I dont understand. It feels like I am the only one struggling while he gets to live happy and not care about things at all. It feels like I am the only one who ever cared and put effort into the rls. Why can't he feel the amount of sadness and despair I feel? Did he really not care? Am I so easy to replace and get rid of?? Does he genuinely want me gone?? I know I am the one that ended things, I never wanted to do it. He seemed like he wanted it all along. He probably fell in love with someone else and wanted to be with them instead of me. Im so fucking ugly im a fufking disappointment. How did i ever think a man so beautiful like him would be with a worthless pathetic loser like me. I really miss him. I would do anything to call him my boy again. Maybe if I was pretty enough, maybe if I was better, maybe if I wasn't so clingy.maybe then he'd love me too. I love you







