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yulia (she/they), 28, intp, english & russian, requests are closed
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everything i write is a fiction and has nothing to do with real people. please, always remember that idols are actual people with actual boundaries and nothing you read online should be projected on them. some people are too comfortable online and you shouldn't be one of them!
please do not translate, repost or copy anything i post, that's not good for your karma! reblogs though... they are really great for your mental health and clear skin
my nsfw writing tends to have fem!reader but overall i usually want to write reader as gender neutral as i can
pairing: h. hyunjin x gn reader
genre: roomates to lovers
screen count: 14
finding love in the last place you expected — your own living room
a/n: first, this is going to be a slow burn — consider yourselves warned. second, it’s inspired by taylor’s snow on the beach, as some of you might guess from the title. third, i’m so busy with offline stuff right now that i’ll probably only post once a week on a good week when i don’t have a ton of things on the weekends (so, double warning!). fourth, this time, i’m aiming for something steady and chill — no rivals, no grumpiness, no trauma or major drama (though i still have a bit of an emotional rollercoaster planned). fifth, i do have a soft spot for making characters inspired by my own traits, so bear with techno lover hyunjin (save me charli xcx boiler room set save me) and the idea that watching ari aster films is a bonding roommate experience (it is)
in case someone cares: i’ll probably refrain from posting for a while because my mental state has been getting worse every day lately (hopefully it’s just seasonal lol). i already feel like i’m failing every expectation and that i shouldn’t waste anyone’s time, so writing rn just makes me more anxious and out of place 🙃
i still have plans for some series and every part of ‘know me better’ is already drafted, but right now i’m too busy being sad to even check what other ppl post (and i’ve been checking updates on my fav tags daily and almost religiously for the past six months lol). unless something nice happens to me for a change, i’m not sure i’ll even be able to post a silly comforting fake texts
I just read the Lee Know x ace!reader fanfic and Thank you so so much !!! Its sooo good I love it ♡ The way you captured all the insecurities and fears was so relatable and really hit me personally so the reassurance just hit deeper😭Just wanted you to know that I really REALLY loved it !!🩷🩷🩷🩷 Thank you so much for writing this !!!
i’m so so glad to hear it!! i really liked writing it as well 💜
I really love your writing and I was wondering if you could do something for an asexual reader with Lee Know, ^^ it's Totally fine if you don't feel comfortable with it ! If it is okay though just maybe something comforting where reader doubts if she's enough and him reassuring her?^^
pairing: l. minho x gn ace!reader
genre: established relationship, hurt/comfort
word count: 1486
a/n: i really tried to make it less hurt more comfort, i swear i did
“oh, guys, you two must be holding back some really wild stories,” jisung gasps, his eyes wide and mischievous. you chuckle lightly though it feels a bit forced. minho just smirks, playing along, raising his eyebrows in mock arrogance.
“opposite to some of you, i do not kiss and tell,” minho says, his voice smooth and teasing. jisung and hyunjin both let out exaggerated sighs before diving right back into their conversation about one-night stands. minho drops his hand onto your shoulder, pulling you close.
“wanna go home? i kinda miss the kids,” he whispers softly.
you really try not to make it a big thing. usually, you can shake off those thoughts before they take over, but tonight, it’s different. you can’t stop replaying the moment. the way jisung laughed, the way minho didn’t say much. it’s just a joke, just guys being guys, you tell yourself. but somehow it sticks.
when you get home, minho drops his keys on the hallway drawer, saying he’ll check if the cats have enough food for the night. you hum in response, heading straight to the bathroom. is it your fault? should you have tried harder? is it something deeper, something wrong with you that you haven’t dealt with? maybe it’s trauma. maybe therapy could fix it. or medication?
minho comes into the bathroom a few minutes later, dori cradled in his arms. he puts him down on the washing machine and grabs the toothpaste, brushing his teeth beside you like any other night. dori hops onto the basin, sniffing around curiously, and you give him a small pet, but your mind is miles away. everything you do is on autopilot — washing your face, flossing your teeth, going through your skincare routine.
“you’re quiet,” minho says as you’re sitting on your side of the bed, changing into your sleep shirt.
“yeah,” you murmur, not meeting his gaze. you feel him move closer, his hand gently tracing patterns on your back, that small gesture that usually comforts you.
“something wrong? or you’re just burned out from hanging out with everyone?” he asks, still drawing those soothing shapes.
you want to shrug it off, tell him it’s nothing, but you both promised to always be honest with each other. no matter what. and that was easy, when the things you had to share weren’t this heavy and vulnerable. but now, it feels like too much.
“do you ever regret dating me?” you ask, your voice small, like you’re afraid of the answer, “i’ll understand if you do.”
minho’s hand stills. he pulls back slightly, his brows furrowing as he sits up on the bed.
“what?” his voice is soft, but there’s an edge of confusion.
