you are a guest in it, not a child.”

Toto shut his eyes for one second.

When he opened them again, there was no defensiveness left in his face. Only the terrible attentiveness of someone hearing the emotional mathematics of his own choices laid out by the person who had lived inside them.

“The keyboard,” he said.

Ana nodded once.

Dr. Chirac looked between them. “Tell me about the keyboard.”

Ana almost laughed.

Not because it was funny. Because it was such a small object to carry so much weight.

“There was a piano in the apartment in Vienna,” she said. “In the sitting room. I played it. Stephanie found it too loud, too repetitive, too much.” Her mouth moved slightly. “So Papa got me a keyboard with a headphone jack for my room.”

Dr. Chirac was quiet for a beat. “And what did that mean to you then?”

“ I should be grateful,” Ana said at once. “Which I was, in the technical sense. It was a very practical solution.”

“That is not what I asked.”

No. It wasn’t.

Ana looked down at her hands again.

“It made me feel,” she said slowly, “like I was only there on the condition that I remained manageable.”

The room went very still.

Toto spoke first, but only just.

“Anastasia—”

She looked at him.

“I know you weren’t trying to say that,” she said. “That is not the point. Children rarely learn exclusively from intention.”

That one landed hard enough that he actually looked away.

Dr. Chirac said, “And because he tried to keep the peace, you experienced that as…”

Ana answered before she could finish. “Evidence.”

“Of?”

She looked at Toto now, because if she was going to say it, she was at least going to say it to the correct person.

“That he didn’t want to have me.”

The words sat there, clean and unbearable.

Toto stared at her.

Ana could feel the old shame already arriving in advance of his response, not because she believed the sentence was factually complete but because saying it aloud made her feel eight again and unbearable by definition.

“You didn’t choose to have me,” she said, still looking at him. “Irina dropped me off with you when I was eight. That is not the same thing as building a life and deciding, from the beginning, yes, this child is mine and I want her here.” Her voice had gone quieter now, which on her often meant more dangerous, not less. “So when the household kept adjusting around the idea that I should be quieter, more convenient, less intrusive, it did not feel irrational to conclude that I was there on sufferance.”

Toto had gone pale.

“I know now,” she said, more quietly, “that the situation was more complicated than that. I understand things I did not understand at eight. But that is not how it felt then.”

Toto’s hands were clasped so tightly together his knuckles had gone white.

When he finally spoke, his voice was rougher than usual. “You thought I didn’t want you.”

Ana’s instinct was to correct the sentence into something more technically precise.

Not didn’t want. Didn’t choose. Didn’t actively reject, but also didn’t visibly stake a claim in the ways children recognize.

Didn’t know what to do with the circumstance, and so defaulted to containment and survival and peacekeeping.

But that was not, in emotional terms, meaningfully different to an eight-year-old.

So she said only, “Yes.”

Toto pressed his mouth into a line and looked down at his own hands.

Dr. Chirac did not rescue him.

“When Irina left you with me,” he said, slowly, as though each word had to be chosen around broken glass, “I did not choose the circumstances.”

Ana nodded once. “Yes.”

“But I chose you.”

That, she had not expected.

Not because it was impossible. Because he had never said it like that.

She looked at him properly then.

Toto met her gaze and did not look away.

“I chose you every day after that,” he said. “Badly, sometimes. Perhaps not clearly enough. But I did.”

The thing about therapy, Ana thought bitterly, was that on the rare occasions someone said exactly the right thing in one of those rooms, it was much worse than if they had said nothing useful at all.

She looked down before her face could betray too much.

“I know that more now,” she said. “The piano you bought… it is beautiful,” she said. “Truly beautiful. Thank you.” Her fingers tightened once against each other. “And I understand what you mean by it. The gift. The gesture. The attempt at… restoration, perhaps.”

Toto made a small sound, almost like pain.

She continued anyway. “But it touched the old wound first,” she said. “Before it could become anything else.”

Dr. Chirac nodded. “Because?”

“Because it was large. Visible. Impossible to minimize.” Ana looked past the therapist, toward the window again, seeing for a moment not sunlight on a quiet office but the Bösendorfer, black and impossible in the morning light. “And because for years the lesson was that if I wanted too much space, the correct response was to move me somewhere smaller.”

Toto looked up at that.

