When will another chapter be out I read it today I loved it!
Hi sorry I havenāt been active as much recently but a new chapter should be out soon Iām just figuring out how I want the next few chapters to play out !
GENRE: Collage!AU,Social Media!AU, Brothers bestfreind!AU,fluff. smut, mentions of suicide and abuse
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Itās was Friday the day before the party your brother had found you on the floor after your conversation with your ex you really just couldnāt anymore you could never forgive yourself for not being able to say goodbye
Jake held you as your cried when you calmed down he brought you to the couch as he started to text his friends and told you they were coming over
As they all came one by one bring somthing to comfort you you wonders where sunghoon was you werenāt supposed to care but you did Jake looked upset and everyone liked on edge maybe itās cause you had a cut on your leg and you were bleeding? But you knew it wasnāt that
āWhereās sunghoonā you asked āwith his bitch ass gf so donāt worry about him ā Jake told you sarcastically you could tell he was pissed āy/n what happened like what really happened ā heeseung said as he cleans your cut to bandage it you always admired your brothers best freinds cause they were like you older brother but you just couldnāt tell them ānothingā it came out like a wispre you couldnāt tell them you knew what would happen if you did
All of them would go after woojin you felt terrible you could tell your brother was disappointed in you but he didnāt tell it you straight forward but he didnāt have to āthatās it y/n you donāt get to keep fucking secrets anymoreā Jake threw a fit he wanted to know what was wrong why wouldnāt you let him in
āI-im sorry I just canāt ā you could see Jake getting more pissed off as jungwon tried to calm him down tears running down your face but sunoo was also upset at the fact you wouldnāt tell them anything āwhy canāt you tell us y/n jake has a point youāve never hid anything and now you do ā you couldnāt give them an answer atleast not a real answer before they could continue there was a knock at the door you ran to answer it not wanting to be in the uncomfortable position anymore
You open the door only to be face to face with sunghoon he sees you tear stained face asking if you were ok but you didnāt wanna be in the house anymore as much as you didnāt like Sunghoon in that moment he was your last escape āyou have your car right ā he was confused on what you were talking about but he said yes and with that you ran to his car and told him to get in
You guys had been driving for awhile and the car was silent sunghoon was scanning you until his eyes were met by the blood on your thigh āyour bleeding y/nā you saw the blood you didnāt think it was bad when heeseung was cleaning it but now itās blood is running down your leg ālemme stop somewhere ā
Sunghoon ended up stoping at the pharmacy and taking you to a park to sit on his car to clean the wound āhow did this even happen ?ā You looked down as he stared at you he picked your face up eyes met together even in the moonlight his eyes still lit up like stars in the sky you knew it was wrong to like him but you couldnāt help yourself
With a deep sigh he said ā you can tell me anything ā and for some reason it felt different when he said it you felt terrible you were keeping everything in as tears started to form down your face ā hey hey donāt cry itās okay ā he wiped your tears holding your face in his hand the moment felt surreal you wanted to kiss him but you couldnāt you pushed him away ā you canāt just do that whenever you want ā you were upset at him now or maybe more at yourself for feeling something for your brothers best friend ādo what ā he said confused ā do this act like you care when my walls are down you donāt actually fucking care so donāt pretend ā he scoffed at you and that upset you he made you feel dumb.
ā itās the same thing that happened this summer and you act like nothing even happened like Iām the crazy one! ā in a way he seemed hurt but you couldnāt understand why āy/n I didnāt mean for it to seem that way ā he seemed genuine but you didnāt care ā well it did you canāt just make me feel things for you and then just walk away ā you said it you shouldnāt have said anything but you did
You messed up and you could tell ā what happened this summer there was a lot going on and we all donāt even know the full storyā you couldnāt tell what was happening now āyou donāt tell anybody anything ā he was changing the subject you didnāt understand why he didnāt want to talk about it ā thereās nothing about the story you need to know ā he came close to you āthatās the thing you keep it all to yourself! You donāt let anyone in y/n when we all know your hurting so whatās the big fucking deal!?!? ā
You felt so belittled ā what? You want me to tell you the reason I wasnāt there in the room when my dad died maybe itās cause at the same fucking time is when I found out woojin cheated on me?ā He seemed shocked āwhat else huh? Wanna know why I didnāt get to say goodbye probably cause I walked In on him fucking someone else and I got beat for finding out ā He pulled you in and hugged you.
