Cherry

waiting for Yunseo~∆~ 22y/o

[cherryinnie]

I keep thinking about that one Instagram reel that was hoping and praying for Trinity to bring someone back from casa... Someone they'd probably find more attractive than Bryce (cos yk that's their major reason for failing to support her connection with him, even if they want to hide under other reasons just to seem less shallow) and I can't help but wonder how her villa journey might have went if she didn't choose Bryce.

Would she have had this seamless of a villa run? This amazing communication, this genuine care from both parties to make things work, someone that puts her first and her emotions first and treats her with so much respect and doesn't hide his feelings for her under puzzles or breadcrumbing or jokes, that isn't afraid to lay all his cards on the table and listen when she brings up ways in which their connection could be better; and acts on it!!! Would she have been able to experience these six weeks with smiles and laughter and genuine happiness, as their connection grew?

I think about this a lot. If she had gone the route you all wanted her to go, someone that was found 'hot' and 'attractive' by the audience, would she have been able to walk out of this experience calmer, happier, with a big smile on her face?

I'm so glad she went based off emotion and character. I'm so glad she gave Bryce a chance, even if he wasn't what she originally envisioned going into this experience, I'm glad she trusted her intuition and how he made her feel and went for it.

And now she's in a loving romantic relationship with effective communication and mutual respect and LOVE without struggle, where she feels calm and her nervous system is at rest... And she's 100 thousand dollars richer. ☺️☺️☺️☺️

[cherryinnie]

Ticket to heaven episode 4 thoughts

I haven't looked at the lyrics to the OST before, but this line really stood out to me while I was watching the opening theme for the episode.

I feel like it summarizes everything about BarthTanrak's feelings for each other. Or more specifically, Tanrak's feeling for Barth.

This episode, we see Barth courting Tanrak, through the latter's hesitation, fear and unwillingness to fully turn away from everything he's been working to achieve his whole life, since his parents died.

I really like the flowers Barth slipped to Tanrak when he wasn't looking (SO CUTE!!)

"when I'm around you I can't control myself." This, coming from someone that has held unto control as a lifeline all his life??? It's basically a love confession. The fact that Barth is able to allow Tan a space to be himself, without fearing the repercussions of not going to heaven, (which is slowly acting like a noose around his neck), makes me so happy to see.

That waterfall scene was a beautiful one, the scream that came from Tanrak's throat filled me with glee. Just... Everything that scene represents, shedding fear, constraint, restraint, allowing yourself to just be... It's something that tugged at my heartstrings. Barth laying himself bare for the first time, letting Tanrak in, Tanrak saying he'd pray for Barth's mum, it had me crying happy tears.

That senior that came to the school to visit, the one that's now in seminary... Something tells me he was Tan's first love, the one he was asking father about. I could be wrong, though.

I can't stop thinking about those flowers, to be honest. A symbol of pure love, even though it's a form of love that's been rendered impure by society, but that white flower symbolizes the innocent nature of Barth's feelings towards Tanrak. A true love that waits for you and doesn't pressure you and lets you be yourself freely, that offers a shoulder to lean on, support, is together with you through your loneliness, brings you happiness, even through the melancholy of your life.

I love them for each other.

We're starting to see Tan's dream morph into something else, his heaven shape into a person, rather than a place (or rather a different person, rather than his parents). I can't wait for it to be expatiated more by next episode, especially now that Kongdech has caught on.

[gaylilsherlock]

Teach Me, There's So Much I Need To Learn

a jwds gift fic for @heathyr based on their iconic post.

Summary: Han Joowon has been English Literature teacher at Woosuk University for three years. So far, it's been wonderful— his students are keen, his office is a decent size, and the pay is great. When the new Fall semester starts, though, he's knocked off-kilter by someone he assumes is a new professor auditing his class. Turns out, the infuriatingly flirtatious, handsome older man who asks far too many questions isn't a fellow teacher— he's a student.