“Ana,” he said, and this time there was nothing in his voice except grief and the effort not to let that grief become a demand on her, “I never wanted you to feel like a guest.”

She believed him.

That was the problem with adulthood. Sometimes you finally believed the thing too late for it to undo the original learning.

“I know that now more than I did then,” she said.

It was, for her, a concession of unusual generosity.

Toto understood that. She could see it in the way he nodded once, very carefully, as if he knew better than to reach for more.

Dr. Chirac let the silence settle around that before shifting them back to the earlier thread.

“And when you say you didn’t think your father wanted to hear about your life,” she said, “does this connect for you?”

Ana almost smiled, but not quite.

“Yes.”

“How.”

She looked at Toto, then at the therapist.

“If you grow up learning that your presence in a household is conditionally tolerated to the extent that it does not create excess noise, excess friction, excess need,” she said, “you do not then mature into a woman who volunteers personal disclosures under the assumption that people are desperate to hear them.”

Toto winced. “You are making it sound very bleak.”

Ana raised an eyebrow slightly. “Was it not?”

He took that hit properly, which she respected. “No,” he said. “It was.”

That made something in her unclench by a degree.

Dr. Chirac said, “And Max?”

Toto let out the smallest, strangest laugh. “Yes. Max.”

Ana looked down.

Of course the relationship would come back into the room. Nothing stayed buried forever once therapists started building timelines.

“You kept him a secret for ten years,” Dr. Chirac said.

Ana corrected automatically. “9 actually.”

Toto made a sound that suggested the distinction was not, to him, especially therapeutic.

“A long time,” Dr. Chirac amended.

“Yes.”

“And why keep that from your father?”

Ana thought about it.

There were many answers. Privacy. Self-protection. The fact that Max had always felt like the one thing that was entirely hers, outside the systems of family and paddock and public inheritance. The fact that telling Toto would have made it real in an ecosystem where real things tended to become vulnerable.

But beneath all that was the same quieter answer.

“I did not think,” she said, “that he wanted to hear that his daughter had been having sex with Max Verstappen.”

Dr. Chirac made no visible reaction, which Ana had to respect on principle.

Toto, meanwhile, looked as though he had been hit in the chest. “That is not—”

“No,” Ana said, and now there was an edge in it, not anger exactly but the bright clean blade of old embarrassment. “Please do not sanitize it after the fact. That is exactly what it was for a very long time, Papa.”

Toto swallowed once.

“You have very fixed ideas,” Ana said quietly, “about professionalism, boundaries, image, team politics, the sport, me. And Max existed in direct conflict with too many of those categories for too long.” She shrugged one shoulder. “So I did not especially think announcing a years-long entanglement with the most politically inconvenient man in Formula One would produce paternal warmth.”

Dr. Chirac’s pen finally touched the notebook.

Toto looked, for a moment, almost stricken. “Anastasia.”

Ana’s voice stayed even. “You are asking why I don’t tell you things. I am telling you.”

“So this was partly about privacy,” she said, “and partly about expectation.”

Ana looked at her. “Yes.”

“What expectation?”

“That it would not be welcome,” Ana said.

Toto rubbed a hand once over his mouth.

“I would have wanted to know.”

Ana’s expression changed by almost nothing.

“Would you?”

That was not a challenge. That was worse. It was genuine.

“You did not ask, once, if I was seeing somebody, Papa. I don’t know if you didn’t think I was capable of romantic love, but you never asked.”

Dr. Chirac did not let either of them escape into the technical correctness of that.

“What would asking have meant to you?” she asked Toto.

He was quiet for a long time.

Finally he said, “Interest. Permission, maybe.” Then he looked at Ana, face unguarded in a way she still found difficult to bear. “A claim.”

Yes.

There it was.

That was the correct word.

Ana felt something low and sharp move in her chest.

Because that had always been the missing thing, hadn’t it? Not only love, because love had existed in fragments and gestures and financial protection and effort and all the other adult currencies he knew how to spend. But claim. The clear, repeated, unembarrassed act of saying: this child is mine, this life is mine to know, this person is not merely in the house but of it.

Dr. Chirac watched the recognition pass between them and, to her credit, did not immediately speak over it.

When she finally did, her voice was measured.

“It sounds,” she said, “as though both of you have spent many years translating love into forms the other does not always read correctly.”

That was such an offensively neat sentence that Ana almost disliked it on principle.

And yet.

Yes.

