'CHAOS! it's the new cocaine, FRED!

𝗇𝗈𝖻𝗈𝖽𝗒 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝗌 𝗍𝗈 𝗐𝖺𝗍𝖼𝗁 𝖺 𝗐𝗂𝖽𝗈𝗐 𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝.

[ohisms]

↪ 𝑫𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑺𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬 𝑨𝑻 𝑴𝑬 . ( a collection of lyric starters from an assortment of billie eilish songs . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

you scared me to death .

there's nothing left to save now .

i don't think i caught your name .

i like it when you take control .

you're sacred and they're starved .

how dare you ? and how could you ?

one of us is gonna lose .

i don't even really know how it happened .

i'm out of sympathy for you .

just let me hold you .

don't talk about me like you might know how i feel .

try not to abuse your power .

i wish someone had told me i'd be doing this by myself .

it's not like me to be so mean .

you just want what you can't have .

would you like me to be quiet ?

i haven't slept since sunday .

i don't want to want you .

it hurts , but i know how to hide it .

i'm the only one who does it how you like .

you better keep your head down .

a lot can change in twenty seconds .

why aren't you scared of me ?

i thought that i was special .

you're looking at me like i'm see-through .

you were a hero , you played the part .

i never really know how to please you .

see what you wanna see .

gold's fake , and real love hurts .

no way , i'll call the cops .

maybe you should leave before i get too mean .

i just wanted to protect you .

you only listen to your fuckin' friends .

they're never gonna give you love like ours .

all you wanna do is kiss me .

don't you know too much already ?

it's weird that we care so much until we don't .

i didn't change my number , i changed who i reply to .

i don't know what feels true .

did you really think this is the right thing to do ?

i would hate to see you go .

i'd never treat me this shitty .

i'll only hurt you if you let me .

you made me feel like it was my fault .

now i know what you are .

i feel more and more like i was made for you .

you wanna kill me ? you wanna hurt me ?

don't try to make me feel bad .

wait , you know what ? maybe just forget it .

was i made from a broken mold ?

you want me to be yours , then you've gotta be mine .

tell me "nothing lasts" , like i don't know .

wait a minute , let me finish .

you know i'm not your friend without some greenery .

my demands aren't high to make .

stop , what the hell are you talking about ?

we both know i'm worth waiting for .

you ruined everything good .

you really know how to make me cry .

your love feels so fake .

i wanna be alone . alone with you , does that make sense ?

spit it out , what is it exactly ?

i'll never let you go .

if we were meant to be , we would've been by now .

you can pretend that you don't miss me .

just fucking leave me alone .

don't say i didn't warn you .

it's pretty cool , right ?

i think i might have fallen in love .

i tried not to upset you .

do you even feel anything ?

don't ask questions , you don't wanna know .

i've been walking through a world gone blind .

i just wanna make you feel okay .

i know you don't care , but can you listen ?

don't you know i'm no good for you ?

[chaosfed]

‘  ᴅᴇᴍᴏɴs ᴡɪʟʟ ᴄʜᴀʀᴍ ʏᴏᴜ  with a smile, for awhile but in time …  𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐌 𝐘𝐎𝐔,  not while i’m  …  around. ’     alex levy &  cory ellison of apple tv’s the morning show.      —  a stubborn childish mess,     𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘣𝘺 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘵 & 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘱

[abovefold]

@chaosfed / here.

❝ mmnn. ❞ the sound is more than the simple clearing of a throat, but less than the burgeoning, keckish one that threatens to rear up its place. she swallows it down with no shortage of effort, determined not to lose her composure just this once . . . or her lunch, for that matter. alex hesitates to turn the fullness of her gaze upon him, or inspect with full scrutiny the earnestness that seems to bleed from his every pore, even as he feels around the trip wire of her sensitivity. ❝ m-yeah. maybe. ❞

this self - punishing thing. her brows draw toward each other, knit in the center as she wonders whether he really means self - pitying . . . determined, also, to find judgment even where none is overtly offered. convinced of some need to posture and protect -- her legacy, her livelihood, herself. it's a vicious little hiccup of bile looking to rise up and into the back of her mouth, but she does not let it. not yet, anyway. she glances over at him, then, a pinched attempt at a smile given, her fingers worrying at the neck of her blouse, as though the loose collar might choke her, unless she holds it at bay.

