friends usually drift apart and that’s a reality i’ve come to accept, because people come and go, especially as you get older, your big circle of friends tends to get smaller and smaller and there’s nothing wrong with that, but no one ever told me…..how beautiful it can be to reconnect and rebuild the friendships you thought you’d already lost;
two weeks ago, i received a message from my highschool best friend whom i have never spoken to since 2019, imagine, ganon na katagal, we just happen to be mutual in social media yet all those years we don’t even greet each other’s birthdays, we used to, but around that year we just kind of drifted off
alam ko, it was me who drifted off and just stopped replying, until she got tired to message me, and inviting me because i never went whenever there’s a sched of get together (we’re 4 girls in the group), kumbaga, the messages and all the aya kind of slowed down until it stopped altogether kasi nga i just never went and i know i have a reason why before but actually i can’t fully remember it now, but it’s not anything bad, i think i just felt like i don’t resonate with them anymore, ganon ba
okay so going back, she messaged me so randomly, asking my work schedule, and i replied naman, and then she asked me if we can go out, i asked sino kasama and she said it’s just us two, i agreed naman and said yes, but internally i feel….socially awkward because i haven’t seen this girl for like what, 7 years? she picked me up and she was with her fiance kasi it was a late night meet up and para raw mameet ko rin
i was still so awkward, maybe because i felt guilty too, but when i got into the car she started asking questions, catching up ba, and i would casually ask questions too and to her fiance too
and when we got to the kbbq place, we’re still so awkward but she opened up, “alam mo nasa akin parin yung caricature na gift mo sakin,” that was my gift to her during her debut, she was a mermaid there and was riding a dolphin, and then i can see her starting to tear up
i was surprised, and somehow feeling more guilty rin because i felt how much she missed me all those years, i hugged her and then her fiance added na kinwkwento nya raw ako recently and naiiyak nga raw sya kasi she doesn’t know how to reach out to me
and then she invited me to her wedding this august, oo, it was a surprise to me that she still wanted me to be there even though we haven’t seen or talked to each other all those years
nakakawarm ng puso, parang i felt so freaking loved and considered, in which i think i don’t initially deserve, but she really showed me that i deserved it
oo, syempre kasama na rin na i was really feeling guilty, but she didn’t even point out that it was me who drifted away before; she just wanted to reconnect and have me in her corner for her wedding
anyway, we…just catched up the whole time, she showed me a picture of her wedding gown, her venue, what her hairstyle would be like, and i ended up opening up rin from last year’s crazy shit— i was never the kind to open up easily, but i think there’s still comfort between us, parang after all those years it felt like nothing has changed, her ate even gave me a lipstick kasi super kilala talaga ako sa kanila, and gusto pa raw nga sana sumama to see me kaso may work so di sya pwede,
and we talked about some of our old memories we had before, sharing it to the fiance, and it’s like no time have passed because we just opened up nalang rin talaga and tried to catch up as much with the time we have
honestly, ewan ko, i just feel this freaking warmth in my heart knowing she still valued me as a friend even after all those years of no contact, but above all else i am just so happy for her to have found someone who loves her for real, she wasn’t really lucky when it comes to love before, yun rin problem ko sa kanya before because she always settles for less but now, for that short moment of seeing her again and with her fiance (very soon to be husband), i can truly see how much he cares for her and i just can’t wait to see her walk down the aisle and see her marry the love of her life
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