Toto rubbed a hand over his face. “That sounds true.”

Ana looked at the tissue box and decided against it out of spite.

Dr. Chirac turned to her. “What do you need from him now?”

Ana hated that question instantly.

Not because it was wrong. Because it required future-oriented desire, and she had survived much of her life by minimizing that into something administratively safe.

Still, she answered.

“Curiosity,” she said. “Without management.”

Toto actually blinked at that.

She went on.

“I need you to ask because you want to know, not because something has already become a problem. I need…” She paused, annoyed at herself. “Less peacekeeping. More choosing.”

The room went quiet again.

Toto nodded once, slowly, like a man accepting both a wound and an instruction.

“I can do that,” he said.

Ana believed he meant it.

Whether either of them knew how to enact it consistently was a different question.

Dr. Chirac glanced at the clock then, not in a way that felt hurried, only accurate.

“We have a few minutes left,” she said. “Is there anything either of you wants to make sure leaves the room with you today?”

Ana would have preferred to leave nothing at all and perhaps set fire to the conceptual outline of therapy on her way out.

Toto, however, looked at her with the kind of tired determination that suggested he had found one more thing in himself worth saying while he still had the structure of the room to hold him up.

“I wanted the piano to say,” he said to her, not to the therapist, “that you are not a guest. That you never were. And that I am sorry for every time my keeping the peace made you feel otherwise.”

Ana looked at him.

And because Dr. Chirac’s office was exactly the sort of room where emotions were meant to become legible and because she was tired enough to stop pretending she could fully evade that forever, she said the truest thing available.

“It did not say that first.”

Toto nodded, immediate and pained. “I know.”

“But,” she added, because fairness mattered and because she would not let the old hurt erase the present entirely, “it may say it now. Eventually.”

That was all she had.

He understood it for the gift it was and did not reach greedily for more.

“Okay,” he said.

Dr. Chirac smiled slightly, not triumphantly, just with the quiet satisfaction of someone who had seen two very difficult people manage not to flee the most important sentence in the room.

“Then perhaps that is enough for today.”

Ana doubted it had been enough for anyone, but she appreciated the official ending.

As they stood to leave, she already felt the old reflex returning—the urge to reassemble, to smooth over, to become again the version of herself most compatible with hallways and offices and fathers and leaving.

She hated that.

She hated, too, that therapy always made her feel less transparent rather than more, because now she had to build herself back into a shape the world expected before lunch.

Still.

When they reached the door, Toto paused and looked at her.

Not speaking. Just looking.

Less management. More choosing.

Ana exhaled slowly.

Then, before she could reconsider, said, “I still don’t like therapy.”

That got the faintest real smile out of him.

“Yes,” he said. “That was clear.”

***

Maison Étoiles, Monaco - 6 October 2025

By eleven, Max had discovered that “casual lunch” was a phrase people used when they wanted to lie.

The house had been transformed in stages all morning.

First by Ana’s piano at dawn, which still felt less like an object and more like a shift in atmospheric pressure.

Then by Ana leaving with Toto for therapy in a dark suit and loafers, looking so composed that if Max had not watched her cry in his arms the night before, he might almost have believed she had become emotionally indestructible overnight.

She had stood in the hall with her bag over one shoulder while Toto waited outside and told him, very flatly, “Please do not do anything stupid while I am gone.”

To which he replied, with perfect sincerity, “I am an adult.”

She had looked at him for one second too long and said, “I know. Still.”

Then she’d kissed him once, quick and absent-minded and still soft around the edges from the morning, and gone.

Now she was absent, and the house was filled with evidence that Max had made a series of increasingly questionable social decisions.

Daniel had arrived first, wearing sunglasses, carrying pastries, and bringing the energy of a man who believed any logistical task could be improved by commentary.

Susie had followed not long after, immaculate as ever, with a tote bag full of things no one had asked her to bring and which had all, within fifteen minutes after her arrival, proven necessary.

Max was in the kitchen on crutches, pretending he was supervising and not simply being tolerated in his own house while healthier adults arranged his life around him.

Daniel stood on a chair reaching into one of the upper cabinets because apparently there were suddenly not enough glasses in visible range, while Susie was at the island decanting flowers into lower vases with the ruthless efficiency of someone who believed in beauty but distrusted stems.

Max watched them both and said, “I regret inviting anyone.”

