Oh Tumblr, My Tumblr
Well, you sick fucks, I'm back again. Heartbroken, of course. I got caught up like a mother fucker and the worst part is, I was axtually fucking forgiven. He who I fell out of love with forgave me and he who I fell in love with will go back to his respective partner and never speak to me again. Not unless I want to lose my family (whatever that means). Don't know how to explain what I'm feeling but here goes nothing.
DD, you wonderful, confusing human being-- I will never forget you and I will always have love for you. Knowing I will never see you again hurts me more than you will ever, ever know. I hope you find happiness with your bm and I hope you're able to forget my name some day. All the tickles, and the kisses, and the love-making, and the baby-naming, and the hugging, and the love.......is buried deep in my chest and I will have to light it on fire, like when you burn tree branches so that they disappear. Except, it's not gone. It stays put, unable to ever be touched or moved ever again.
And to my sweetest, dearest, most loving husband, I'm so fucking sorry, but I do not deserve you. Not even in the slightest. I don't know why you won't let me leave you, but fine. I give up. You caught my infidelity in a very bad way, not the worst, but definitely caught me in a way I didn't want you to, and yet, you are still so obsessed with me you will not let me or this marriage go. My respect. God knows any other man would have kicked me out the house.
I don't know what all of this means for all three of us. All I know is that it's time to refocus my energy in my children and me getting this promotion at work.
Oh Tumblr, my Tumblr, I have become the bearer of bad news, yet again. Typical. The outcome of my life has been chosen for me, yet again.