All you did was cry and cry you finally let it out your boyfriend who had been mentally and sometimes physically abusing you was the reason you couldnāt see you dad in his last moments cause you found him fucking another girl āw-why didnāt you tell anyoneā you yourself didnāt know ā I didnāt want you guys to think less of me ā he looked at you hold your face and you couldnāt help yourself
You leaned in and kissed him and it felt amazing to be able to feel him again u missed it but he pulled away āwe canāt y/n Iām dating suyeonā was he being serious heād chose her over you āand Jake would kill me ā you really did feel dumb ā but what about in the summer what was that then or was I just gonna be your next fuck toy?ā He stopped for a moment to think āI-it was a mistake I-ā you pushed him away from you āwait y/n thatās not what I meantā he had fucked up big time
āAre you fucking kidding me? A mistake u said you loved me in that moment after you kissed me you said you loved me!ā He really didnāt remember? āI was drunk y/n I didnāt know what I was doing I shouldāve never crossed that boundary your jakes little sister ā
You were tired of him thinking of you as jakes little sister so you were gonna show him ā take me back to your place ā he didnāt understand āhuh?ā Shouldnāt you be mad at him he thought ā I donāt wanna be home with Jake please just take me back to yoursā he agreed but you were lying you didnāt give a fuck about that.
As soon as Sunghoon opened his door you made your way to his room he followed behind you not knowing if you were already going to sleep āhe-ā when you made it into sunghoon a room u pushed him on the bed and climbed on top of him
āWhat the fuck are you doing y/nā you started rolling your hips on him ātell me you donāt want me ā he used his hands to stop you āy/n please ā you started to kiss him he was trying hard you. Could see ā tell me you want me to stop and I will but Iām tired of you seeing me as jakes little sister but if you still think of me as just his little sister tell me to stopā you told him as you made your way to the edge of the bed undoing his pants
He was half hard already he was struggling and you loved it āthis isnāt a good idea princess ā that name he Hasnāt called you that for awhile ā then tell me to stop ā you said looking up at him pulling his meme er out of his pants you knew sunghoon was some type of big but holy fuck you pumped his member he let out strings of groans and you knew you got him ā fuck it ā he grabbed you hair pumping you on his member you could barley take him in your mouth ā your doing so good pretty ā you loved the names he gave you.
You were getting a puddle in your underwear you had never gotten wet so easily āIām almost there baby keep going please ah fuckā you licked a strip on his slit you felt his cock Twitch in your mouth you could tell he was close and after a couple more minutes he was done just in time
āSunghoon im back turn on the game the boys are here!!ā
āplease,ā he responds a little too quickly over the phone, desperation lacing his tone, āi need you.ā
not even ten minutes later, and the man is standing at your front door. heās dressed in his usual tee and sweatpants combo, something so simple yet so ridiculously breath taking on him. he topped it all off with a black cap, the thing covering most of his face as if wanting to be lowkey. as if not wanting anyone to know he was here at yours.
before you could greet him or ask what the hell he was doing here, the man moves at lightning speed, closing the gap between your bodies. his hands are already at your neck, holding you in place as he smashes his lips onto yours.
the last time you saw him was three weeks ago, when he ended the friends with benefits arrangements with you, saying he wanted to explore things with a super hot girl he met. and you hadnāt spoken to him since.
so the last thing you expected tonight was for him to call you at 1am, let alone be at your apartment... kissing you.
he slightly pushes forward, welcoming himself into your home and closing the door behind him with his foot. your back is quickly met with the hallway wall with his body now pressed firmly against you, cornering you in.
the man kisses you, hard, like his life depended on it. there were times when jake was rough, usually when he was stressed out but this, this was something else. like he was so desperate for you.
and this drove you crazy.
but no matter how in the moment you were feeling, the fact that this man was supposedly pursuing or even with another girl, kept ringing in the back of your head. knowing jake and his fuckboy ways, the man could very much be in a messy situation and the last thing you wanted was add yourself into the mix.
it takes every bit of you to pull your lips away from his, only slightly, but your gazes remain on each other in the dimly lit hallway. itās now that you realise the waft of alcohol coming from the man, like heād been drinking before coming here.
āyouāve been drinking. donāt tell me you were stupid enough to drive here.ā
āa beer, donāt worry. i just really wanted to see you.ā
āiāve told you so many times, donāt drink and drive,ā you sigh your words and push him off of you, leaving him be in the hallway as you walk into the kitchen, the man quickly following behind.
