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at some point you wonder if it’ll be like this forever. if im still the person i was on the day i realized what i am and im still a teenager and still anxious and embarrassed and upset by it all. and if theres any amount of medicine that will maybe just barely make me new, make me happy, able to go back in public without freaking out at any person who passes by, able to relax on vacations. i dont really wanna stay inside my whole life but everything else feels like suicide and I don’t even have a word to describe it so my parents won’t ever think im anything more than some spoiled kid

chimeratail

was driven to a food stand today and there was this huge line of regular families and i just sat in the cart as my family just walked up like it was nothing and ordered. even sitting there as other people walked by was so paralyzing. nobody made any weird comments and i was staring dead ahead so im not sure anyone even looked. i mean fuck maybe i passed perfectly. but it was so god damn scary and im what like four years on estrogen now?? and i look fine i mean im a little chubby but its whatever. but the idea of walking up to that line with all those regular people just scared the life out of me and i dont think I could’ve moved if i tried. i need to change something I cant do this routine forever at least not in front of my own regular family

chimeratail

went to the beach with cool tits out bikini and got high as fuck it’s all okay

chimeratail

at some point you wonder if it’ll be like this forever. if im still the person i was on the day i realized what i am and im still a teenager and still anxious and embarrassed and upset by it all. and if theres any amount of medicine that will maybe just barely make me new, make me happy, able to go back in public without freaking out at any person who passes by, able to relax on vacations. i dont really wanna stay inside my whole life but everything else feels like suicide and I don’t even have a word to describe it so my parents won’t ever think im anything more than some spoiled kid

chimeratail

was driven to a food stand today and there was this huge line of regular families and i just sat in the cart as my family just walked up like it was nothing and ordered. even sitting there as other people walked by was so paralyzing. nobody made any weird comments and i was staring dead ahead so im not sure anyone even looked. i mean fuck maybe i passed perfectly. but it was so god damn scary and im what like four years on estrogen now?? and i look fine i mean im a little chubby but its whatever. but the idea of walking up to that line with all those regular people just scared the life out of me and i dont think I could’ve moved if i tried. i need to change something I cant do this routine forever at least not in front of my own regular family

at some point you wonder if it’ll be like this forever. if im still the person i was on the day i realized what i am and im still a teenager and still anxious and embarrassed and upset by it all. and if theres any amount of medicine that will maybe just barely make me new, make me happy, able to go back in public without freaking out at any person who passes by, able to relax on vacations. i dont really wanna stay inside my whole life but everything else feels like suicide and I don’t even have a word to describe it so my parents won’t ever think im anything more than some spoiled kid

rattlegeist

Small town bird with nowhere to go

infezmite

THING!!

stateownedslut

My stupid poser kidnapper wants to show me my missing person's poster but I don't think they do those any more and I kept saying this but they wouldn't listen until they wordlessly handed me a printout of a bbc article talking about it. They want to compose a ransom note with newspaper type but don't know how to buy newspapers as someone under 60 without looking suspicious. The other day I saw in the fridge a carton of oat milk with a home-printed photo of me obviously taken by them awkwardly glued to the side. I don't even get a basement. This is a one-bedroom flat.