Your Worst Nightmare

There's too much going on in my head sometimes I just need to put it somewhere

[wordsbyjenpoetry]

Sometimes, I just want to be a woman. Nothing more, nothing less.

[poemsonmars]

she was sunlight with a crooked smile

sitting on the edge of the

shallow, pitiful grave

that i had been digging for myself,

swinging her feet and waiting patiently

for my rage to dull enough so that

she could kiss the blisters on my palms.

i was trying to bury myself alive

and she sat waiting with flowers

and open arms and a tenderness

that i had never felt before in my life;

a tenderness that i had

entirely stopped believing existed.

how could i not crawl out?

how could i not wipe the dirt off my knees

and come repenting to her palms up?

how could i not smile back at her

and thank her for the flowers

and say, "let's take a break.

let's finish this another time.

there's always tomorrow.

there's always tomorrow."

-mars

[htvpgenny]

It’s sad to think about how the day someone finally sees me as their “world” I won’t see them as mine. Because that’s just the way it goes, you love what doesn’t love you & what does, you don’t love.

[kindaouttaluckgrl]

[kestalsblog]

Not every story is about seeing yourself in it. Sometimes it’s about learning to see other people too.

[cheshirelibrary]

[crittizen]

[tear-dropp-deactivated20241031]

“ur so quiet”

bro i lost all my communication skills

[lyrics-and-music]

Fever Dream // Movements

[tachylyte]

what I want: money what I got: a personality disorder

[recaption]

2008: wow I was so stupid last year

2009: wow I was so stupid last year

2010: wow I was so stupid last year

2011: wow I was so stupid last year

2012: wow I was so stupid last year

2013: wow I was so stupid last year

2014: wow I was so stupid last year

2015: wow I was so stupid last year

2016: wow I was so stupid last year

2017: wow I was so stupid last year

2018: wow I was so stupid last year

to be continued

[lifeatpaddyspub]

this is a mood if i’ve ever seen one

[darkeyes14]

“I’ve never been a good person, but I used to try as hard as I could to become one. Now… I’ve just stopped.”

— me

[unsuspectedsunrise]

And I use drugs to make me feel anything else but emptiness, but when the drugs stopped taking my pain away - I knew I was fucked.

A. Lemmer

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Here’s the thing

I don’t want to be sad. I don’t want to hurt. I don’t want attention. I don’t want pity.

I want to feel loved and needed and valued and I want to be respected. For some people, whether it’s because of their upbringing or mental health, that’s extremely difficult.

My mind is in a very dark place. I don’t want to romanticize depression. It’s a terrifying monster that consumes me. Most people in my life don’t see it. And they will never know.

Because the monster in my mind won’t let me scream for help.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

I wonder who would miss me, if one of my attempts were successful?

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]