“i mean… it’s not exactly the kind of relationship you’re used to,” you mumble, still avoiding his gaze. instead, you focus on the window, on anything but him. “i love you, but i’d understand if you wanted an open relationship.”
the words taste bitter coming out, and deep down you know you wouldn’t be okay with it. the idea of him being intimate with someone else makes you sick, but you’re willing to say anything to avoid losing him.
minho’s expression shifts, realization slowly dawning on him. “wait… what?” he says, his voice a little more steady now, but still tinged with disbelief. “why would i want an open relationship? to have sex?”
he’s quiet for a moment, and then, gently, he leans his head onto your shoulder. “that’s basically cheating,” he says softly.
“it’s not if i say it’s okay,” you reply, trying to keep your voice steady.
“but it’s not what i want.” he sighs, pressing his forehead to your back. “yeah, sometimes it’s hard. i’m not gonna lie and say i’m always fine with it, because i’m not. but that doesn’t mean i want to go out and be with someone else.”
“is this because of jisung and his stupid questions about our sex life?”
your breath hitches, tears welling up. “i don’t want to hold you back. there are people who could give you what you deserve, people who—”
“stop,” he cuts you off, hugging you from behind, his arms tight around you. “i don’t want ‘other people.’ i want you.”
“but i’m not enough,” you whisper, the tears falling now.
minho pulls back a little, turning you toward him. “listen to me,” he says, his voice steady. “i love you. i love our relationship. yeah, sometimes i miss having sex more often, but it’s not the most important thing to me. i love being with you. i love that you get me in ways no one else ever has. i love the way we can just sit in silence together and it’s not awkward. i love how you care about me and my stupid cats. i love how you make me laugh when i’ve had the worst day.”
you’re quiet, still not fully believing him, but he keeps going. “sex is great, sure. but it’s not everything. i don’t need it all the time to feel close to you. i’m happy with what we have. i want to be with you because of who you are, not because of how much we do or don’t have sex.”
you try to take in what minho’s saying, but the doubt is still there, clinging to your thoughts. you swallow hard, looking away from him, your fingers playing with the edge of the blanket.
“but… what if you change your mind?” you whisper, not trusting yourself to speak louder. “what if one day you wake up and realize this isn’t enough?”
minho sighs softly, shifting so that he’s sitting right in front of you. he takes your hands gently, squeezing them as if to ground you, as if to make you feel his words even more.
“i’m not going to change my mind,” he says quietly, his eyes locked on yours. “i know what i want. and what i want is you. not some ideal version of a relationship or what anyone else thinks is normal. just you.”
you bite your lip, your voice cracking as you try to argue. “but you deserve more. i don’t want you to be disappointed. i don’t want you to settle for something less.”
“stop,” he says gently but seriously, his hands cupping your face now, thumbs brushing your cheeks. “i’m not settling. you’re not less. why can’t you see that?”
you feel the tears start again, your chest tightening with all the fear and insecurity you’ve been holding in. “because i don’t get how you could be happy with this,” you say, your voice breaking. “i don’t get how this can be enough for you when it doesn’t feel like enough for me sometimes.”
minho’s expression softens, and he presses his forehead against yours. “hey, it’s okay to feel like that. it’s okay to have doubts sometimes. but i need you to know — i’m happy. even when it’s hard, i’m still happy with us. with you.”
his voice is soft, calm, like he’s trying to soothe the storm raging inside you. “i want what we have, even if it’s not what everyone else expects or talks about. i’m not some guy who needs to have sex all the time to feel loved. when you’re happy, i’m happy. if that means sex is rare, then fine. i still get to be close to you in other ways.”
you want to believe him. god, you want to so badly. but the doubt still lingers. “but what if you wake up one day and realize i’m not enough?” you repeat, voice shaking.
minho looks you straight in the eyes, his expression soft but unwavering. “then i’ll wake up every day after that and remind myself why i chose you in the first place. because you are enough for me. more than enough. i don’t need anything else.”
his hands find yours again, and he pulls you into his arms, holding you tightly. “i know it’s hard to believe sometimes,” he whispers against your hair, “but trust me. i’m not going anywhere.”
you bury your face in his chest, letting the tears fall as he holds you. his heartbeat is steady beneath your ear, his arms warm around you, like he’s holding you together even when you feel like you’re falling apart.
“i love you,” he murmurs softly, kissing the top of your head. “just as you are. i don’t need anything more.”
you take a shaky breath, pulling back just enough to meet his eyes. “i… i don’t know if i can believe it right now,” you admit, your voice small and fragile. “but maybe… maybe one day, i’ll try to.”
minho’s expression softens even more, and he nods, brushing a strand of hair away from your face. “that’s all i need,” he whispers. “just try. and i’ll be here, reminding you every day until you do.”