āwhy are you even here? does that girl of yours know?ā
āwe fought,ā he begins, fingers threading his hair as he approaches you, āsheās a headache already and sheās not even my girlfriend.ā
āso youāre only here because you guys fought and youāre not getting ass?ā a little chuckle spills from your lips as you turn to look at him, amused at all the audacity. āwow. you sure know how to make me feel special jake.ā
apart of you was hoping that heād tell you different, that heād show up tonight and tell you that he was no longer seeing her. you know itās crazy but youāve never liked sharing jake so you were glad when things ended when they did...
because you were getting way too close to that thin line between fucking and everything thereafter.
ālook iām tired, iām sure you have plenty of others to hit up tonight,ā you say with a yawn and pat his chest, āshut the door on your way out-ā
youāre only able to take two steps before his hand is on your arm, pulling you right back to him. and before you could even complain, the man lifts you up onto the countertop by the waist, his body immediately settling in between your dangling legs to stop you from moving away.
the smell of his cologne, once so familiar to you, immediately heightens all of your senses. itās one youāve become so used to, one youāve come to loved so much after spending countless nights with him.
but that was the past, he was with someone else now.
ājake. we canāt do this.ā
āwe can baby, whoās stopping us?ā
that god damn petname, the one he always uses when he wanted something. and every single time, youād give in, giving him just about everything he wanted.
and judging by how your body is reacting, you know youāre about to do the exact same thing this time too.
give in to jake sim.
sensing your lack of response, the man leans in, his face now in the crook of your neck. he kisses you gently, his soft lips leaving a trail down the side of your neck where he knew you were the most sensitive.
the man knew so much about you. where to hold, where to touch, where to kiss to get your body burning and yearning for him. you hated this, hated how easily he could have you wrapped around his finger without doing much.
you struggle a bit but successfully push him off, your hands now at his chest to stop him from kissing you. his half lidded gaze immediately has you pooling in your panties, a reminder how he used to look at you every time he wanted you.
āyou know you shouldnāt be here,ā you whisper, your words more so for yourself than him, āyouāre with someone now.ā
ābaby. you know she means nothing to me, no one can replace you.ā
he doesnāt give you the time to respond, instead swooping in to kiss you again. his lips feel so unbelievably soft against yours, just like how you remembered the first time he kissed you. months ago yet feels like it just happened yesterday, kissing him at that random party and letting him fuck you right there and then in the upstairs bedroom.
jake always had this effect on you, even now.
āi only ever want you, you know that right?ā his hands are already at the ends of your night gown, pulling the thin piece of material higher and higher up on your thighs as he continues kissing you, āyouāre so pretty. the prettiest.ā
youāre no longer fighting him, your mind too focused on his fingers that are now drawing circles in your inner thigh. heās just so close to where you needed him most, your poor core already throbbing at the mere thought of him being inside of you.
youāve missed him so much that just him being here excited you, more so than any other man have in the past few weeks.
āyouāll let me fuck you right baby?ā
you donāt bother replying and wrap your arms around his neck instead, pulling the man in to kiss him. youād be lying, especially to yourself, if you said you didnāt want this.
a shiver runs through your body as he hastily rips your panties off in one go, leaving your core so bare and ready for him to fill. itās not long before the man is also bare, his throbbing erection already oozing of precum that heās rubbing against your thighs, desperately humping you.
āthis pussy... is mine,ā he pushes into you without warning, without hesitation, immediately filling you to the very brim. heās already so deep, stretching every part of you along the way but he doesnāt care and at this point, neither do you.
itās uncomfortable at first, your tightness attempting to take as much of him as possible. to say he was big, was quite the understatement, something youāve learned right from the start. it always surprised you how he could fit it all in of you, even without the foreplay.
but then again, he did always have you so wet and prepared for him, always so eager to take him no matter what.
