til the end of forever ☆
pairing: hwang hyunjin x afab reader
warnings: nsfw, soft and fluffy sex, no plot whatsoever, just very soft hyunjin, both are extremely whipped lol, bulge kink, cockwarming, crying during sex (but in a good way), creampie, insecurities
wc: 3.1 k
a/n: okay so this is basically my love letter for hj for his bday bc 🥺, also the past toxic relationship i mentioned is made-up but i’m basically referring to his bullying scandal and how i imagine him being heartbroken at the time :(
this is my first smut so please leave feedback- hearts or comments! they mean a lot to me :3
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A fuzzy blanket draped across both your legs while you watched a cheesy rom-com with Hyunjin’s arms bound tightly around your waist.
“Just go for it already, she clearly likes you back…” Hyunjin whined at the main lead, fully immersed in the drama, though not without pressing a kiss to the top of your head as a silent thanks for being there with him.
You hummed, an attempt to acknowledge your boyfriend. But try as you might, you couldn’t focus on anything other than his every little action against you.
Like how he would absentmindedly tighten his fingers around your middle whenever the drama intensified, or how his thighs would occasionally brush against yours when he gets excited, or just how his hearty laugh would bubble from his throat every now and then.
Hell, you didn’t even pay attention to the plot in the first place and the steamy make out session the main leads are now in, aren’t exactly helping. God you had to mentally facepalm yourself at how horny you are right now, but who can blame you? Now that you thought about it you realized you haven’t spent a proper time with Hyunjin for at least a month now.
Today was a hard earned rest day for Hyunjin so it was supposed to be just an innocent, sitting-on-the-couch-doing-nothing date, which you totally appreciate and love, but it’s so hard to sit still when your core is literally throbbing.
Today was a hard earned rest day for Hyunjin so it was supposed to be just an innocent, sitting-on-the-couch-doing-nothing date, which you totally appreciate and love, but it’s so hard to sit still when your core is literally throbbing.
“Baby, you okay? Your cheeks are all red,” a concerned Hyunjin suddenly asked, snapping you out of your daze.
Fuck.
“What? Y-yeah I’m okay,” you squeaked, feeling the heat of your cheeks with the back of your hand.
“You’re a bad liar, princess…” Hyunjin smiled mischievously as he made intense eye contact with you, knowing full well how much that pet name affects you. You, on the other hand, whimpered under his penetrating gaze, squirming at his pet name.
“Fine, I’m horny,” you admitted shyly. “I’ve been horny ever since you came home.”
Hyunjin smirked “Well, why didn’t you do something about it, hm?” he teased, but he knows better at how much more he had been thinking about you.
You shrugged. “But today is your well deserved off day! I figured you wouldn’t want to do any cardio today…” you trailed off.
Hyuniin smiled and kissed your temple sweetly.
“Aww, but fingering you isn’t cardio… is it?” your boyfriend whispered, fingers bunching up his hoodie you’re wearing.
Your breath hitched but grabbed his wrist from reaching further. Instead, you turned around and straddled a confused Hyunjin.
“Want you inside me,” you mumbled, face burning, hiding your face into Hyunjin’s chest.
He smiled and gently lifted your chin to look at him. “Are you sure?” he asked tenderly.
His heart swelled at the fact that you trust him so much to let him inside you, even if it wasn’t the first time you had sex with him. But he also knew that you still felt the sting during penetrative sex, and he never wanted you to feel uncomfortable.
You nodded fiercely. Oh how you wanted him so much, how you wanted Hyunjin so bad.
“Want you please, Jinnie….” you pleaded, already rocking on his thigh because the fire in your core is getting unbearably hot.
Hyunjin wasted no time in melding his tongue with yours, the movie in the background still playing. His hand finds your hips under the hoodie, gripping to them tightly.
His other hand came up to run across your nipples, pulling a squeak from you, rolling and pinching them between his nimble fingers, until they harden under attention.
Little did you know, Hyunjin was so desperate for you too, wanting to fuck you the minute he came home, but figured he might appear too horny and scare you off.
So he just planned for a lazy date. If only he knew how you felt…
Now Hyunjin kissed across your jaw, moving down to pepper kisses all over your neck.
