@cherrysprout

[cherrysprout]

avatar fic list + title songs

took the stars from my eyes: song

sun coming up (who is my shadow?): song

don't they know i'm the one who is cursed: song

sitting on the outside (observing the fun): song

i trace the cord back to the wall (no wonder, it was never plugged in at all): song

does it bother anyone else (that someone else has your name?): song

oh, there is a light (and it never goes out): song

you've been down too long in the midnight sea (get away, get away, get away): song

run for your children (for your sisters and brothers): song

before you know it (i'm lost at sea): song

i remember, i remember certain things (what i was wearing, the yellow dashes in the street): song

say after me (it's no better to be safe than sorry): song

without a thought, without a voice, without a soul (don't let me die here): song

for what it's worth (it was worth all the while): song

seasons don't fear the reaper (nor do the wind, the sun, or the rain): song

caught me cold, so they could cut (what there was left of love): song

where is my mind? (way out in the water, see it swimmin'): song

daddy looking at me (will i ever be free? have i crossed the line?): song

never let them take the light behind your eyes (i failed and lost this fight): song

if you leave tonight, keep running (and you need never look back again): song

i'm crying, they're coming for me (and i tried to hold these secrets inside me): song

hide my soul ('cause you're the only one who knows it): song

feet don't fail me now (take me to the finish line): song

you never know what you've been through ('til you pause and cough it out): song

so the winner takes it all (and the loser has to fall): song

but right now the ocean's blacker than black (the sky is too): song

i'm sorry, i'm fragile (so if you can't handle how human i am): song

and i don't want the world to see me ('cause i don't think that they'd understand): song

screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you (and you still won't hear me): song

stars that burn the brightest, fall so fast and pass you by (spark like empty lighters): song

just don't give up, i'm workin' it out (please don't give in, i won't let you down): song

so i bare my skin, and i count my sins (close my eyes, and i take it in): song

a thousand people i could be for you, (and you hate the fucking lot): song

because the last time you saw me (is still burned in the back of your mind): song

piece by piece is given up (dissolved, atomized) only that one point resists: song

we want more than the wars of our fathers (and everything inside screams for second life): song

and i digress ('cause i must make you the perfect evening): song

pray my soul to keep (comfort seems unreal): song

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i'm safe up high, nothing can touch me (why do i feel this party's over?) 

All he wanted to do was swallow past the bitterness and escape into sleep, no matter how dreamless. It was too late when he realized what had been offered to him was not mercy, just another leash. All they had to do was dangle the threat of leaving him another night without rest and he was complacent, keeping his mouth shut past witty and sharp-tongued replies, or apologizing with the smallest prompt.

Or, everything Spider went through left him with severe insomnia and a dependence on sleep aids.

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It's been a few months (sorry) but I updated!!! Read chapter two here, I hope you enjoy!

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they're calling for your head and they're calling for your name (i'll bomb down on them, i'm coming through)

For a moment, Lo’ak is confused. She’s still standing next to him, both having stopped several feet from where Sa’ata had landed. Her voice is trembling, eyes full of tears, hand coming up to cover her mouth in horror at something. He thinks she’s come to the same conclusion that he did— Spider is missing, but the way she starts shaking her head in denial makes him question what she’s seeing that he isn’t.

Continuation of "because the last time you saw me (is still burned in the back of your mind)" where Jake goes through with it, Neytiri doesn't stop him, and now they need to face their children.

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i'm safe up high, nothing can touch me (why do i feel this party's over?) 

All he wanted to do was swallow past the bitterness and escape into sleep, no matter how dreamless. It was too late when he realized what had been offered to him was not mercy, just another leash. All they had to do was dangle the threat of leaving him another night without rest and he was complacent, keeping his mouth shut past witty and sharp-tongued replies, or apologizing with the smallest prompt.

Or, everything Spider went through left him with severe insomnia and a dependence on sleep aids.

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pray my soul to keep (comfort seems unreal)

If he could stay in one moment forever, this might be the one that Spider would pick. Surrounded by his favorite people, bathed by sunlight, where war can’t touch them, and they are all on even ground. Everything is perfect, except for one small thing.

“Spi?” Tuk asks, voice hesitant in the way that tells him what she’s going to bring up. “I miss you. All of the time.”

Or, the remaining Sully kids find out what happened to Spider.

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and i digress ('cause i must make you the perfect evening)

“Spider, wait!”

He whips his head back to the treeline, where Jake is stumbling out of the forest, coming to his own stop at the way Spider throws his hands up as if to push him back. He’s left as the midpoint between the trees and the edge, out of options.

“I’m sorry, kid, let me just,” Jake heaves for air, as out of breath as he is. “It’s okay, I’m not going to hurt you.”

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we want more than the wars of our fathers (and everything inside screams for second life)

“Hey, little brother,” Neteyam smiles.

Spider sputters, half laughing, half sobbing at the old joke. They would always argue back and forth as to who was really the oldest. Before, at least, when Neteyam hadn’t pushed him away in the name of responsibility.

“How?” He asks.

“You tell me.” Neteyam’s grin fades, replaced by a weary sadness that looks wrong on his young face. “I didn’t think I would see any of you here for a long time. Had hoped, anyway.”

Or, Jake doesn't stop, Neytiri is too late, Neteyam and Spider meet again.

