look at me look at i

Make sure you hit him with the prenup

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i genuinely am so condescending and rude and take too much to heart i need to stop validating my worst impulses

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didnt realize id come second to a man until all of my closest female friends got a man, which made me want one of my own—someone to love me first but im not good enough at making myself palatable for a man so what’s really the point

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i want to sleep with a woman so bad like i just want a gf so bad but not for cutesy reasons i want to have sex with a girl RIGHT NOW

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is it bad that i feel worse after spending time with friends?

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im so lonely.....

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it never used to bother me that i was single but now i feel it really accutely and i feel like idk unattractive a lot and i really hate that i feel that way

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why am i LIKE THIS

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it is my period i am relieved and like just sodjiwjjd so happy

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why am i LIKE THIS

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im so frustrated with myself

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be BETTER idiot

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im so frustrated with myself

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how come i feel little to nothing about my closest friend group falling apart

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this is so gross but im sick and my head is pounding but it feels like everytime i blow my nose it gets worse so i keep imagining that im like blowing out my brains through my nose

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i think im doing better.

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im happy. im in a better place. i feel like even tho im still making mistakes and stuff im trying and it feels really good to try. :)

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like legitimately im in a better place than i have been in literally 2 years.

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im happy. im in a better place. i feel like even tho im still making mistakes and stuff im trying and it feels really good to try. :)

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DO NOT REBLOG

so i listened to atlas hands and cried and shook like a fucking baby but i feel so much better just drained now

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DO NOT REBLOG

i watched the new contrapoints video about inc*ls and it is really fucking good but it made me really upset in that this whole way of thinking—the depression black hole—is so difficult to get rid of. it’s so toxic and even while watching a VIDEO ABOUT OTHER PPL FEELING THIS WAY, it made my stomach turn in an uncomfortably familiar depressive way. i havent been in that dark place in a while and it makes me sick thinking about it.

like when i realized that suicide forums were a thing and how close i got to stumbling upon them and how i couldve been goaded into doing it—how i couldve just decended deeper. god it makes me wanna vomit. im really upset now and i dont know how to stop being it. god. it’s my own fault for watching it