some unexpectedly difficult ed moments pt 2 !
if someone compliments you they MUST be lying, or secretly calling you fat, or trying to sabotage you
can’t stand up without needing to pause for a second while your friends wait for your body to recover
eating normally for a day or two?? i must have been lying about my ed this whole damn time
wondering if you’ll ever feel like you’ve made it
someone sees your thinspo and comments about how thin and scary they look, but all you see is what you want. you distantly remember a time when you thought that was scary too.
trying to decide whether that voice calling the person next to you fat and disgusting is your disorder or you really being a horrible person who deserves everything they’re going through
being grateful you didn’t have to start at a higher cw than you did, even though everyone feels awful and ugly all the time regardless
a nice act (a free size upgrade, clothing gifts, a meal out) turns into torture
TW // just wait one more hour, twenty more minutes, one more second, then you can eat that apple. or, eat this entire sleeve of cookies instead. do it, keep going. oh, you’re done already? gross pig.
you can almost see people moving farther away from you emotionally. why invite you out if you won’t partake? why ask if you wanna hang out when you’re constantly tired and irritable? why try if you won’t try for yourself?
swinging wildly between yearning for recovery and wanting nothing more than to sink deeper into your ed
people not believing you when you say you love food
is this a binge or is this recovery?
you will never look like that person because of genetics, or bone structure, or a million other reasons. someone else wishes they looked just like you.
why does it seem like every mental illness comes prepackaged with like 3 add-on mental illnesses???
if i’m so cold all the fucking time why do i keep sweating so muchÂ
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