LOST in Translation

Reggie where are you? ALONE SAD NEGLECTED ABANDONED REPLACED I need you so bad right, my friend, sadness so much of it. I gave you permission to leave me this way. I trusted you, I needed and wanted you. I need and want you. you opened me in so many ways. MY SOUL , BROKEN, DAMAGED, ALONE. we (my soul ) lost our breath, we lost our life, our mate. we feel lost in translation, we feel overwhelmed and broken. like giving up, like sleeping. how could you replace me so easily, how could you not see what I gave you, what I did for you? how much of me I handed to you. i don't think you even think of me, don't know who I am anymore. that is what feels hurts so bad, you are in my every thought my every morning and night. you are on my mind with every single moment of every single day. it feels sickening to feel so desperate for someone who feels nothing for you. hopefully my heart will harden soon. then I can feel numb and move on. NUMBNESS has to be better than this. Reggie, I miss you. I miss your face and hands. I have reached a point where I know I will never be the same, I will always feel the pain of this ending, my soul will always miss it's mate. I will guard my heart from ever feeling this pain again, and love you to myself. I will move on with your memory in my pocket. I will cry, and yearn for you in silence , a silence so overwhelming it slowly kills your will. I will feel all these things while lost in translation searching for a way back to you.

[chained2uv]

Boo boo, I’m sorry!

I’m sorry i did this to you. I’m sorry i made you feel this way. You have to know this wasn’t my intention… I was still broken , and afraid of you walking away. I’ve never had a normal or equal partnership. I didn’t know how to handle anything and i couldn’t see the big picture that was right in front of my face. God please I’m so sorry. If i could do all of this over i would change all of my decisions. My foundation is rocking and I’m terrified i won’t stay afloat this time. My insides are in knots and i can feel the insanity creeping in. Please don’t leave me in this horrible place alone. Im not sure i can survive it. I’m slowly drowning in this despair and hopelessness. The tears will not stop, every moment of every day this is on my mind. I burst out in a cry that grabs at the pit of my stomach that is constantly doing flips and it yanks it out through my throat.

Boo Boo I’m so sorry i love you. i was so blind and ignorant. Forgive me love me. please forgive me I feel that emptiness. Please please don’t give up on us. If I can go back and take all that pain away from you I would I would do it in a second. This is my apology more heartfelt and deep then I think even you intended more life altering more humbling period for a second you brought me back brought me back from that dark place and pain and hurt and anger and I don’t want to go back just like you don’t want to come back to me, but if I’m stuck here alone I’m never going to make it back out. I remember telling you if it’s love Let It Go it’ll come back I only said that cuz I was positive I loved you not that you knew that but I did. if you can see inside my soul and my spirit you would see how much I love you and how badly I want this how sorry I am. You were never second choice you’ve always been my only choice I took us for granted I took what you showed me for granted I want a chance to give it back. I know I might never get that chance but this is my apology coming from the pits of my soul or what’s left of it. you used to tell me if you could see inside my heart if you could see inside my heart well Vince Vince this is my heart Xposed and open.. I hope you find this apology and you accept it if you don’t come back to me I hope you live a full life one of happiness with love I know my heart will always be full of love for you. again I’m sorry boo I would give anything to take it all back.

[chained2me]

Get out of my head! My body tingles at the thought of you. I’m yearning for you. But your gone! How can i stop the screaming in my head!

[chained2uv]

The nerve

The nerve of some people, who are you to think you’re better than somebody because you react differently to a situation. People all handle things differently would you judge my whole character based off of one instance. I feel sorry for you you’re so capable of loving someone so beautifully, but you decided to throw that all away because you saw something you didn’t like. Peoples don’t last 40 years together by constantly judging and picking at flaws. If you continue to be careless with peoples hearts they will soon start to be careless of yours. You have no ideas how hateful it mean and downright degrading you have been me. I was falling in love with you and all you could do was put me down in the midst of the thousand other things that were going on in my life. You are one hell of a teacher when it comes to learning how horrible and unfair this place can really be. I’m not sure I will ever look back on our time together and really truly Smile. But I will definitely remember you for the pain, for the lesson, and for the experience of what it’s like to be ripped apart and criticized by someone you love. I’m sure we’ll be seeing each other for this is a small place, please no I will never embarrass you! I really don’t care enough to interact but I think we both feel that way. It’s devastating to remember the way you looked at me and then to see how we are today. I guess that’s the way of life, that’s how the cookie crumbles so we pick up the pieces and move on.

