Celina

[cherrycelin]

Going on a vacation where i know im gonna gain weight is kinda scary

[cherrycelin]

Everybody in my family is fucking big back omggg

[cherrycelin]

All I dream about day and night is ordering as much as food I want and eating it all in one sitting…. but I can’t

[cherrycelin]

Why do all hot guys heve gfs…

Sigh

[cherrycelin]

Is it safe to admit that I think I’m starting to show signs of ed?

I think being in a calorie deficit for so long makes u obsessed with loosing weight.

WL is all I think day and night and there’s nothing I want more than being skinny.

I sometimes avoid hanging out w my friends bc I know we’ll end up eating something then I loose control and eat everything

I feel very guilty everytime that I over eat and feel like a failure.

Why is it so easy for most people to be so skinny. Why can’t I be skinny and eat whatever I want.

My obsession with mukbangs started when I restricted myself more and more.

When will it end

When will I be truly happy

[cherrycelin]

Why does it feel like everything that I do I end up in another problem

[cherrycelin]

I wish I was naturally pretty without makeup

[cherrycelin]

I wish I was pretty and happy

[cherrycelin]

I remember there was this youtube ff of werewolf Jimin and he wanted to drown himself bc he so hopeless in finding a mate but then this rouge were wolf turned out to be his mate and saved him. The author deleted that 5 years ago but damn I still remember that masterpiece.

Lowkey wanna rewrite it for myself

[cherrycelin]

But to be honest is it really them or is it just me that doesn’t feel complete with myself.

I mean they’re still shit but I think the reason I get so triggered is bc I can never see anybody having anything better than me.

In my mind, I’m the most mature and intelligent person.

What’s crazy is that I know nobody can tell this is the true me. That maybe the true me isn’t so pretty as I try to show.

Or maybe im not even mature as I think i am and to everybody else I’m a stupid innocent quiet girl who can never stand up for herself.

I don’t think I know who I am yet, but why does it seem like everybody else have everything figured out and I’m the only one standing amongst all the runners.

So how do I stop caring about what others people do or think of me and get myself to where I dream.

[cherrycelin]

I hate everybody that I follow on instagram

It’s bunch of ugly souls posting about a life I couldn’t give less fuck about.

I genuinely hate them so much that I all i wish for them is shit.

So what if ur living ur life u ugly ass pathetic bitch I don’t wanna see ur ugly ass

Fuck all of them and everybody

[cherrycelin]

So what if I start saying whatever I want in here bc i know nobody that I know can find me?

[cherrycelin]

I think people who don’t have mental health issues are boring and don’t have a personality

[babydoll-4444]

[cherrycelin]

Adrik is still on my mind

[pollywolly21]

everything and everyone else drives me utterly insane

[cherrycelin]

Maybe I’ll start posting here cause nobody will ever find me