“Missed.” A kiss. “You.” Another kiss. “So much…” He licked and sucked a hickey on the side of your neck, thumb rubbing circles on your damp panties.
You whined and signaled your boyfriend to go faster, having Hyunjin laugh and take off your panties.
“Gonna stretch you out, okay?” he pecked your lips sweetly, before slipping two fingers into you, the pad of his fingers curling at the sweet spot that makes your legs turn to jelly. You moaned at the feeling and fisted at Hyunjin’s shirt.
“You like that baby?” Hyunjin teased, thumb pressing your bundle of nerves.
You nodded with pleading eyes. “M…More,” you whined, barely audible.
Hyunjin scissored his fingers and added one more, thrusting a few times before you came around him, coating his fingers thickly, his name rolling off sweetly on your tongue.
He continued to rub your bud the way you like it, until you whimpered, thighs quivering from overstimulation.
“Poor baby is so sensitive, hm?” he cooed at your bliss covered face. You nodded shyly.
“Clean,” he said simply, holding his juice covered fingers in front of your mouth.
And clean you did, deep throating his fingers to the knuckle while making eye contact. It must’ve taken him off guard because Hyunjin’s eyes darkened with lust.
“Fuck, you’re so hot princess,” he muttered, coming up to attach your lips.
You broke the kiss and reached down to tug at his shirt, to which he teared off in 3 seconds. You connected your lips again, wriggling his sweatpants down and tracing the outline of his bulge on his boxers.
Then you palmed him with more pressure, making Hyunjin moan and throw his head back. In no time, you discarded his boxers as well and his dick sprung free from the contrains.
His cock stand proud and flushing at the tip. You instinctively licked your lips at his girth, your boyfriend looking at you hotly.
You traced your finger over his abs slowly, enjoying how Hyunjin fluttered his eyes and gulped when you got close to his cock.
Wrapping your hands around his dick, you noticed how you can’t even hold all of him with your fingers stretched out.
You gave him a few pumps to spread his pre-cum, thumb swiping across his slit when you came up, the way he likes it. Hyunjin groaned at the feeling, grabbing your thighs tightly.
You slowly lowered yourself on his dick, Hyunjin’s hand wrapped around your waist for support.
You had only got the tip in before your desperation got the best of you and you sat the whole way down in one quick move.
Hyunjin’s eyes widened comically and quickly but gently pulled you off of him.
You were luckily he pulled you out fast because that felt like you shoved an entire sword up your cunt.
The burn in your walls made you squeak in pain and your eyes water, so you closed them and just focused on a slightly panicked Hyunjin stroking your hair and asking if you’re okay.
“Baby, you’re gonna hurt yourself if you do that…” Hyunjin mumbled, worried, caressing your inner thigh. “It’s only the second time and I haven’t stretched you in a long time…” He kissed your forehead.
You opened your eyes to meet his, that are full of hurt, hurt that he made you feel painful.
“I’m fine, it’s not like I have a label of ‘Caution: Fragile, Handle with Care’, ” you joked and air quoted, lightening the mood.
Hyunjin huffed, but you can see him visibly relax.
“Not funny. I thought I seriously hurt you or something.”
“Oh but baby, you can never hurt me,” you said sincerely, kissing his nose. Your heart swelled at his concern for you.
“I just crave you so much, Jinnie,” you pouted.
“And I’m right here, baby. I’m not going anywhere, so you can take your time, hm?” your boyfriend reassures you, eyes full of warmth and love for you, causing butterflies in your stomach.
“Wanna try again?” he asked softly.
You nodded and quickly got into position, hovering your hips above him. This time, Hyunjin’s grip around your waist is stronger.
You looped your arms around his shoulders and slowly lowered your hips, hissing at the way he stretched your cunt.
Bit by bit, with his encouragement, he finally bottomed out, fingers digging into your ass at the warmth of your core, his bulge evident on your stomach.
Biting his lip, he grabbed your hand and traced the bulge of his dick on your soft skin.
“Fuck, you’re driving me crazy baby,” he whispered lowly, breath uneven because it’s been a long time since he’s felt this, since he’s felt you. You shivered at the thought of him being so deep inside you.
