Cherrie Unsensored

This is my space. This is my book of faces. This is my bird song. I will not censor myself for your comfort. I hope you won't for me either.

[cherriethefox]

I fucking LOVE zoya pixie dust!

[cherriethefox]

Oh amazon. :) you sure know how to make it all okay again. And your customer service is ridiculous. <3

[cherriethefox]

Oh amazon, this is the first time you disappoint me...don't let it happen again.

[cherriethefox]

The love hate relationship that is tumblr and me.

Oh tumblr. How i wish i could post on my other blogs while on my phone, yet you tease me and post it to my main blog. I am sad faced. I'm not sure what to do about this, because i freaking love tumblr...i guess i'll just do my usual and complain a bit and move along.

[cherriethefox]

Fool me once shame on you, fool me...every single time after that oh fuck off.

Is it wrong that i just can't get over how retarded some people are? Specifically who i thought was my best friend? Goes to show who you can rely on. damn shame.

[cherriethefox]

You know you need to lose weight when...

...sigh...this is embarassing. So i wasn't struggling to wipe after i took a dump per-say, but i just noticed that it wasn't as easy as it should be. So! I went to the gym and did some interval training for two miles! I'm so proud. I'm not a runner...but i do like the ease of wiping my ass after i take a shit. This has got to end. See if i can go again tomorrow... ><

[cherriethefox]

You all are overly sensitive little bitches breeding more weak cowardly children

Yea Idk. I'm just so angry. I have never felt so helpless. My dad has given my everything I have ever wanted and there is nothing I can do for him in a time of such terrible need. My emotions jump between selfish, angry, helpless, and conceding. Selfishly I wish he could stick around longer. I wish he could just fight it and stay with me. I don't wanna lose my dad. I can't imagine a life without him. The greatest man I had ever met and such a good standard to put anyone I would consider being with up to. The idea of a world without my dad is absurd. I'm angry that he has relentlessly worked his ass off his whole life to just be granted with a terminal degenerative disease. Talk about some major bullshit. I feel helpless. There isn't a single thing that I can do to help him. To make it easier or go away. Then I concede and wish it would just let him pass already. Instead of slowly tearing him down. Emasculating him. Taking away his big booming voice, his jolly belly, his laugh and smile. He's a mere silhouette of my dad. I can't imagine him living like this. He's so big and proud, this is the worst thing that could have happened to him, mind and body. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. This makes me question everything and its purpose. Nothing makes sense. I never understood people saying that before. I didn't get how "nothing makes sense anymore" made any sense...lol. I understand now. It doesn't. None of it does. Why do bad things happen to good people. Why do people believe there is a god when he does things like gives people massive neuromuscular degenerative disease? Why do they feel like when this happens its comforting to think that there is a god and he just wanted my dad there with him? Why do they feel I need to make up heaven and help for the kids so they will think they will see papa there again some day?

[cherriethefox]

Not fair.

Yea. Exactly. So here is how life is, at least how it's presenting itself to me. Rough third world childhood, have a chance for a better life in america, start from the bottom. Work 18 hour days in the vineyard fields, picking whatever is in season, get married, try to have many kids, wife's broken uterus gives only one. Be the best father one can be. Work 12 hour days when work get busy, to support wife and child. Getting older, whore daughter gets pregnant, yay more babies! Keeps working 12 hour days to support wife, whore daughter and children, so happy she had kids. Body starts failing on an old man...feeling weaker and pains...get diagnosed with ALS just before retirement would have kicked in. Daughter gets married, relief she'll be taken care of. Body withers quickly. Can't breath, can't cough, can't walk, can't talk. So much for working for retirement. Dying slowly, knowing the disease is terminal.

Cool. So life doesn't reward the honest hard workers. Bust your ass all your life and this is what you get...how can I do the same in good faith? When bad shit happens to good people. How can I tell my kids to do work hard and it pays off? Because to me it looks like work hard and get fucked. In the worst possible way.

Fuck ALS. Fuck it all. I'm so angry. All the time. It just festers inside me. How can it be like this? Its not fair. And fuck all the lazy useless waste of space sorry excuse for humans who just slide by and get everything without much effort. Die in a mother fucking fire. 

I love you, dad.

[theomeganerd]

[cherriethefox]

awesome!!! :D

[cherriethefox]

He didn't install what?

Flash. That's right, he didn't install flash. Sigh. C'monnnnnn! >.>

[cherriethefox]

Aaaaaaand he hurt his dick...again.

What the fuck. 

Okay wait up a second let me give some back ground here. I have a thing for pitched tents. I love them, they make me happy, smiley, and turn me on. My husband gets a boner when he's tired. And I love it. I don't like wasting his boners either. If he has a boner, I would definitely like to put it to good use. 

Now, last night, I went to bed around 11pm. I was tired, and he had his new game (understandable, I just don't happen to partake in that specific video game of his.) He finished playing his game around 230-3am, and had a tired boner. He felt like just taking care of it and being done with it. We've have talked about this repeatedly, and I've told him, share the love! Don't be stingy with that shit! You don't think I would enjoy a little bit of that? Share the god damn love! But no, he "didn't want to use me." Motherfucker that's a mutual goddamn thing! Roll the fuck over I'd use your ass if you didn't sleep like a fucking rock. Wake me the fuck up and lets pound this shit out. That's all. Is that so much to ask? I love the unexpected wake me up with your dick lovin'. Now THAT is how wouldn't mind being woken up.

Of course I don't find out until the next day when we are alone and I start getting frisky with what's rightfully mine and he winces. "Woah, what's wrong with you?" This bitch hurt his dick masturbating...again. What. The. Fuck. Sigh, as if our freaky lovin' isn't already limited enough, he has to fuck it up and take it away when we CAN do it? 

All I have to say is...Fuck. :(

[essentiallycherrie]

The official Etsy shop for my little cuties and snuggles.

[cherriethefox]

I love doing my nails :)

[cherriethefox]

Oh yes, please feel free to take up the whole intersection while you casually do your job.

[cherriethefox]

Rock bottom

I think my son has finally hit his bottom most point with us. At least I hope he has. Its sickly a scary path we are going down. He is one of the most incredible kids I've ever met, but is having trouble adjusting to dad living with us on top of regular kid stuff...I just hope that this is it considering how close we are to the teen years. I didn't think there was anything to worry about raising a boy but now I understand. Its such a fine line we are teetering. I just hope that he can stick with it and overcome this hurdle. So much potential.

[cherriethefox]

Yes. I found the droid I was looking for.

Droid DNA. O.m.g. this is quite possibly the best phone I have ever had, seen, or heard of. I have used Samsung’s, I have used iPhones, I have had lgs, and flip phones. The DNA just took a huge sloppy dump on any competition it may have had. The huge screen, the soft back, the lightening fast reaction and speed between applications and such. This is phenomenal. The only thing I could ask for is a slot for a micro sd. I love being able to save all my junk without dealing with transferring anything. Yesterday I claimed panera breads was my new best friend. I was wrong. Short from doing my laundry for me this phone meets all my needs. I couldn’t ask for more or (dare I think) something better! Lets just hope its as durable as I think it will be….although, all super heroes have their weakness…I certainly hope not. In any case I have the best buy insurance on the phone, and I will stand by her through all the bumps in the road. Thank you for making the DNA droid. Thank you so much.

[cherriethefox]

I got new nail polish!!! had to try it out asap...fell asleep before it dried all the way :(