❝ is it non - mortal or immortal? ❞ it sounds slightly breathless, like in offering it she is capitulating some game between them where she remains at a distance that she cannot be harmed from, and he remains an enemy that can be kept from her consideration, or care. ❝ i . . . appreciate it, cory -- and, i hope you're right. i just don't know how many rounds i have in me, so. you know. we'll have to see. ❞

[chaosfed]

𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐎𝐅 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐆𝐑𝐈𝐍,  and there’s a chuckle at her question , swallowed into the baritone of a hum. he is careful , not to make it   too  cheery ,  against ,  whatever  this is ,  this internal journey she embarks on without him.    ❝     you ,  are  not ,  mortal.  soil.     ❞    he repeats ,  chin  lifting and falling with the cadence of his words.  immortal soil just  sounds weird.  it loses all poetic value entirely ,  does the immortal soil have special powers ?  does it stay frozen in time ,  does it age at all or does it age until it erodes and lives on and on ,  fertile in scatters and buried dregs of dirt ?   that’s not very nice ,  and not really the point. 

both hands slide smoothly into his pockets ,  lifting his weight onto his toes momentarily.  she has taken all of them for the loop of the damn 𝗰𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘂𝗿𝘆. not doing the debates was fine ,  it worked out , it could have been better ,  but no disaster there ,  and then the disappearance , the cover - up ,  𝑰𝑻𝑨𝑳𝒀.  god it would feel good to just open his mouth and let all the air out.  JESUS CHRIST.  they’d been dealing with a lot ,  the pandemic ,  hannah’s family ,  fred , the dumpster truck UBA + had turned out to be ,  but for fuck’s sake ,  give him a little credit here .  .  .  !   she could have  — she SHOULD have just come to him. he’d done the whole fucking nine yards ,  they sat in a circle on the floor ,  he endured that over - publicised intimate dinner during which nothing was really achieved ,  pushed through her every demand  —  maybe it makes sense maybe this is habitual behaviour ,  she couldn’t have gone to fred for anything if it constituted a personal threat ,  but what more does he have to do to prove  to  her ( cybil  is a lost cause but alex !  this is alex levy. )   that he isn’t from the same SHIT-PILE as fred micklen  ?   wear post-its on his forehead ?   walk across fire ?   it would feel good to say ,  but he doesn’t have the energy for a fuckin’ lecture and by the looks of it , neither does she.

❝     that’s what pit-stops are for.     ❞   formula - 1′s  a real money spinners these days.   ❝     discard the parts you can’t salvage ,  take in something new ,  recharge. renew  —  alex.  we’ll take that time.     ❞   it’s time he doesn’t really have with at least five other fires to put out ,  but who’s counting !   ❝     you said it !  i’ve got balls left to play and one of them is on you.   ❞  paola’s documentary comes to mind ,  chances are even though alex had been the one to float that meeting ,  she hasn’t seen it yet.   ❝     we can do this. but we gotta do it together.    ❞

[chaosfed]

❛     i’m  not  crying  ,  my  eyes  are  just  watering.     ❜

𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐈𝐓 ? eyes dart, taking stock of her for obvious signs of distress , but then that doesn't help — alex is always in some sort of distress when she's not staring at you head on , eyes wide , shooting hateful laser beams , like female 𝙘𝙮𝙘𝙡𝙤𝙥𝙨 only her beams are BLUE and indignant. the whole world, is out to get alex levy at any given moment and so there's a forcefield around her , constant blowback , so no . . . no , there is emotion there , this is obviously a lie.

a shoulder draws inward, a hand sliding into his pocket. ❝   of course they are. you've had , quite the year alex. levy. ahm . . .    ❞ lips press together , eyes following the downward bob of his chin towards his shoes before he peers at her sideways , elects to give her another moment while he scratches his jaw. ❝   look i'm not here to kick you when you're down , i think this self - punishing thing is getting kinda old , don't you think . . . ?    ❞ a gentle little placement , like he is trying to balance a feather sideways on a spoon that's already balancing on the rim of a cup. he watches to see how it lands before the pinched expression sobers , growing older in front of her in mere seconds. ❝   this doesn't change anything alex ,    ❞ hands are braced outward , hands bare , nothing's being hidden here, she has to know that , it's the only way he can show her , how empty they are of anything to hold back — or hold onto for that matter. ❝   i still think you're non-mortal soil. i believe it. it's time to put some fucking gloves on and show them.  ❞

[divineresources]

♡          PATHOLOGIC SENTENCE STARTERS.