“Can we stay like this for a while Jinnie?” you pleaded. It’s the first time in forever since you’ve felt so full of your boyfriend, filled to the brim with Hyunjin.
He pecked your lips and nodded, hands running up and down your thigh. He must’ve thought your thighs felt cold, because he wordlessly grabbed a blanket and wrapped it gently over your exposed thighs.
It’s these little things that make you fall in love with him even more. This, and how he is looking at you with so much adoration in his hazel eyes, makes your eyes teary.
The thing is that Hyunjin falls deeply and blindly in love. He has a pure heart that he wears on his sleeve. He shows his emotions genuinely when he’s happy, sad, angry, jealous.
He let his heart lead him instead of his head most of the time, and it is honestly a wonderful character in Hyunjin that makes you wonder if this sweet boy was fiction, written by imagination.
But it is also this trait of him that makes your throat tighten when you thought of what he went though, or more specifically, what he went through in his past toxic relationship.
Because Hyunjin is a such a sweet and simple soul, he can be so vulnerable in front of love. Piece by piece, he gave himself to his lover, only for her to fumble it and drop it.
You knew because you were there, at the bar, wishing that if you hugged him tight enough, you can fit all of his pieces together again.
And it took him a hard time, months of weeping and grieving, before his heart is barely mended by you and his friends, before he turned to you, shyly asking if he could buy you a drink.
It is easy to shatter Hyunjin in a million pieces and you can’t bear to see it ever happening again. And you swear you wouldn’t let it happen again.
He once admitted that he didn’t see his girlfriend was mistreating him until you talked him out of it, and it makes your heart sink when you think of him being treated everything less than he deserves.
He deserves the world, and everything good.
And you. You hope you deserve him.
You’re reminded once again how terribly out of league Hyunjin is, and it makes you feel failing as his girlfriend, yet you never want to let him go.
Your arms tightened around Hyunjin’s neck, face buried in his chest as you sobbed, pulling him impossibly closer to you.
Hyunjin eyes goes wide. “Is it too much, baby?” he asked, concerned.
You leaned back and shook your head. Hyunjin thumbed away a tear running down your cheek as you spoke,
“It’s just… I just love you so much it fucking hurts, and I’m so sorry you had to deal with being mistreated, or just any hate people would throw at you.”
“And sometimes I’d feel… helpless, like I’m not enough when I can’t defend you, when your name is chewed up and spat online, it just makes me want to cry because I can’t do anything…” you rambled. The tears are slipping nonstop down your face now, and your gaze dropped to his stomach.
Hyunjin sighed softly.
“Baby look at me.” he says, his eyes glassy when you did.
“I’m sorry if you ever felt like you needed to do anything. All I ever wanted from you, is to take care of yourself when I’m not there. And, to be right here… for me to love,” he spoke gently.
And when you looked into his eyes, you can see stars in them, shining brightly, only for you.
“Because whenever I feel like I’m alone against the world, painted in blue and grey, and I feel like shit,” he paused, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear.
“As long as you’re here, I’ll be okay,” he continued, voice cracking at his love for you.
“Because your love paints me all the colours in a rainbow, or, you know, you are the rainbow,” You both share a small laugh at his metaphor. “Anyway- you get it.”
“And that’s the only thing that matters to me,” he finally whispered and kissed the back of your hand that was on his shoulder. “So please don’t ever say that you’re not enough for me… Because you are my whole world.”
Heart hammering, you can’t even speak. Not when Hyunjin says he loves you in the most poetic and romantic way possible. He’s still looking at you so very fondly when you crashed your lips together, moaning, fingers digging into more, more Hyunjin.
He does the same, hands running everywhere, twitching inside you. You’re surrounded by Hyunjin, and only Hyunjin, and you wanted nothing more.
Soon you pulled away reluctantly, gasping for breath, a string of saliva still connecting the both of you.
He looked like a mess, tears and saliva glistening on his face, lips red and swollen, hair sticking up. But you smiled to yourself because if anything, he was your mess.
Both teary eyed and flustered but smiling ear to ear, you leaned up to peck his lips again.
