December 13th. Today is the day that changed my life for the better in every aspect exactly one year ago. Our official official anniverary. God, I remember my excitement because we finally felt like it was time to let the world know that we‘re together now. My heart was bursting at the seams and I just finally wanted be able to tell the universe all about you, my baby love. But…I also loved when we kept the outside world out of our business. It was just us, fully soaking in that our invisible string finally brought us together. I love you, Harlow. So fucking much and my love and admiration for you grows every single day.
An entire year has passed and I think it‘s safe to say that I fell for you instantly when we met (again). Did I realize it back then? Fuck no. Did I even think that it was possible to fall for someone that hard and quickly no matter the circumstances? Also no. But it happened and I don‘t feel the need to hide or be ashamed of it anymore. You met me when I was at my lowest. Depressed, sad, scared of the future, confused and heartbroken and yet you still saw something in me that made you stay. You were my support system and one of the very few people who lifted me up and made my days more bearable. And honestly? I can‘t even tell you when I fell for you. However, you were such a good friend to me that it only took me a few days of being around you to know that I don‘t wanna let you go. But dear god, the moment I realized that you were making my heart beat faster in a way that no platonic friend should make was one of the scariest, yet most exiciting moments of my entire life.
I wanted to have you in my life no matter what, even if we would‘ve stayed friends forever no I am totally not lying right now to keep some curses away from us. And hey, we tried really hard to not get too close….Ah fuck, let‘s be real: We met and sparks were flying instantly. You and that damn smile of yours. Giving me the most conflicted feelings I ever felt!!! It felt like my entire world was collapsing in front of me and then you came around and rebuilt it from scratch. You made me laugh and welcomed me into your pink bubblegum vintage world without hesitation. And it was beautiful. It was exactly what the both of us needed. It was fate and I stand by that. You made me believe in soulmates – there‘s someone out there for everyone. And you‘ll meet that person eventually. And for me it‘s you.
Also, fuuuuuuuuck! How could I not fall for you instantly? You‘re funny, loving, caring, absolutely stunning and you radiate such warmth. Your heart is way too big to fit inside your body and I‘m constantly in awe of how full of life and love you are.
Being with you is fun. And I mean it. We haven‘t had a single gloomy day in our entire relationship. No fights, no drama, nothing and I am so grateful that you‘ve shown me that being in love and having an exciting life together doesn‘t mean to lowkey traumatize each other. I‘ve had my fair share of mistakes in the past. I hurt people I loved and I know that I did people wrong and I never considered myself to be a good person. But you changed me without even wanting to do so. You gave me a whole new perspective on my own self and made me realize that being soft doesn‘t mean that you‘re weak.
I don‘t know what I love more about you. Maybe it‘s the way you carry yourself, your mind, your heart or your angelic face. There‘s something so fucking special about you. You‘re the whole package and I can‘t believe that you‘re by my side. Not a day goes by where I don‘t look at you and think: Wow I get to love this girl for the rest of my life. And trust me, I will. I will love and worship you until my dying breath and beyond. You‘re the one for me and there‘s nothing in this world that could keep me away from you.
Can we take a moment to appreciate how wonderful our communication is? I never felt judged or scared to say something because I know that we will find a way to figure things out. We will make it work because we love and respect each other so much. You‘re making me feel heard and seen and I hope that you feel the exact same way as well.
I know it sounds cheesy but there is not a single thing that I would change about you. You and your gorgeous, stubborn head swept me off my feet. You knew what you wanted and you go it (me, hehe). And you didn‘t even try! You were just there and my eyes turned into hearts. No one gets me like you do. No one loves as intensely as you do and you never made me feel like I need to question how much of this I deserve. And not to sound like the biggest douchebag ever but fuck yeah I deserve love. I deserve your love and I deserve the life we get to spend together.
Just as much as you deserve to be worshipped every single day. I catch myself staring at you in utter awe while realizing that I am the luckiest man on earth because you‘re with me. (And yes I said it twice in this text because it is the TRUTH) I‘ve waited my entire life for someone like you to embrace me fully and turn me into the best version of myself. I can be myself around you. Always. No matter what. I don‘t have to be the tough guy that saves you out of a burning castle – I get to be the guy who stumbled over his own feet because he got too excited when he first saw you.
I love being your pookie.
I never knew that I could get teary eyed over a nickname but here I am, ugly crying because I feel so fucking loved whenever you call me that (which is at least 20 times a day). I don‘t know what you did to me (you and I both know about the Etsy spell but sssshhhhh) but I never felt more in love and like myself and content in my life ever before.
Oh my sweet Harlow, forever still isn‘t enough time to spend with you. And I know that we will meet in every single lifetime.
This past year has been a blast. I would marry you every single day over and over again if I could. Ugh, I wish we could live inside each other‘s skin…I can‘t be close enough to you! My love, my kissy queen, my wife, my everything. This is just the start of our beautiful journey together and I can‘t fucking wait to love you, cherish and be obsessed with you for eternity. 💗🖤 @cherryflavouredconversation