āyouāre mine. all mine. right?ā
āyours jake, all yours.ā
youāre too caught up in the moment, throwing your head back without thinking much besides how good it felt to have jake sim fucking you. every word, every kiss, every thrust is already bringing you closer and closer to your release. itās obvious youāve been so desperate for him, so needy with the way youāre already moaning his name.
words become foreign to you, the only thing on your lips are sounds you didnāt even know were possible to make.
so whiny, so pathetic, so sinful.
and all for jake sim.
you watch through blurred vision as he lays his head into the crook of your neck, his grip gradually tightening more with every one of his thrusts. he kisses your neck again, even going as far as sucking on a particular spot he knew would have your head spinning.
but just as much as he knew you, you knew him as well. and judging by his current stance, you were sure he was about to finish. his angling, his deep grunts, his grip on your body, all signs that the man was desperate to reach his end.
and luckily for you, the same feeling was finally approaching. that familiar knot in the pit of your core that is screaming to be released. you claw at him then, fingers tangled in his hair, his black cap long gone.
itās not often that you guys finish together but when it does happen, you always feel as though youāre floating on cloud nine. your entire body feels as light as air, like nothing else mattered in that moment but you and him, your bodies completely entangled together.
just like right now.
his name is the only thing on your lips as you reach your peak, your juices mixing with his hot spurts of cum that was already leaking out onto your thighs. your nightgown, his hair, the cum on your thighs, all so messy just like the mess you just got yourself in for letting jake sim into your apartment tonight.
āfuck- that was crazy,ā he runs his fingers through his hair, fixing all the strands sticking out from you pulling on it earlier. the man slowly pulls out of you, leaving you to gasp at the sudden empty feeling and of course... of the cum that is continuing to spill out of you.
*ding*
*ding*
*ding*
your brows immediately raise at how quick he reached for his phone from the countertop, as if to prevent you from seeing the new messages. itās a no brainer who the sender was based off the smirk on his face but apart of you still held onto the small chance that it wasnāt.
that it wasnāt her, calling for him to come back.
āhey uh- i gotta run.ā
sigh. of course.
āuh- the boys are looking for me,ā he explains without even looking at you, the man too busy wiping himself off before getting dressed. all done so at record speed. āsee you around pretty.ā
you had barely gotten off the countertop but the man was already off on his way, disappearing out of your apartment just as fast as he had appeared. even leaving behind his favourite cap on your kitchen floor.
there was nothing for you to do besides laugh, laugh at being fucked over by the one man you said youād stay away from. you werenāt stupid, you just had a weak spot for him and he knew this very well.
but this was it. if he wanted to play, so were you.
and it was all going to happen tomorrow night at your friendās party, where you were certain both jake and his new girl would be at.
Y/n who has a crush on her brothers best friend sunghoon and her aunt is the head minister of dark moon college her crush on her brothers best freind stays although he has a gf whoās a bitch but he canāt get what happened this summer with y/n out of his mind and neither can sheā¦.
PAIRING : SUNGHOON X Y/N
GENRE: Collage!AU,Social Media!AU,Brothers bestfreind!AU,fluff,smut,mentions of suicide and abuse
okay i totally get you are trying to explain that you DON'T want to write smut for riki. i think you phrased your explanation a little weird for people to misunderstand though. saying you're "starting off soft" gives off the wrong impression and still sounds like you're going to write "softer" smut. i think you're trying to say you're going to write fluff?
YES SORRY THATS WHAT I MEANT thatās why i said I thought I worded it wrong but thank u!
first of all the thought you had to write niki smuts there was nothing wrong with it maybe cause he just turned freshly 18 make give it a week? but for other idols who are 18 its fine so im confused on why they are trying to attack you!! i found you on my feed btw! (new anon)
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I donāt Even know tbh with you and in the beginning I thought I had made it really clear about what I was saying but I Gusse notš¤·š»āāļø
I just think itās so crazy on how everyoneās so protective over riki but not the other minors who not only get sexualized but bullied too, like have you seen some of lesserafimās choreographies?? Eunchaeās not even 18 yet, and leeseo, wonyoung (she was 16 when she started getting a lot of hate) etc who got bullied for being a āpick meā or ācringeā
Iām not saying itās ok to sexualize riki when he just turned 18 or anyone at all because itās not, Iām just saying how you guys pick and choose about minors yāall want to protect then turn around and listen to cookie by new jeans plus author literally said they werenāt even going to write for him at all and werenāt even comfortable with doing smut.