Note: This will be my last JWDS fic. I hope you enjoy it. Thank you for reading and commenting these last few years.

read it here.

my other BE fics - in case you've missed any.

tags under the cut, reblogs appreciated ^_^

@l-tyrell @rumpleteasa @striving4mikey @uhhhhmanda @friendlynbhddevil

@jehan-d-art @absolutesuffering @jingooism @endof-vanity

@efadefoks @quillinhand @her-soliloquies @fixaidea

@nonglukest @bitsandpiecesofwhoiam @fromhereonblind @ridethefakesenses @nireey

@forgive-and-take @gusdeservedbetter @rumpleteasa2 @missing-wonho-hours-blog

@ridethefakesenses @cherryinnie @naomi-keneee @edengoshiwonsrooftop @micaijahs-requiem

@foxysunqueen @queerholmcs @404profound

[cherryinnie]

Ticket to heaven episode 2 spoilers

My thoughts on the latest episode

One thing about repression is that when that dam of emotions and "forbidden desires" finally breaks, it's going to come crashing down like a fucking tidal wave. And I fear that's what's happening to Tanrak. My boy is unraveling.

This show does a good job at foreshadowing imo, or the use of metaphors to explain more about the characters? That brain teaser about the lost one the believer and the lover... It sticks in my brain. "The lost one always tells the truth". Of course he does, because he is helpless, searching for answers, desperate to find his path; to find a path.

Anyway that scene also where they talk about lust and Tanrak is all about fighting it, because that's all he's ever done, fought and locked up all the distracting and "forbidden" and "sinful" parts of himself, all the parts that make him human. He moves around like some sort of "holy" shell, never doing anything wrong or slipping away from the status quo, because that is his ticket to heaven, the only way he can see his parents again.

It's so sad I'm so empathetic towards him, genuinely.

But here comes Barth, someone not shackled by these rules and expectations, who lives his life the way he wants to, who knows that he is odd and out of place and accepts it. He's here, and he's pulling Tanrak into his orbit, asking him about himself again and again even when Tanrak didn't answer the first time, not letting him disappear, making him confront these parts of himself that he thought he'd gotten rid of, that he thought he'd locked away forever.

I guess that's why I really like that last... Scene? Act? Idk. But it gives some sort of climax to the feelings we've seen brewing, especially on Tanrak's side. He spent most of the first episode orbiting Barth, rather unknowingly, like he was powerless to stop this pull to him. And this episode, he's finally experienced what it's like to be close to him, seen his character heard his jokes eaten with him, spent time with him... And we see those feelings surface. He wants him and needs him in a very "carnal" way, and we see him struggle with that, so hard that he snaps at him, tells him to hurry up so they can get back, to where it's safe... The safety of religion, of the rules.

But even blanketed by that safety, under the watchful eyes of God and the saints and the church... He gives in. He gives in to his need, his want, his... Desire.

[cherryinnie]

I think one thing ina11 is teaching me (again, 10 years later) is that a passion and true love for something will give you a guaranteed success in that thing. It is their true love for soccer that's the reason they're able to have all these different plays and stay strong even when their friend was tossed to the curb and form new connections and make new friends, and never give up.

That is something I fear these villains will never understand. They think it's about being talented, being strong, winning. The only thing keeping them going is the thirst for victory.

I'm sorry, but that's just not enough.

That's why when they're knocked down, they give up, or they use underhanded means to fight, taking the joy away from the game... Because it's a guaranteed victory.

But there's an emptiness behind their eyes, one that manifests when they are knocked down, and a fear behind every smug smile, one that makes them grit their teeth and shake when they are faced with the people that are truly doing this for the love of the game; Raimon 11.

Obviously you could say there's plot armor and obviously they can't fail they're the main characters, but even when they do fail, they get back up. And that's something those people who are only chasing victory can never do. They can never stand back up after they've been knocked down, because once the trophy is not in sight, it seems pointless to fight.

Maybe this is why I had to watch ina11 again, why I had to finish it, to remind myself that love is much stronger than it's made out to be, that if one has love, a true love and passion, they can get through anything. And with a smile on their face too.

[cherryinnie]

"we were only second rank... Above us is..." And then Tsurugi's dad comes out with his team and fawking erases them from existence... The fawk...

Didn't even let me enjoy my two seconds of victory why are they so keen on never giving these kids a break 😒😒😒 I'm so annoyed goodbye TT

And to make matters worse Kageyama is a free man rn. You have to be kidding me this has got to be a fawking joke.