[chained2love]

QUESTION: (BACKGROUND)

I'm Chained2uv:

Ok my bf and I parted ways about 3 months ago. It was completely sudden for me. He started avoiding and ignoring me, treating me with less affection. it took me two weeks to make sure what I was feeling was right.

So I asked him point blank. Instead of confronting the issue he disappeared out of my life. No calls, texts, emails, NO FUCK YOU... NOTHING. So like any female, I FLIPPED OUT, CALLING TEXTING, HYSTERICAL , SOBBING. He told me because I freaked out he couldn't be with me, he didn't like that side of me...SIDE NOTE...

(I'M GOING THROUGH A DIVORCE AT THIS TIME ACTUALLY NOT BECAUSE OF ME AND HE ( BF)KNOWS EVERYTHING )

We went up until last Friday not seeing eachother and barely communicating. Last Friday we see eachother, I'm not sure how he felt but it made me feel whole again even if it was only 6 hours. It had been the best 6 hours of the last few months.

I thought for sure seeing me would remind him of what we shared? And he looked at me and held me like he wanted me? But the next day was nothing, Sunday nothing.... nothing nothing nothing. I'm so confused and hurt, how do you tell someone you love them, they love you, you are right there and NOTHING???? REALLY?

I need help figuring this out? I understand my Lil mental breakdown freaked him (bf) out, but we were finalizing the divorce, I was handing over the keys to the house I raised my family in. my X was a hard core drug addict. Who wouldn't break under the pressure? We were so in sync he didn't give me a bad feeling at all. we clicked and connected mentally and physically... WTF HAPPENED?

It's been almost 3 months and i still burst into tears, I feel like my soul is dead or sleeping,. Something has definitely changed inside me. I'm always sad and tired. I go out and party when I dont have the kids. I'm only 31 I have to live, but as far as love again... THE DESIRE IS GONE, I used to dream about being in love, now I refuse to look people in the eyes, I want nothing to do with new people, especially men.

If anyone men or women young or old would like to give their opinion or ask anything please feel free?

[written-on-polaroids]

I hate you because I will have to wonder for the rest of my life why I wasn’t enough.

10:40 am (via written-on-polaroids)

That's a tough one loveyou

[vryalone-blog]

[chained2love]

All is fair in love and war!!!

[chained2love]

Insomnia

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't focus.

it's all so foggy. I just want it to stop, I want you to leave my heart and mind. I can't stand this pain or sadness. I'm sick... No one has ever made me feel this low. It's like I'm struggling to keep my head above water. I just want to sleep you away.

[missinyouiskillingme]

One year ago I was the most important person in your life. Now it’s like I never existed.

but that’s okay because you don’t matter to me anymore either (via aureat)

[s-ensitivus]

[chained2love]

Do you? Boo

[yoursixwordstory]

saw your worst and i stayed

(via secrets-written-in-my-skin)

So did i, but you didn't

[i-dont-wanna-be-heree]

You can’t treat me like shit and expect everything to be okay

[chained2love]

That's right...@lonelydego

[chained2love]

Lingering

It's been long enough I should be over this. Everyone I meet is only second best... I'm screaming so loud but nobody hears me. Why am I trapped here in this hell? Why am I still without you why are you doing this? I'm tired I'm drained I'm tired of being drained and sad. I cry do much my eyes are raw. Just leave me to sing in this sad symphony alone.

[dulldrops]

I’d do anything to be enough for you

(via bl-ossomed)

To even mean something would be nice...

[chaelisee-deactivated20161101]

I hope you miss me like i miss you. But i have a feeling you don’t miss me, at all.

(via c0up-detat)

So true, they say the truth hurts. @lonelydego

[chained2love]

Broken 3

This hole in my heart

[chained2love]

Broken 2

@missingyouv

[chained2love]

Sad songs say so much

[chained2love]

Broken 2

@missingyouv