favorite fics of 2020 :: forever hold your peace // @cheesewithchips
“It’s only a matter of time before I end up doing something fucked and you end up throwing me away,” My candid nature is the only thing that would allow me to say these things. That and the weed still in my system, it was giving me confidence that I very well shouldn’t have had. “I’m no good for you. If tonight doesn’t prove it then I don’t know what does.”
Harry pressed his lips into a tight line, eyes meeting mine. “Do you really think that?”
“If I didn’t I wouldn’t have said it,” I confessed before going onto another whisper-toned admittance. “I’m also kind of high, so yeah. I’m saying things that maybe I shouldn’t. I should shut up now, really I should.”
“You shouldn’t think like that,” Harry clearly didn’t care whether I was high or not, more focused on what I’d said beforehand. “I have no intention on throwing you away, so you don’t have to worry about that.”
“You say that now, but I always do something that ends up fucking things. I wonder what it’ll be with you,” I pulled away from his gaze, turning to look at his stainless steel refrigerator. Anything could have been better than the look that Harry was giving me currently. “I am.. a certified fuck up. Ask anyone.”
“Hey,” Harry reached up so he could tuck my hair behind my ear. “I can’t believe I’m hearing this from you, confident as you are. You’re hardly a fuck up. You’re actually one of the most put together people that I’ve ever met.”
“That’s what you think,” I pointed a finger into his chest multiple times until I let my hand fall back into my lap, playing with one of the rings on my thumb. “I’m not as great as I seem, Harry.”
“I think you’re brilliant,” He gave me a halfhearted smile, his thumb feathering over my jawline. “And I like having you around, if that’s alright with you.”
