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My life can be described in one sentence: It didn't go as planned, and thats okay.

[cheyenneroshlynn]

[crushedhope]

[ibelongwith-you]

[cheyenneroshlynn]

I always think to myself how perfect and real our relationship is. How much i truly do love you, how crazy i am about you, and how safe you make me feel. But in reality. How perfect is our relationship? Its not perfect not at all. Its really not even healthy. Not for me or for you. Defintely not for b or for baby h. Why? Because, look at us. You cant go a couple days without drinking. Or even a week without getting messed up with your buddies. So their leaves me with my son. B asking where is "dada" with his hands up like usual. Running around looking for his "dada." With me sitting there with tears in my eyes. Thinking i shouldn't of let him get so attached... How do i tell a 2 year old that his "dada" is to drunk or high to spend time with him tonight. Watching b. realizing how confused hes going to be, if i don't keep trying, if i don't keep wanting this 110%. Picturing brody in my head. Confused on why "dada" is no longer around. Just like before. Breaks my heart. But what do i do. How do i keep trying when, nothing is working. How do i keep loving, when im only loved back when its convient for you in return. I'm mentally and emotionally drained. Trying to get you to realize you don't get both of best worlds. You don't get to party when you want and be a daddy. I don't know what else to do. I don't know how much more i can handle. I don't know what to do with my baby girl on the way. Do i let you be a dad and prove to me that you can 110% truly be a father to her. Or do i let the pain stop now, with trying to get you to do it before she arrives. I can deal with the struggle of being a single mom, with raising two kids that their "dada" couldn't get their heads out of their asses to be a actual father to them.  I can do the mom and dad role. I've had plenty of practice with it for the past 2 years. But how am i suppose to walk away from someone im so madly and crazy in love with? How do i tell you to fuck off and walk away and not turn around? How can i make myself truly believe that it would be best for B, baby H, and I? Truth is i dont know. I dont have a damn clue. I love you so much. But i hate you for the pain you keep causing me. For the anxiety you keep giving me. I hate you because im crazy in love with you and it still doesnt seem like its enough. Because of your drinking:: I hate that i feel like im not enough. I hate that you only play/act like a father when you want too. I hate that im not making you happy. That im pregnant.. Im sorry i got pregnant, because the further i go. The more i realize that maybe you're not ready to be a full time dad. But then again. I'm so excited for my baby girl to be here. And im sorry i cant change it. I'm sorry i can't get you to realize that you're either all in this. Or your not. Because the person you are when youre with youre friends. Is not the person you truly are. I know that because i've seen you genuinely care for b and myself. I've seen the love in your eyes for us both and the way your face lights up when you feel baby H kicks. I've seen it all. I just want you to be that person. Not the person you were the night you went to jail. Not the person who left his gf and son waiting in a car for an hour while he was inside his buddies house. Not the person that said he didn't want to do something with me. Just because he wanted his buddie instead. Just tell me what you want.. You either want us. Without this other bullshit i keep putting up with. Or you want your bachalor life. With your buddies. You don't get both.

[weallheartonedirection]

Ohh.. Yes

[funnypictures247]

[4gifs]

[themanicpixiedreamgrrrl]

Literally me when I hurt people

[arquilian-babe]

oh god oh god oh god im so sorry is it here did i hurt you here oh god im so sorry friend

[captain-snark]

OMG AT THE END WHEN HE JUST SCOOPS THE CAT’S HEAD TO HIS CHEST. FUCK.

[thecutestofthecute]

I will reblog this until the day I die

[themoonphase]

my heART

[allh4iltrey]

[zaynsana]

[baeonsixthstreet]

I kinda like wasting my time here~~

[taylormariemonahan]

“Mom, Listen, I haven’t been together with Topanga for twenty-two years, but we have been together for sixteen. Okay, that’s a lot longer than most couples have been together. I mean, when we were born, you told me that we used to take walks in our strollers together in the park. When we were two, we were best friends. I mean, I knew everything about this girl. I knew her favorite color. I knew her favorite food. Then we became six, you know, and Eric made fun of me because it wasn’t cool to have a best friend that was a girl or even know a girl, so for the next seven years I threw dirt at her. I like to call those “the lost years”. Then when I was thirteen, Mom, she put me up against my locker and she kissed me. I mean, she gave me my first kiss. She taught me how to dance. She was always talking about these crazy things and I never understood a word she said. All I understood was that she was the girl I sat up every night thinking about, and when I’m with her I feel happy to be alive. Like I can do anything. Even talk to you like this. So that’s, that’s what I feel is love, Mom, when I’m better because she’s here”

[cheyenneroshlynn]

Who knew. My best friend would be a navy man. Who knew. That he'd mean more to me than I ever thought he would. Who would've thought that since 08' he would be head over heels for me. Who would've thought that if love this guy more than it probably should. I couldn't be more proud of my best friend. I love him to pieces 💖

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[cheyenneroshlynn]

#truth 👏👏

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