I am employed! Work will officially start on the last week of August. I am nervous AF but also excited.
My current writing project is translating a play. Theme of the play is science so it’s difficult to translate some terms. It’s kind of fun tho hehe
I’m drinking coffee again. I hope that’s okay for my health. So far, so good.
Ate will resign this year! Finally! Ate deserves a much better pay and working environment. She is one of the best persons I know when it comes to work.
I am in love with Hangyul and Seungyoun. X1 debwi FIGHTING! I hope they’re getting enough rests tho :(
After reading a poem—a beautifully written one, sobrang ganda talaga—from my ka-major in BACA, I start to think that writing may really not be for me. I acknowledge I’m not good in writing. I know the basics, yes. I can write a paragraph; a poem? Let’s see about that. But if we’ll compare mine to other’s works, you’ll probably see yourself favoring the other one.
I don’t like comparing myself to other people. It creates unnecessary stress. I just have to focus on my progress, right? I just have to do what I need to do, be a useful addition to my team. But what if my writing isn’t what they want? Maybe I shouldn’t regret the 1*k pay so much. Maybe that’s enough for my skills. If I prove myself enough, I can ask for a higher salary. I just have to do good.
Tbh, this is the job I want. It’s practically perfect. I get to write, to work from home, to possibly travel. How could it get any better? I have to do great to be permanent here.
And if it doesn’t work out? I can try again in other companies. I’m still young. Still figuring things out, learning from my mistakes and all.
I have prod/s again! YAY! Even better because Marloun will act with me. It's his first time acting!!!! So nice <3
Colored my hair black and at first I'm not sure if I like it. BUT now I'm loving it! Mas bagay mga damit at makeup ko HAHAHAHAHA
People are saying na pumayat ako, which actually worries me because I'm not doing anything at all. I don't exert any effort tho I did notice some changes in my eating habits. Maybe that's it. Or baka kasi hinihigop ako ni Marloun. CHAROT HAHHAHAHAHA
Marloun is such a blessing in a lot of ways I am so grateful for his existence and for his love for me I am so soft and thankful
I was thinking of how to describe 2018 since last month. And I still don’t know how to encapsulate the whole year in a single word. 2018 is life-changing, but the word’s too cliché. After much thought, I think 2018 is like this: After describing myself as the “fire hunter” for years now, the year sparked a flicker in me. This is a start of something.
Here’s a quick rundown of the highlights of my 2018:
Developed an interest in makeup – The reason I started buying makeup and practicing putting some on my face is because I find it a hassle to my “MUAs” during photo shoots, theater plays, etc. when I ask them to do my face. I still don’t know some basics (e.g. EYEBROWS, countour, various eyeshadow styles) but I’m more than willing to learn more this 2019. My fav discoveries for 2018 are Colourette Colourtint and Maybelline Superstay Matte Ink.
Two words: online shopping – Online shopping is SUPER convenient! COD is awesome! <3
Realized my love for cats!!!! – I met some awesome cats, namely Tomtom and Jerry. They’re so freaking cute and sweet. They always sleep on my lap. It’s too sad I can’t adopt Tomtom because of my family. *sighs* I swear, when I start living independently I will adopt cats!
Bleached and colored my hair more than once – I was scared of bleaching my hair before but I really wanted to try a loud color before graduation. I was still scared even as I was in the process itself because my boyfriend was the one doing it, not a professional. Fortunately, my hair turned out fine even after having it bleached twice. As for coloring, I used crepe paper thrice (lasted for 1-2 weeks) then bought a cheap purple dye. The dye didn’t show up on my hair so I opted to buy an Arctic Fox which is super worth it for the price (which says so much for a kuripot like me).
Met the LOML (charot! or not?) – I was in a really bad place in 2017; I made irreversible mistakes, felt intense emotions that did a lot of harm to me. It lasted until the first few months of 2018. During that lonely and dark time, I met Marloun. I wasn’t expecting anything, tbh. I just wanted someone. And now, after almost a year of knowing him, he is someone and more. I honestly do not know what I did to deserve him. He gave me comfort and love I never thought possible (AS IN). I am so grateful for this person.
Wrote a one-act play and my practicum manuscript – These two writing outputs are my best works because I gave my everything (in writing, I usually don’t). I sacrificed a lot for them (mostly my health) and I guess my sacrifices were worth it.
Finally #Sablay2019 – I can confidently say that my last three semesters in LB are my best. Learned lessons the hard way, gained experiences that will last me at least a decade, kept in touch with people who mattered. I am honestly glad I didn’t march for Sablay 2018.
Special mentions:
Tim Horton’s French Vanilla – This is the BEST “expensive” brewed coffee I tasted! I will put my name on it!
iKon – These cuties helped me whenever I felt stressed writing for my last sem. They are cool, funny, and raw. I love them so much. I love Exo but I love iKon more!
OMG Nail Lacquer – This P34.75 polish is good for its price. I bought the Bahama Blue shade and I love the result more than Caronia. Bobbie is good as well, but P10 more expensive.
I suck at writing poetry. Our topic in my creative writing class is now poetry which is probably until the end of the sem and I don’t know, I thought I’m gonna have a fairly high grade for the subject, given the grades for my short stories (higher than I expected!) but I guess I’M WRONG. Pantoum, villanelle, sonnet, shadorma -- please.
The hair dye I bought kind of sucked, which is actually not surprising tbh because it is cheap. I don’t want to think about it anymore but I really want to try a bold color so I’m thinking of getting an Arctic Fox dye, which is a whole lot expensive. Hmmm
BB boiii Tomtom is with me this Undas break. Actually, he just needed someone to feed him his maintenance meds. He’s still in the recovery stage after his sickness.
I’M SO CLOSE TO FINISHING MY MANUSCRIPT. I wanted to include cigarettes in my acknowledgements because they did help me a lot with my manuscript but oops I can’t hahahahaha
I don’t know what I did to deserve Marloun, but I am very happy and grateful.
so my friends are getting their shit done and actually accomplishing something and being wonderful human beings and me i’m just a shit undone and i was crying awhile ago not being able to finish my tasks and i’m so slow and until now i’m fucking useless
I’m in a much better place right now but times like this, I can’t help but ask for more.
I need to graduate this semester. My parents will kill me if I won’t. Actually, nope, they won’t kill me but they’ll be so disappointed in me, which is just as bad as them killing me.
I wish I’m a good writer. Or, at least, a decent one. I’m fucking bad at writing that I feel ~ashamed~ that I’m actually a writing major.
I want to have my own cat/s. I feel like I’m just borrowing my boyfriend’s cats whenever I play with them. They are legit stress relievers!!!
I am just very, very thankful for having Marloun in my life. He is literally a dream come true.
