Lost In The Mind

Hello there

[chloe458bd]

Don't let people convince you that you can't do something. Once that happens, you will let another person tell you the same thing. Then those two people will become ten, and ten people will become twenty, and pretty soon you will let the whole world tell you no. Don't let that happen to you. Believe that you can do the impossible, and even if you believe you cannot accomplish the impossible, still walk with confidence in each step you take. In this world, don't let people take away your confidence and dreams, because in this big and scary world you will need those two aspects as ammunition to fight the people that are going to try and bring you down.

[chloe458bd]

The Thing With Religion

There is a girl that I sit next to in class that likes to point out how religious she is. She goes around telling people the amount of hours she spends at church, and her instagram feed is filled daily with photos of her praying or dressed in altar gear. Since this is the season of lent, her level of piety has reached an all time high. She walked into class today with a bag of chips proclaiming that she had never been more hungry in her life. When asked why, she proclaimed that she was fasting in the name of God for the entire week. Then she stood up and proceeded to tell everyone not to text her because she would not be able to take texts due to her "fasting period." She and her friend proceeded to have a conversation in which they were both trying to figure out which one would be spending the longest hours in church this week.

There is a Muslim boy in my class who fasts during Ramadan. He never says when the holiday is, and he never brags about his fasting regimen. Sometimes during lunch he silently goes out to the courtyard to say a five minute prayer, then comes back into the main building and joins his friends for lunch as though nothing happened.

I do not consider myself to be a very religious person. However, I do believe religion an go one of two ways. It can be used as a way for people to build themselves a self righteous throne, or it can be used to provide us a way of peace and hope in the unknown.

[chloe458bd]

The Break in the Status Quo

Some people will lie to you and tell you that it will never happen. But there will come a period in your life when you lose track of who you are. Maybe it will happen when you are 16, or maybe it will come later in the future when you are thirty. Either way it will happen. One day you will look in the mirror or wake up one morning and feel as though something is not right. The person you see has the same face, but the person doesn’t feel like you. The person doesn’t smile like you, talk like you, or laugh like you. And you will try to explain to people how you feel, and you will most likely get strange looks and a roll of the eyes. And many of them will just say that they like you the way you are, and you will get scared to change anything because you are scared of getting people angry or losing friends.

Don’t live a life being a person that other people want you to be. Because one day you’ll wake up again wishing you had the courage to think on your own. Other people may want what is best for you, but ultimately it’s not the lives of those other people to decide what direction you take. Do not let other recreate their lost dreams on you, otherwise you will end up becoming a play doll that you hardly recognize. Yes, thinking on our own can be dangerous and unsafe, but if you never break those boundaries in life, then how will you know what’s over the wall. We are told from an early age to follow the status quo, to not stray outside the lines, to follow the rules because we will be in danger of standing out. There are some people that follow this agenda, and suppress all curiosity for the rest of their lives. But I don’t want to suppress anything. Yes….I’ll admit it. I want to go out the lines, I want to discover what lies beyond those walls that have been built up through do many years. They have expected me so long to follow the status quo, but I cannot do it. When I do, I feel as though I am robotic…as if someone I recognize has taken my place. I am not the girl who wants to stay stationary waiting for someone to hold her hand. I tried that role before and it didn’t work. So from now on I’m saying fuck the status quo and agendas. Because I was never one for coloring in the lines to begin with.

[chloe458bd]

All of You

Don't tell me that crap of how you are yourself only when you're around me. If I'm going to be your friend, show me ALL of you when we are around people and when we are alone. I don't want to see the mask that you put on for the world, I want to see you. Otherwise one of these days when we are alone....you just might forget to stop playing pretend.

[chloe458bd]

Five Dollar Roses

Was I jealous when you held her hand and stroked the hair away from her face? Or when you passed me as of I didn’t exist? Did I feel that jealousy building up in my heart when it seemed as though the only thing in your world was her? I would be lying if I said no. Hell, I was even pissed when you gave her the five dollar roses from the supermarket. That’s the funny thing about jealousy though. No matter how hard I try to hide it, it manages to come crawling back to the surface every time I saw you two together. I used to be scared to admit that because I wanted o believe I was stronger. I didn’t want to believe that something as stupid as hand holding and five dollar roses could set of that feeling in my chest every time you are around with her. But I’m human….and I’m not immune to jealousy. One day my jealousy is going to die…..just like each of the rose petals that you gave her. And one day the hand holding will cease to exist. You will move on to another girl and another girl, searching for something you can’t find. Just know that your five dollar roses are just that….five dollar roses. They won’t lead you to find what you’re looking for.

