elegance in misery

23 ed diary

[chicdecay]

about.

- maeva. 23. mdni

- black.

- i don’t post bodychecks.

- mainly a diary/log of stats

- not fatphobic and i will never post fatspo, but i do interact with and post toxic thought processes and motivation

stats under the cut.

stats.

height: 5’7 ; 170cm

weight: 124lbs ; 56.3kg

bmi: 19.5

gw: 108lbs

[circusheart]

If you feel like you look weird or ugly it's really vitally important that you look at yourself really really closely in the mirror and mess with your skin until it gets discolored or damaged and yeah

[chicdecay]

why am i being forced to go to church and my sister isn’t. i don’t want to be there. she doesn’t want to be there. but somehow i’m the one who’s in the car headed that way while she stays home. organized religion is an evil soul and mind crushing parasite and i hate it i hate it i

[dead-disc0]

What I'm starting to realize is that eating is just trading 5 seconds of pleasure for a lifetime of misery.

[chicdecay]

being miserable is comforting. being miserable is safe. i am so so lovely when suffering.

[serenestateofsonder]

[vamps1n]

[monicalovesyou]

Models reading books backstage

[inarticulates]

[pup-purgatory]

[chicdecay]

I think about cravings the way people who meditate think about passing thoughts; they come up, i acknowledge the cravings exist, and then i let it go. i dont deny their existence, i just don’t act on them

[chicdecay]

craving a sassy scotty from chicken salad chicks

[chicdecay]

fasting til i get off work in hopes everyone eats all the barbecue before I get home

fourth of july always brings unhealthy food with it unfortunately

[chicdecay]

an empty stomach makes me feel ethereal

[lupineshieldmaiden]

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[444prilsbae]

alexa being the coolest person on earth & everyone agreeing sits very much right w my soul

[infermiiterol]

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