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piece by piece is given up (dissolved, atomized) only that one point resists

“Hey,” he says softly. “Let me look at you, kiddo.”

Before he can lean back, Spider is pressing in, shaking his head without lifting it. Norm can feel hot tears seeping through his shirt and shoots a concerned look at Jake, who can’t meet his gaze.

Or, instead of heading straight back to Awa'atlu, the trio must stop by High Camp, giving Norm a chance to find out what happened.

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because the last time you saw me (is still burned in the back of your mind)

Canon divergence of that scene in AFAA, Neytiri's POV

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a thousand people i could be for you, (and you hate the fucking lot)

"A lifetime of making himself small, an easy child, a tough kid, and this is where it has led him— to sit still and silent in the face of death."

Spider's POV of that scene from AFAA

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i trace the cord back to the wall (no wonder, it was never plugged in at all)

“It’s okay, kiddo, you’re gonna be just fine,” Jake said. 

Spider’s lolling head finally balanced out, half-lidded eyes focusing on him, “Don’t be scared, I’ve done this before.” 

Whumptober 2025 - Day 4 - “Don't be scared, I've done this before.” - Suicide

"I never thought I'd die alone I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?"

In this story, Spider comes back from the RDA and his trauma isn't acknowledged. I think none of the Sully family would know what to do with him, they only know the version from before being captured and they would never expect this from that person.

"I'm too depressed to go on You'll be sorry when I'm gone"

Spider isn't trying to gotcha anyone, he's not vindictive, he really is just trying to escape the pain he's in. No one knows to help him, or how. He's just tired and doesn't want to be a burden. He doesn't have expectations of the people around him but a part of him hopes people will have some care for him once he's gone.

"Tomorrow holds such better days Days when I can still feel alive When I can't wait to get outside The world is wide, the time goes by The tour is over, I'll survive And I can't wait 'til I get home"

This is the sad part. Spider never got the chance to get better, and to have hope again. The bad things that happened to him aren't something he'll survive, but by his own choice. He had no reason to think that someone would step in for him, notice his pain, and support him the way he needed. He cut his thread and assumed it wouldn't have a big impact: "Another six months, I'll be unknown."

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sitting on the outside (observing the fun)

For him, there are no family meals, no soft hands and gentle hugs, no sitting down for dinner to talk about their day.

Whumptober 2025 - Day 3 - “"I look in people’s windows, transfixed by rose golden glows."” - Isolation - Candlelight

This song really encapsulates Spider with lyrics like: "Feeling like a loser, feeling like a bum Sitting on the outside, observing the fun" I imagine him looking at the Sully kids and their dynamics and just feeling so other. They are siblings who live together and know each other better than anyone will ever know him.

"These people are weird in here And they're giving me the fear"

This could speak to him with the Navi and among the humans. He wants to connect to the Navi but his only connection comes from the Sully kids which only goes so far. The further he changes as he becomes closer to the Sully kids and their culture, the more disconnected he is from the human side who judge him and alienate him further.

I look myself in the face and whisper, "I'm in the wrong place" Is there more to lose than gain if I go on my own again?

How many times do you think Spider has looked at his reflection: at Hell's Gate in a mirror, in the forest if he were to look at himself in the mirror created by a body of water, at BridgeHead in the two-way window and thought "I don't belong here." ?!

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Whumptober Day 2: don't they know i'm the one who is cursed

I chose this song for the prompt "Prophecy".

It is quite literal, titled "The Prophecy" but I felt it fit Spider's story because of lyrics like "My prediction will surely be true // The impending disaster it looms // And the whole of the village is doomed". These remind me of Neytiri's opinion of Spider. She thinks because he shares blood with Quaritch that he is capable of the same betrayal and violence. He is the one that suffers from the way she treats him due to this fear but it is "the village" that would suffer if her worst fears were realized.

"Now that they see the disaster is done // Now they put all the blame unto me" It's easy to direct otherwise valid feelings onto spider because he's the one present-- Quaritch is dead and he can't be punished.

"Don't they know that the torment // It stays with me knowing that I walk alone". Spider's existence is quite sad. Some of the Sully kids may feel like outsiders due to their more human features but they still have each other. In the end, Spider faces everything alone.

[milkandthistle]

I will never be convinced the Metkayina didn’t get jumpscared by the Sullys bright ass yellow eyes.

You just cannot. They got that look through your soul kinda stare. Just imagine Neteyam zoning the fuck out and he just has the most fuck ass ‘I will kill you’ face

Like look at these goofy ahh mfs. Look at em. The definitely almost sent an elder or two to Eywa

[milkandthistle]

Now officially adopting Spider being an unintentionally creepy little menace to everything around him. Bro got the dead stare

Pov, Spider zoned the fuck out accidentally staring at some poor Na’vi who thinks he’s going to hunt them

[keptanonymous]

My babies are so frickin weird 🥰

They share a brain cell but not in like a dumb way, in like a "we will all collectively kill you, we are everywhere there is no escape 😇"

No wonder we had to get rid of at least one, all 5 would've been too much

[puppy-blu]

they called me crazy for saying that spider had a bond with eywa and that it was gonna play out in the next movies. They thought it was delusion when actually it was my psychic link with James Cameron.

[walkeryouignorantslut]

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