And for author Iām sorry your getting so much hate for this I hope your ok <3 (sorry if this is bad english isnāt my first language)
Your English is amazing and thank you so much for your response it really means a lot to me!!! š¤š¤š¤ššš
OK Iām going to pin this post so that way when people that have shit to say about me come on my profile, they can read this
1. Iām not going to write Niki smuts not because you guys all came at me for it but because in the beginning, I was never going to originally write for him anyways and if I was going to write some thing for him like I said, itāll be something soft ļæ¼ there was many people that I took my side and I thank you for that to be honest, there was a lot more nice comments and there were mean ones ļæ¼
2. if you guys want to tell me to kill myself, yāall are fucked up and wrong for that you guys have no idea what other people deal with and for people to say shit like that itās really fucked up in on some other level ļæ¼ even if someone was going to write a Niki smut I wouldnāt tell someone to kill themselves ļæ¼
3 .for the people that said to write a Niki, smut and do what they donāt want you to do no Iām not going to write a Niki smut because he did just turned 18 and I wasnāt going to write about him to begin with
4 . people saying there gonna dox me or Iām scared? Iām not scared, is it just wrong for me to want privacy? I donāt want to have my privacy and all my information out there because this isnāt something that I do frequently I donāt write all the time I only right for fun, so is it so wrong for me to have my own privacy. Do you really think someoneās going to release their information knowing that people said to that person to kill themselves ļæ¼?
But this is going to be one of the last times Iām going to be saying anything on these topics because I think Iāve made it very clear that Iām not going to be writing about him and I think Iāve also made my opinion very clear so thank you for taking the time to read what I said ļ漚¤
youāre wrong actually, i dont read smut for barely/freshly legal ppl LMAO
Okay this is the last time Iām gonna respond to one of these cause thereās so many right now but if you guys took the time to genuinely ļæ¼read what I said wich what I said āwhen I start writing about niki it will probably be just something soft nothing to big ā And if you guys didnāt read that part thatās on you so everyone coming for me has no reason to you guys have such a big deal about Niki and for what I understand heās barley 18 and yes Iām not gonna write about him in that way as I said it would be some soft! And another thing I also said Is that I only write for certain members so if you guys didnāt take anytime to read that thatās on you I really could care less about what people have to say and if u guys feel some type of way then thatās not for me to control if you guys donāt like it just block me or if you donāt agree with what Iām saying just block me thereās no point in even trying to say anything to me if my opinion on this wont change and my opinion on this if is wasnāt clear is that Iām not going to write smut for niki! Thatās why I said somthing soft for Niki and if you guys say what about the part where I said āif you guys ever want me to write a quick smut about any member or anything tbh Iāll try and do itā I wasnāt meaning Niki and you guys can say Iām switching up but Iām not but think what you wantā¦ oh and the people saying I should kms and cut deep you genuinely think saying shit like that would fix anything yāall are fucking weird
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Oh and this is my update to to my story with sunghoon my phone is kinda brokenš so I need to get it fixed but once thatās dealt with Iāll start!!
Omg people saying stuff like āI watched him grow you canāt write smut about himā or āhe just turned 18ā I mean obviously itās a little weird but ppl didnāt even think twice before writing smut for jungwon when he turned 18 or other members.
And I believe that in a few months there will be smut abt him and people will read it without thinking twice just like it happened with jungwon.
You watched all the members grow so why is it a different treatment when it comes to ni-ki like jungwon and sunoo are just a 1/2 year apart from him but I didnāt see people being so protective over them when they turned 18.
Itās also really weird to me that some people say āyou canāt sexualize ļæ¼him he just turned 18ā so let me say this, you shouldnāt sexualize any of the members. But the writers who say that write for all the other members so why r u sexualizing them?
And last thing this is FICTION if you donāt like it/ donāt want to read it you can simply scroll or block that account. So easy right!
Facts I write fiction thatās the whole point of the fucking genre ļæ¼
Lmao at the anon calling you disgusting and saying you write like a 12 year old when they literally sound like a 12 year old themselves pls š I genuinely hope they are 12 bc if theyāre older than that and still have so many spelling mistakes and grammatical errors thatās crazy
Itās like people with the opposite opinion didnāt even read your asks/peoplesā posts who have basically the same opinion on the situation that you do. Literally just sending messages with the intent to hurt you, itās honestly sad. They have no lives. Anyways I hope there arenāt too many hate messages in your inboxā¦reminder you can always delete them if it gets too much and you donāt have to answer them all <3
Thank you so much for being so sweet!! Some of them I havenāt answers cause there just so gross like telling people to kill themselves over this like are you serious Iām pretty sure there are 12 cause if your grown and writing like that itās actually a problem but I hope you have a wonderful day/night!š
I see you arguing back and forth w people and I donāt think itās worst anybodies time. Just say youāre a disgusting person and youāre okay with being a disgusting and move on. Itās okš
Then just say your a bitch who likes to come at people for no reason š your probably reading smuts yourself right so just say your disgusting tooš¤
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