“You say that now,” Daniel replied, not even looking down. “But in three hours when twenty Formula One drivers are here eating your food and insulting your life choices, you’ll be delighted.”

“No.”

“Yes.”

“No.”

Susie, clipping one hydrangea stem shorter with surgical precision, said, “You invited them. This is now what we call a natural consequence.”

Max looked offended. “That sounds like something Ana would say.”

“Who do you think she got it from?” Susie asked drily.

Daniel leaned down from the chair. “Also, for the record, if this goes badly, I’d like it noted that I was very much in favor of the chaos.”

“That is also not helping.”

It was, Max thought, deeply suspicious how naturally Daniel and Susie had aligned into a working team.

Not because they were especially similar. Because they were both apparently capable of treating his house like a manageable project and him like a mildly inconvenient variable inside it.

The dining table had already been set. Food would arrive in waves from the restaurant that Max had ordered catering from.

The living room looked offensively elegant, all expensive art and the Bösendorfer and the kind of natural light that made ordinary people seem underfunded.

Daniel stepped down from the chair and glanced around. “This is going to be ridiculous.”

“It already is.” Max shifted his grip on the crutches and looked toward the piano without really meaning to.

Susie noticed.

Of course she did.

She noticed everything.

Her expression softened just slightly as she followed his gaze.

“Well?” she asked.

Max looked back at her. “Well what.”

“How did it go?”

That question could have meant many things. It did not.

Then: “Nastya played this morning.”

Daniel, halfway through unwrapping some kind of absurdly expensive olives he had apparently appointed himself guardian of, looked up immediately.

“She played?”

Max glanced at him. “Yeah. Also, you were understating it, Susie. She could have made a career out of it.” He exhaled through his nose. “She played Rachmaninoff. Some prelude. Russian. Very dramatic.”

Daniel looked delighted. “That sounds incredible.”

“It was.”

Susie smiled. “Good.”

Max looked back toward the piano.

“She told me about Moscow,” he said. “And Yelena. And Irina selling the first piano.”

Susie’s face changed immediately. She knew those parts. Knew the grandmother, the first lessons, the old Russian beginnings of Ana’s music. She had known that much for years.

Then Max added, “And Vienna.”

Susie stilled.

“Vienna?” she repeated.

Max looked back at her. “Yeah.”

Something in her expression sharpened.

Because whatever she had expected next, it was not what came out of his mouth.

“There was a piano in the apartment,” he said. “When she was living there with Toto and Stephanie and the kids. She used to play in the sitting room.”

Susie said nothing.

Daniel, suddenly much quieter, leaned back against the counter and looked between them.

Max went on, because now that he had started he could see, with increasing clarity, that Susie had not known this part either.

“And apparently her playing annoyed Stephanie,” he said. “So Toto got her a keyboard with headphones for her room.”

Silence.

Not the ordinary kind.

The kind that arrived when something was so precisely ugly that the room had to reorganize itself around it before anyone could respond.

Susie’s hand was still resting on the flowers, but her fingers had gone very still against the stem of a white hydrangea.

“What,” she said.

It was not disbelief.

It was fury arriving in a controlled register.

Max held her gaze. “That’s what Ana said.”

Susie set the stem down very carefully.

“She had a keyboard,” she said, and now the anger was so quiet it was almost elegant. “In her room.”

Max nodded once.

“With headphones.”

“Yes.”

Daniel looked at the counter. Then away. He had the tact, for once, not to say anything.

Susie drew in one slow breath.

Because no.

No, she had not known that.

She had known about Yelena. Knew Ana’s grandmother had taught her.

Knew that after the divorce there had been the upright Bösendorfer in Switzerland, and that Ana had often played there in the evenings, when she wasn’t at school. She knew about the Yamaha in Brackley, a practical choice.

But the Vienna part—

No.

That had never been mentioned.

Not by Ana. Not by Toto.

And suddenly the whole shape of it appeared at once, cruel and stupid and entirely too plausible: a child in an apartment that was not really hers, playing in the shared room until her step-mother found her existence too loud, and then being quietly redirected into a smaller, more containable version of herself.

Susie looked down at the island. Then up at Max. “She told you this last night?”

“Yes.”

“ Toto never once thought to mention it to me.”

That one was not a question.

Max said nothing.

Good choice.

Because the answer was obviously no, he had not.