guys, firstly, sorry, i keep forgetting about the taglist 😔😔😔 secondly, sorry 2x, i think i’ll add a rule that i won’t use the taglist when i post something quite personal bc it feels like i’m just tagging ppl to inform them about my issues, and rn i already feel uncomfortable about taking up too much space (both figuratively and literally, lol), so i just can’t make myself tag anyone
pairing: s. changbin x gn reader
genre: hurt/comfort, established relationship
tw: eating disorder, binge eating, body image issues, weight gain; once again, it’s pretty detailed, so please think twice before reading if you’re not sure you’re in the right place mentally to handle content about an ed relapse
screen count: 10
a/n: therapy? that’s for the weak. the real cool people just write heavily self-indulgent fake texts about issues they can’t even talk about bc putting your own thoughts into the reader’s mouth is way easier. god bless melanie martinez for 'orange juice'
to anon who requested minho x ace!reader (hopefully you’ll see that): i LOVE this request so much bc i’m on ace spectrum as well and i get insecure about it occasionally, so i’m super excited about writing it!! but just so you know it’ll take some time bc i need to find balance between my own insecurities and experience and being relatable to someone else, plus i need to find some strength to get a bit vulnerable publicly lol (bc i want to, not bc i feel like i have to, don’t worry), plus i need to find a way to actually make it comforting and not angsty
could you please inform me whether you want a fake texts or written stuff (bc i have some ideas for both) and would it be okay if there was some hurt before the comfort part?
ps: unrelated, to other anonymous, but mysterious and undercover one: I SWEAR I’LL GO TO SLEEP RN I JUST HAD TO POST IT
i LOVE checking a post with quite common prompt (trope? whatever) and suddenly realising it’s actually toxic and abusive and triggering. now i’m gonna spend two or three business days wondering why do people like it so much
i get it, it’s totally my own issue that i hate it when fanfiction doesn’t feel natural and especially fake texts with reader because the whole idea of format is to be kinda immersive and believable, so somehow i extrapolate it on everyone else and can’t help but think that you know what you’re writing about??
and every time i see this accidentally sending nudes to your bff or accidentally texting your crush that you like them i’m like 😭😭😭😭😭 guys is it me or other people actually don’t pay attention who are they texting………
that’s like the whole new au. we’ve seen coffeeshop aus, modern aus, a/b/o aus, now welcome ‘everyone is blind and stupid and just texts people randomly hoping one day they’ll text the right contact’ au
i mean there was one time in my whole life when i accidentally sent my bitching about my girlfriend to this exact girlfriend instead of my friend but it was bc i messed up forwarding messages 😭😭😭😭😭 and you want me to believe ppl can do it almost daily
pairing: l. minho x gn reader x h. jisung
genre: mdni, nsfw suggestive borderline smut, established relationship
tw: some domsub dynamic with dom!minho, sub!jisung and uhm ig dom!reader (switch actually); mentions of bts lol; usage of word 'slut' but like in healthy consented relationship; oral sex mentioned
screen count: 14
one of your boyfriends wants to get a piercing. that's the whole plot
a/n: jisung belly button piercing agenda. that's it.
This isn’t really an ask I was wondering if you had any tips for writing fics. Or just posting on tumblr in general. I’m thinking of starting or restarting as I have in the past but am wondering if you had any tips xx 💗
hiii!!!
i’m not sure if that can be considered as a tip, but i usually try to write only about things i’ve experienced cause firstly, if we’re talking about sensitive topics i don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable due to my own stupidity, secondly, if we’re talking about usual stuff, it feels more real for reader and as a reader i love it when someone’s writing feels natural (if that makes any sense)
that’s like the whole tip: when you’re reading something try to notice what you do like and what you don’t. for example, i don’t really like it when fake texts don’t feel like real people texting each other or something i’d send to my friend/crush/partner. that’s why i don’t really enjoy the ‘accidentally texting your crush abt liking them’ trope bc i’m anxious when i talk about my crushes and i always check whom i’m texting hahaha
as for more technical things, as english isn’t my first language i do use chatgpt to check my grammar occasionally. i think it’s great if you use ai ethically, like you can ask it for some prompts if you’re out of ideas and maybe some will suit you well
also, i like to split fics into acts to make sure they have some plot development. like usual story structure: exposition — emotional climax — resolution. there’s such thing as dan harmon’s story circle, it’s too complicated for me to use it for fics, but i’d like to try it eventually. maybe it’ll work for you! planning what you’re writing is great, not only bc story starts to make more sense for your reader, but also bc you can plan it beforehand and be a little more sure what to write next
so, yeah. planning, keeping things sincere and natural and analysing what you like to read yourself
good luck 🩶🩶🩶
wait, i just remembered the great advice i recently got!! try to keep in mind that you do it for your own fun and don’t worry much about readers. it’s nice when your fic blows up and people praise it in replies and reblogs, but it’s also nice just to post something personal that can be relatable to two people only and it’s even nicer not to post anything at all when you’re not in the right mood
hello it is me 🥸☝🏻 (i’m undercover because i’m not supposed to be here… hopefully you know who i am)
could i request chan x gn reader fake texts with him helping an overwhelmed reader to calm down after they text him when they can’t stop crying? i don’t really have anything specific in mind other than the usual hurt/comfort (bc it always hits the spot), so feel free to write abt whatever you want!! <3
(also if you don’t wanna do this idea that’s cool too)
and here’s a little reminder that i love your writing, keep up the good work and thank you!!! 🤓💙
dearest mysterious anonymous, as i already said, please keep your expectations not very high. also, little reminder as well that your compliments mean the world to me. thanks for your request so much, i really hope you'll like it! 💜
pairing: b. chan x gn reader
genre: hurt/comfort
screen count: 9
