woahhh it’s been a minute.
this will probably be quite lengthy so please bear with me.
hi my lovies! i think the last time i was really active on here was around the time the watermelon sugar music video dropped, and that feels like forever ago. i’m not sure as to why, but this blog has slipped my mind completely and i haven’t really been on tumblr much. a lot has been going on in my life!
anyways, i’m in a really weird place mentally right now. i feel like i say that so much, but then i’ll come back thinking i’m good to go and put out pieces of writing that make you and i happy, only to be crushed by the same wave that’s wiped me out before. i’ll have days that i feel fine, days i feel great even, and then there are days i don’t leave my bed. like at all. i won’t eat, freshen up, or talk to my family. these moods are unexplainable, and it frustrates me to no end. i wish i knew why i feel the way i do sometimes, because that would make dealing with everything a lot easier. but that’s not the case, so i just have to learn how to deal with everything as is. i’m slowly but surely making progress!! (i think)
besides that, i’m sure everyone is aware of everything happening in the world right now. although social media might have gone back to ‘normal’ please remember that black lives still do and will always matter, even though a lot of the energy surrounding it on social media has died down. if you disagree, then please feel free to unfollow me. i’ve donated to several organizations and signed (and will continue to sign) petitions, and i encourage you all to do the same. along with doing these things, it is essential that you challenge your already existing beliefs as well those of the people you surround yourself with, and be willing to open yourself up to growth. continue to further educate yourself, continue to have these very uncomfortable but necessary conversations, continue to fight for what is right.
below is a link to a carrd that provides you with information surrounding black lives matter, as well as many other issues that have yet to be properly discussed. please make good use of it.
https://issuesintheworld.carrd.co/
lastly, my writing. i don’t know when i’ll put out another piece, or if i will at all. to be completely honest i haven’t been driven to write anything for the last little while, and it breaks my heart. there’s nothing more upsetting than realizing you no longer love something the way you once did, especially when it brought you so much joy at some point in your life. i know there are a few of you on here that constantly support my work, and i appreciate you so much for that. it makes me so happy to know that there are even a few people who enjoy what i write. writing was something i did out of enjoyment; it made me happy and allowed me to escape whatever i had going on in my life. however, i really have fallen out of touch with it recently, and i don’t know what to do. this is probably why i haven’t been very active, because this blog was created around one thing, and that’s writing. that being said, regardless of where this blog goes from here, thank you to anyone that’s ever supported me at all. whether it was a like, a reblog, or a sweet little message, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
i probably will continue to be quite inactive on here for the next little while, but i might pop in from time to see what’s up. i’m gonna continue to work on and find myself, hopefully my love and drive to write will come back to finish all the ideas i was once so excited about. i’ll check in every now and then to say hi, but for the most part, that’s all :))
i hope you’re all doing well and taking care of your lovely selves. remember, if you ever feel the need to talk about anything or simply want to chat, my asks are always open and so are my messages :))
sending big hugs n kissies <3