And that fact, for reasons Susie would have difficulty explaining without becoming actively impolite about her husband before lunch, made her dislike Stephanie with a fresh and vivid force.

Not because she had needed more reasons.

God knew Susie had enough already.

But there was something uniquely hateful about the image of it.

Not just disliking the child. Not just resenting the adjustment. Actually making the child’s joy into a domestic nuisance to be managed with a keyboard and a pair of headphones.

Daniel, still wisely keeping his voice low, said, “That’s… bad.”

Susie turned her head very slightly toward him. “Yes,” she said. “It is.”

And then, because she knew herself well enough to understand that if she let the anger expand without doing anything with it, she would end up breaking a flower vase or calling Toto in a tone that would cause unnecessary collateral damage before noon, she asked Max instead:

“What else?”

He looked at her, recognized the question for what it was, and answered properly.

He told her about Ana taking the keyboard to boarding school. To Cambridge. About the Yamaha in Brackley because it was practical, because she lived alone, because she could play without bothering anybody.

That phrase again.

Bothering anybody.

Susie closed her eyes once.

When she opened them, the fury was still there, only colder now. More focused.

“She learned to make herself smaller around the music,” she said quietly.

“Yes,” Max said.

The room stayed still for another second.

Then Susie asked, “And last night?”

Max’s expression changed. Not much. Enough.

“She cried,” he said. “A lot.”

Susie nodded once.

Not because she was unsurprised. Because she understood it immediately.

Of course she had cried.

The Bösendorfer wasn’t just a gift.

It was every version of that history arriving in one room at once—the grandmother, the losses, the ways she had been silenced, the smaller instruments, the practical compromises, the years of training herself to ask for less.

And Toto, poor bastard, had probably meant it beautifully. Which did not make the nerve it touched any less raw.

“She told you all that,” Susie said again, but this time the sentence meant something else.

Not did she. She let you see it.

Max looked down at the crutch, then back up. “Yeah.”

Daniel rubbed a hand over the back of his neck. “That’s big, though.”

Max glanced at him.

Daniel lifted one shoulder. “I mean it. Telling you. Letting you in on it like that.” He paused. “Some people never do.”

And Susie, watching Max’s face, saw that it landed because he knew exactly what Daniel meant.

So she said nothing for a moment.

Then, because the truth was the truth:

“She trusts you.”

Max looked away.

There was pride in Susie then, sharp and warm and threaded through with grief. Not because Ana had suffered. Because she had spoken. Because she had let someone hold the shape of it with her instead of disappearing into composure and practicality and never touching the bruise aloud again.

And because Susie was now, in addition to all her other roles this morning, actively furious with her husband for failing to mention a piece of Ana’s history that absolutely should have belonged in the category of important things one tells the woman helping raise that child, she said, with a calmness that would have deeply alarmed Toto had he been there to hear it:

“Well.”

Max looked at her warily. “That sounds dangerous.”

“It is,” Susie said. “For Toto, later.”

Daniel actually laughed once at that, though cautiously.

“You’re mad.”

“I’m furious,” Susie corrected. “There’s a difference.”

Max’s mouth twitched despite himself.

Susie picked up the hydrangea stem again and clipped it, unnecessarily, by another half inch.

“He never told me,” she said, more to herself now than to either of them. “Not once. I knew about Moscow. I knew about Switzerland. I knew about the Yamaha. But that…”

She looked toward the piano.

“No,” she said quietly. “That I would have remembered.”

The room fell silent again.

Then Daniel, perhaps correctly deciding that if he did not redirect the emotional current soon the morning might become unusable, said, “Right. So. On a completely unrelated note, where are the good plates?”

Max barked out a laugh before he could stop himself.

Susie looked at Daniel. Then, because he had done the socially useful thing for once, she let him live.

“In the cabinet behind you,” she said.

Daniel opened the wrong one first.

Max watched him, then looked back at Susie.

“You’re really going to fight with Toto about this later?”

Susie adjusted the flowers in the vase with cool, immaculate precision. “Oh, no,” she said. “I’m not going to fight.”

That was so much more threatening that Max did not even try to answer.

Susie looked once more toward the Bösendorfer standing in the sitting room like a black, shining act of love and damage and restitution all at once.

Daniel picked up another tray and said, “Honestly, I think this lunch is going to be great.”

Max looked at him. “Based on what.”

Daniel grinned. “No idea. Vibes.”