❛     so  ,  it’s  all  about  trickery to  you     ?     ❜

❛     who  is  going  to  believe  you  when  you  keep  lying  to  yourself     ?     ❜

❛     the  truth  is  my  shepherd.     ❜

❛     your  gentle  hands  are  using  to  killing  ,  not  giving  life.     ❜

❛     clemency  is  born  not  out  of  virtue  ,  but  rather  of  fear.     ❜

❛     i’m  afraid  i’m  of  little  use  now.     ❜

❛     my  chest  seems  to  be  filled  with  cotton  wool.     ❜

❛     i  keep  forgetting  the  most  basic  things  these  days.     ❜

❛     let’s  break  this  down  into  simpler  terms.     ❜

❛     whose  problem  have  we  become     ?     ❜

❛     a  woman’s  nerves  can  only  take  so  much.     ❜ 

❛     it’ll  be  difficult  for  you  to  get  used  to  our  traditions.     ❜

❛     if  only  i  could  get  a  good  sleep.     ❜

❛     this  calls  for  a  surgeon’s  precision.  step  aside.     ❜

❛     don’t  worry.  this  won’t  hurt  so much.     ❜

❛     you  can  put  a  horse  on  the  stand  ,  but  you  can’t  make  it  testify.     ❜

❛     you  have  fulfilled  your  purpose.     ❜

❛     the  world  has  no  more  use  for  you.     ❜

❛     there  is  an  eternal  order  that  fate  itself  has  predetermined.  it  is  due  to  this  order  that  things  happen  the  way  they  should  ,  following  a  preordained  path.     ❜

❛     words  without  deeds  fill  a  garden  with  naught  but  weeds.     ❜

❛     perhaps  turning  inside  out  will  help     ?     ❜

❛     checkmate.     ❜

❛     why  didn’t  i  think  of  it  before     ?     ❜

❛     time  is  slipping  through  our  fingers.     ❜

❛     i’m  sorry  ,  but  i  really  do  need  to  keep  working.     ❜

❛     i  never  even  told  her  how  i  felt.     ❜

❛     i  need  sleep.     ❜

❛     every  object  has  a  heartbeat  ,  can  you  hear  them     ?     ❜

❛     sometimes  i  feel  like  i  could  fly.     ❜

❛     you’ll  think  of  something  ,  won’t  you     ?     ❜

❛     the  angel  of  death  paces  at  my  door.     ❜

❛     i  should  get  a  dog.     ❜

❛     it  wasn’t  me.     ❜

❛     don’t  look  at  me  like  that.     ❜

❛     sometimes  i  imagine  that  everything  is  imagination.     ❜

❛     can  i  hold  your  hand     ?     ❜

❛     i  seem  to  hardly  cast  a  shadow  anymore.     ❜

❛     the  dead  know  no  greed.     ❜

❛     come  to  think  of  it  ,  keep  your  hands  off  anything  here.     ❜

❛     if  only  i  could  live  a  year  longer  ,  a  whole  ,  endless  year.     ❜

❛     you  have  dark  circles  under  your  eyes.     ❜

❛     do  something.  anything.     ❜

❛     i  think  i’m  fading.  my  clothes  are  worn  out  ,  threadbare.     ❜

❛     war  consumes  a  man  like  no  other  occupation.     ❜

❛     these  reins  chafe  my  hands  bloody.     ❜

❛     i  can’t  stand  it  much  longer.     ❜

❛     we  were  ordered  to  stay  home  ,  and  stay  quiet.     ❜

❛     shall  i  sing  a  song  for  you     ?     ❜

❛     i  won’t  touch  you  ,  so  don’t  touch  me.     ❜

❛     you  know  i’m  not  angry  with  you     ?     ❜

❛     my  heart  aches  like  it’s  been  pierced  with  a  blunt  needle.     ❜

❛     let  us  each  find  our  own  paths.     ❜

❛     shall  it  rain     ?     shall  it  snow     ?     don’t  ask  again  ,  i  don’t  know.     ❜