[fixatedspace-deactivated2014112]

I believe that there is a lack of growth if one deliberately shows hate and bitterness about love. Constantly expressing that it’s an abolishment and you couldn’t care less about it will fool no one but yourself. For me, that just tells me that you’re afraid of it. Love is essential to human...

[chloe458bd]

Dear *insert name here*

I know you fucked up your life, which is probably the only reason why you are telling us how to live mine. But don’t. Stop trying to recreate and re-dream your wasted youth through us. You had your chance and you screwed up. Leave us to decide whether or not we want to make the same choice on our own terms.

Sincerely *insert name here*

[chloe458bd]

Here's A Math Problem Kids

How many fake people does it take for a person to surround themselves with until they becoming infected with the fake gene as well?

[chloe458bd]

"You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining the future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present"

Looking for Alaska

[chloe458bd]

I hated discussion classes. I hated talking, and I hated listening to everyone else stumble on their words and try to phrase things in the vaguest possible way so they wouldn’t sound dumb, and I hated how it was all just a game of trying to figure out what the teacher wanted to hear and then saying it.

Looking for Alaska

[oh-teen-posts]

[chloe458bd]

Their Future

He was convinced that his future had already been planned from the moment he was born. His parents knew what he wanted before he was even old enough to really "say" what he wanted. As time went on though, he eventually just let them do all the talking.

The year before he was scheduled to graduate, Dad came into his room to talk about that planned future. The main word in every sentence was "medical school," something that "they" had all been anticipating for years. When the Dad left the room, the young boy laid in his bed and wondered why his own future included the word "they." It wasn't theirs.....it was his.

A few months before graduation, the boy ran to the kitchen with an envelope in his hand. Jumping for joy, he showed his mother the contents of the acceptance letter, but she merely just shook her head no. That letter did not contain the dream words "medical school" in it. Therefore, it would have to be tossed in the trash, otherwise their future would be ruined. The boy did as he was told. A few weeks later another letter arrived in the mail containing the dream words that Mom and Dad had been looking forward to hearing. As they jumped up and down for joy, they barely noticed that their sons enthusiasm was not at the same level as theirs. "Maybe he's still in shock," they both whispered at night. And they left the matte at that.

Years later these two proud parents waited in a crowded auditorium to see their son walk across the stage and officially become a doctor. The father turned to his wife and said "I couldn't be more proud that he chose to follow in my footsteps. This is everything we have ever wanted!" Finally their sons name was called, and they rushed to the end of the stage so this proud moment could be photographed. And as their son walked down the stairs towards them, both parents beamed with happiness. As the father reached out his hand, he felt the hard paper of the diploma slap against his hand. He looked up at his son and realized he was not smiling. "There's your diploma Dad, hope you like it." And with that, he was gone. They had gotten their idealistic future, but it had also taken their son.

[chloe458bd]

"Come, let us have some tea and continue to talk about happy things." Chaim Potok

[chloe458bd]

The Fantasy Vs. Reality

There are people who spend so long pretending that they end up getting lost in a fantasy......not realizing that reality is continuing around them.

[chloe458bd]

When Does Friendship Die?

When does a friendship die? Is it when both people have changed so much that they have become unrecognizable to each other? Or it when both sides refuse to admit the change that has occurred around them? Or is it when the two of you are standing on two different paths, finally realizing that you will not end up in the same direction...no matter how hard you try to pull the other to the opposite side?

[chloe458bd]

The Ticking Clock

She sat on the couch by the big square window that overlooked the road. The clock kept ticking as she took off her high heels. The clock kept ticking as she laid across the couch in her long black dress waiting. The clock was still ticking when the sun went down along with her heart. The clock kept ticking....but he never showed.

[chloe458bd]

Where Did You Go?

They wanted to know where she had gone.

"While everyone was losing their minds...I was watching from the sidelines," she told them.