“I can’t believe you just said all that to me. That makes my ‘I love you’ sound so lame and boring,” you laughed.
“Yeah, it kind of does,” Hyunjin teased, to which you scrunched your nose. “But I’ll never get bored of you saying it to me.”
You smiled back.
“Anyway, wanna do something about this?” you gestured at the bulge on your stomach.
Hyunjin looked down and dropped his mouth open in realization. “I can’t believe we forgot to fuck,” he giggled.
“Yeah but… this is really nice too. You know, cockwarming,” you blushed.
Hyunjin smirked. “Yep, but I think I’ll literally burst if I don’t fuck you, like right now,” he said, a bit strained, cock twitching restlessly inside you.
“Then, I’m all yours,” you replied cheekily.
And Hyunjin wasted no time in pushing your back against the couch, hovering above you, before his lips came crashing to yours. With one hand supporting his weight, his other grabbed your leg and wrapped it around his hips.
His thrusts were slow and deep, not hurried to reach his high, but more on making you feel every drag of his cock against your walls.
Your heart fluttered when you realized that he was making love to you, unlike the needy, rushed sex you have always done with your ex. Hyunjin’s velvety moans urged you to let go of yourself, letting him control, letting him take care of you.
At one particularly hard thrust, he hit a spot inside you that made your back arch and see stars.
“Right there?” Hyunjin asks.
“F-Fuck yes, please,” you mewled at the new sensation.
He angled your leg so he could hit that spot again, having you forget everything except him.
“Such a good girl, taking me so well princess,” he mumbled next to your ear, scattering kisses all over your neck.
“J-Jinnie, fuck, so close…!” you whimpered, overwhelmed by being surrounded by Hyunjin, by Hyunjin’s love.
Hearing that, he brought his hand down and rubbed gentle circles on your clit.
“Let go, baby, come for me,” he whispered sweetly. And you did, waves upon waves of ecstasy washing over you as he stilled inside. Your back is arched as you clenched uncontrollably on him.
His strokes are sloppy when he thrusts into you again. Dazed, you stroke his hair tenderly.
“I’ll always love you, Hwang Hyunjin. Till the end of forever,” you smiled at him, a dumb lovestruck expression on your face. That’s all it takes for him to bury his face into your chest as he moans, loud, as he comes in stutters inside you.
He pulls out a bit, the drag of come spilling, hopefully not on the couch, before he fucks back into you.
“Fuck I love you so much baby, you don’t even know,” he pants.
You stayed like this for a while, catching your breaths and basking in each other’s musky scent. Then his weight began to crush you a little too much so he had to pull out and settle for a more comfortable position for the both of you.
He quickly grabbed a towel and wiped off the sweat and come off of you. You winced as he accidentally brushes over your swollen and sensitive clit.
He smiled at you and mouthed ‘sorry’, but you were too drunk in his love to care, your limbs heavy but feeling warm and fuzzy inside with Hyunjin taking care of you.
He put on his boxers and shirt, then grabbed a new pair of panties and put them on you.
Finally, he sat on the couch, the end credits of the movie rolling, as he arranged you to sit on his lap, hands securely wrapped around your waist when you snuggled into his chest.
Comfortable silence filled the room while Hyunjin mindlessly twirled your hair around. You can literally feel his satisfaction radiating off of him.
Hyunjin suddenly grinned. “No, but like what I said to you just now is probably the most smooth I’ve ever been,” he commented. “You know, I should probably jot it down and use it again later.”
“I hope you mean you’re using it to me again, or write it in a song, later,” you replied, drowsy.
“Nope, gonna say that to ‘Lix, as a pick up line,” Hyunjin said cheekily.
You huffed and playfully pinched his nipple over his shirt, causing him to yelp and laugh, eyes crinkling to those beautiful crescent moons.
“No but seriously, you know I love you right?”
You peered up at him from his chest and smiled at his sincerity, kissing his soft lips.
“Of course I do. Because I love you too. And I’ll prove it to you, Jinnie. Every day.”
Drifting off to sleep, you thought you felt him press a kiss to your head and mumble,
“Me too, baby, til the end of forever.”
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