❛     i’m  not  crying  ,  my  eyes  are  just  watering.     ❜

❛     it’s  so  lonely  here.     ❜

❛     my  arms  are  flaccid  ,  as  if  made  of  cotton  wool.     ❜

❛     i  feel  smothered  in  here  ,  i  need  air.     ❜

❛     do  you  even  know  yourself     ?     ❜

❛     there  isn’t  much  time  left  ,  and  so  much  left  to  do.     ❜

❛     nothing  can  harm  me  anymore.     ❜

❛     look  into  your  soul  to  steady  your  hands.     ❜

❛     silence  is  golden.     ❜

❛     i  feel  the  mothballs  rattling  inside  my  heart.     ❜

❛     need  you  lean  on  my  roots  for  strength     ?     ❜

❛     people  never  cease  to  amaze  me.     ❜

[filmtribv]

Oh! And I landed on someone, to be my producer.

framing credit: @magsam

[filmtribv]

HELLO TOMORROW 1.01

[chaosfed]

now that the finale is over i can be here but i also need to process because what the fuck

[bladedlegacy-aa]

@chaosfed bc i love u & these ghouls

[filmtribv]

THE MORNING SHOW S02 Teaser Trailer Apple TV+ September 17th

[vaememes]

𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐄𝐋   𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐄𝐑   𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄   𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

NOT spoiler free.  contains triggering subjects: missing persons, age gaps mentions, + more. please read and reblog with caution.

’ i’m guilty for loving him/her/them. and for hating him/her/them. for killing him/her/them. ‘

‘ i’m guilty for loving him/her/them. ‘

‘ i’m guilty for killing him/her/them. ‘ 

‘ if you search her/him/them room, you’ll probably find it. ‘

‘ you’re not lying. ‘

‘ i didn’t see you. ‘ 

‘ i saw a woman/man living freely. not in a basement. ‘

‘ it didn’t make sense for a missing person to be in the living room making a call. ‘

‘ have you kissed someone significantly older? ‘

‘ are you daring me to? ‘

‘ i think because of our friendship, it’s where it all went wrong. ‘

‘  you’re officially a missing person. the police are looking for you. ‘

‘  friendship happens between two willing parties. ‘

‘ given the power dynamic between you, i wouldn’t call it that. ‘

‘ i can fix this. i’ll go home. i’ll tell them.. ‘

‘ i don’t know. i told you i’m not a good liar. ‘

‘ i need your help. ‘

‘  you kinda made it open season when you gave her/him/them a black eye! ‘

‘ why did you do it? ‘

‘ i didn’t have a reason not to believe her/him/them. ‘

‘ i don’t care! you abandoned me! ‘

‘ why isn’t she/he/they running faster? ‘

‘ then why would you send this letter?! ‘

‘ i will die trying to protect you from everything. ‘

‘ that’s a pretty big commitment at sixteen. ‘

‘ it’s a little bit of a stretch, don’t you think? ‘

‘ i know, just … call it a mother’s/father’s intuition. i feel it in my bones. ‘

‘ you’re so smart, you’re open, and you’re bold. ‘

‘  i’m glad, and surprised that we can just sit here together like this. ‘

‘ i want to believe you, but… ‘

‘ i saw you with my own eyes. ‘

‘ i followed you that night! ‘

‘ why are you doing this? ‘

‘ you’ve built a fortress around yourself for good reason. ‘

‘ you deserve kindness, [name:optional.]

‘ being on your side cost me my job, my reputation, my family as i once knew it. ‘

‘ can i confess something? ‘

‘ i used to really dislike you, like a lot. ‘

‘ i don’t hear that very often. ‘ 

‘ secrets are scary because everybody has them. ‘

‘ well, sleep tight. don’t let the bed bugs bite. ‘

‘ our parents have been basically married for a decade and we’re pretty much strangers. ‘

‘ talking might help. i can listen. ‘

‘ a therapist is not a sister/brother. ‘

‘ i don’t go hunting without arming up first. ‘

‘  you are actually trash, [name:optional]!