Really once I got over the initial anxiety of seeing Raimon 11 get their asses beat by the aliens I started to really enjoy this arc... I'm excited to see what happens next, even though I'm biting my nails out of fear.

[cherryinnie]

First time watching Aliea academy arc and they're ragebaiting me so hard... First of all whatever this is

I'm so annoyed and pissed off you don't even know ... And now they've kicked Gouenji out for who knows what reason. I have an inkling as to why but I'm hurt, okay ☹️

I know I should harden my heart and tighten up especially since much worse things happen in later episodes... But I low-key just long for the fluffiness of football frontier arc... Sigh ☹️

[daleconcomba]

[khris-p]

boy we weak as hell in america

[tachimukai-moved]

IS THAT GOUENJI

[inazumaelevenheritageposts]

Inazuma Eleven Heritage Post

October 16, 2012

March 19, 2014

[gaylilsherlock]

this week I'm working on chapter 11/12 of 어둠 속의 빛 (A Light In The Darkness), a yami no matsuei jwds au.

here's a snipped from chapter 11, Finish It.

this chapter will be a little avengers endgame-y but hey, who doesn't love the power of friendship and love defeating evil?

please look forward to it.

reblogs appreciated~

@l-tyrell @rumpleteasa @striving4mikey @uhhhhmanda @friendlynbhddevil

@jehan-d-art @absolutesuffering @jingooism @endof-vanity

@efadefoks @quillinhand @her-soliloquies @lordoftheempty @fixaidea

@nonglukest @bitsandpiecesofwhoiam @fromhereonblind @ridethefakesenses @nireey

@forgive-and-take @gusdeservedbetter @rumpleteasa2 @missing-wonho-hours-blog

[cherryinnie]

Spoilers for ticket to heaven episode 1

It weighs heavily in my chest. Idk I feel melancholy after watching it. But let me talk about the trains that made me happy first, then I'll get into the deeper stuff.

I really like the sound of the choir singing, and hymns make me so happy. So that theme song was actually tailored to me perfectly. I can't help smiling whenever I think about it, it's just so warm-feeling.

The soundtrack as a whole, I love the vibes it brought to the scenes.

That scene where everyone sat down but Barth was the only one standing, with the sound and everything, it was so... Magical. To watch, anyway.

Okay, now on to the deeper stuff.

I feel like that seminary does a good job of pretending to be a safe place, but there's an underlying... Unease? Like you have to walk on eggshells and comport yourself a certain way or else that safety will be stripped away. Like something feeling friendly on the surface but underneath its genuinely terrifying.

And you can see the cracks. The way the students look at Barth, the way they treat him, the warning that the father gave him, even all these rules that are put in place... If you don't obey you're getting suspended, expelled...

I feel really bad for Barth. "Your God never helped me", it really hit me right in the feelings. It's just so sad how he had to act and be a certain way, and once he deviated from that path, once it came out that he was gay, all that support and love he was supposed to receive from his family was just stripped away. Even during the fight when they went to the principal's office I didn't see his parents there. Or his dad, whatever~

Even Tanrak, he clings unto God and the church as some type of hope... That his parents are safe and waiting for him- yeah, the melancholy feeling is very on point.

I'm actually really excited for the next episode, so far I'm having the best time.

P.S. that bully deserves a serious beating cos wtf is genuinely your problem.

[cherryinnie]

If I stare at you hard enough you'll fall in love with me type ish

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[flagellant]

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

[coffee-or-hot-cocoa]

i need all the help i can get for finals

[finnglas]

Hey so

the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like. 

So you know. 

This might be the real one, y’all.

[avhira]

I could use some luck

[cherryinnie]

It is even better than the first look/teaser DO YOU KNOW HOW RARE THAT IS.

[cherryinnie]

I think people are more hypocritical than they let on I think this world has way more chameleons than we give it credit for especially in online spaces (low-key me included)

[cherryinnie]

Now why is the OST for lately it's winter season screaming finality...

[moninils]

And all of this at once.

[cherryinnie]

The desperation with being liked is sucking creativity dry...