‘  really? what? no mocking whatsoever?! ‘

‘ i need to ask you something, and you need to tell me the truth. ‘

‘ how many times have you been inside this house? ‘

‘ i got addicted to the rush of it. ‘

‘ i don’t know what’s going on but, i’m here. ‘

‘ you can say that i pulled away from you but you pulled away from me too. ‘

‘ i don’t understand where all this rage is coming from. ‘

‘ but if you want to talk, you know where to find me. ‘

‘ god, you sound just like her/him/them. ‘

‘ i’m so sorry. i jumped to conclusions and i didn’t… ‘

‘ you’re embarrassing yourself. ‘

‘ now run along. ‘

‘ as i very clearly stated, i don’t want to speak with you in this moment. ‘

‘ did you see her/him/them? ‘

‘ i just don’t know what to think. ‘

‘ you know i would never lie to you. i would never lie to you, okay? ‘

‘ you know i would never lie to you. ‘

‘ [name:optional], i hope you rot in hell! ‘

‘ you are getting out and dancing with me this time. ‘

‘ if anyone can hear me, it’s [name:optional]. ‘

‘ that feeling is called guilt. ‘

‘ leave her/him/them alone. ‘

‘ you’re my new favorite person too. ‘

‘ you’re like my favorite person, maybe ever. ‘

‘ i was raised to be afraid of disappointing anybody. ‘

‘ christmas was truly the first time i really afraid of him/her/them. ‘

‘ making me doubt myself is so much worse. ‘

‘ you look awfully young to be an assistant principle. ‘

‘ you don’t know what you’re saying. ‘

‘ i think you should call the cops on me. ‘

‘ i think i’d be the prettiest girl in all of jail. ‘

‘ really nice smile, by the way. ‘

‘ i still don’t get why coffee smells so good yet tastes so bad. ‘

‘ i feel like i just disappeared and she just took my place. ‘

‘ i feel replaceable and it’s not a good feeling. ‘

‘ how did it happen? ‘

‘ i’m not sure you really want to hear about that. ‘

‘ so that’s a no, then. ‘

‘ there’s not a magic pill that fixes things. ‘

‘ we can do the work. ‘

‘ i believed everything you said. ‘

‘ i did everything you asked. ‘

‘ the moment that i questioned you, you tore into me. ‘

‘ you raised me to be blindly obedient. ‘

‘ my whole life, you have been toting me around like one of your purses. ‘

‘ why did you bring her/him/them down here? ‘

‘ hardly anyone knows who i am and i love snacks. ‘

‘ i’m going to be less like myself and more like what you want me to be. ‘

‘ can you not see how cruel that is? ‘

‘ can you not see how you ruined my life! ‘

‘ you didn’t even want it! ‘

‘ you stole what was basically my trauma journal and shared it in a courtroom. ‘

‘ we are just a few months away from the trail. ‘

‘ you’re not giving the impression that you’re the wronged party here. ‘

‘ i am the most hated person in the nation. ‘

‘ and you want me to be more like her/him/them? ‘

‘ we all want what we can’t have even if we have to change ourselves to get it. ‘

‘ there are some moments in life that changes forever. ‘

‘ you really like her/him/them, huh? ‘

‘ can you please just give me a minute. ‘

‘ it’s never going to be normal again.. is it? ‘

‘ you know, i can’t even remember when it ever was. ‘

‘ what’s happening to you.. i can’t even imagine. ‘

‘ i have no one. i have nothing. ‘

‘ [name:optional] isn’t who you think she/he/they is.

‘ we have evil living among us. right beneath our noses. ‘

‘ good aim. i’m impressed. ‘

‘ it’s a pretty lame and embarrassing first impression. ‘

‘ okay, well, i’m not leaving until you tell me. ‘

‘ why didn’t you say hi? ‘

‘ look, i know what i’m doing. ‘

‘ are you still on my side? ‘

‘ your memory’s been shaking since the trauma. ‘

‘ don’t you think it’s possible you didn’t see what you think you saw? ‘

‘ it’s kind of hard to tell which way is up these days. ‘

‘ i need to tell you something that is a long time coming.. you were right. ‘

‘ we kissed and i lied to you about it. ‘

‘ you deserve the truth. ‘

‘ i’m really really sorry. i really don’t know what else to say. ‘

‘ do you want to hit me? ‘

‘ say it again. ‘

‘ that’s the nicest thing you’ve ever done for me. ‘

[chaosfed]

i love rebecca welton

[chaosfed]

UBA’s L.A office gang  ft.  @bladedlegacy​

[filmtribv]

BILLY CRUDUP AS CORY ELLISON in his Emmy-winning performance

The Morning Show 1x07  Open Waters dir. by Mimi Leder

[chaosfed]

LA assistant AND knight in shining armor ok !

don't push it.

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   ❛     ────     mr .   sandman  ,       bring me a dream .    make her the cutest that i’ve ever seen  !   independent   RE:IMAGINED     katherine  krueger     from    a nightmare on elm street .       CAPTURED  BY  LENNY . 

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THE MORNING SHOW S02 Teaser Trailer Apple TV+ September 17th