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A big hello from Malaysia ✌🏼sorry I don't update on here anymore.. I just don't feel the need to and am far far too busy it seems at the moment!! Currently in George Town in Malaysia atm (the street art photo) and am heading to Langkawi islands tomorrow. Life (mostly) beyond eating disorder is incredible. Being away with friends and escaping the London bubble has opened my eyes to a world I never knew could exist for me again. I still definitely have hard days and days where I feel unconfident in myself and the way I look and learning to battle past all that is one of the trickiest things I've ever had to do. I absolutely adore travelling and I just love exploring new places and being able to just be me around new people and not having my past drag me down or make me feel self conscious. You can follow my travels on instagram!! Chessie_br hehe 😘 Take care xxx

You deserve it all. Go out there and enjoy!

Thanks xox

Cannot even begin to tell you how much has changed for me since this photo was taken last Christmas. I’ve just boarded a flight to Hong Kong to start my 6 month gap year travels. Never thought I’d ever get to a point where I was completely discharged from all services, maintaining a (very) healthy weight and off all medication.

Letting go to being “ill” was the hardest thing I’ve ever done but my god it was so, so worth it. I’ve gained so many friends, relationships, I’ve had flings with boys as I no longer look unwell and emaciated and I’ve managed to get myself to a place where I can go away for 6 months. And to top it all off I have a place at Cambridge waiting for me for next September. Like when did this all happen??!!! So happy rn

Sorry for the cheesiness but I’ve had years of complaining and feeling down and everything is just clicking into place. It’s fab!!!

Love Chessie xx

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How to tell if fruits and veggies are ripe

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I love science…

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This is so important to remember.

Scary to think that this was me at Christmas 😬I stepped on the scales this morning and I am exactly 21kg above this weight now. This is also very scary. I do feel that there is too much of me now, but I am enjoying life so much at the moment and the work I'm doing that it is just so not worth it to go back to that. A gap year is just the best thing ever lol I love having no homework or anything to revise for yet still being so busy! I'm working 8-4 every weekday then tutoring for 1-2 hours every day after school from Monday to Thursday then I'm always in the country on Friday evenings and riding on saturday and then we come home and I tutor 3 hours on Sunday afternoon. I'm exhausted, yes, but I'm doing things which I enjoy doing which is so satisfying ☺️

YOU ARE A RAY OF SUNSHINE! SEND THIS TO 8 PEOPLE WHO DESERVE IT AND MAKE SURE YOU DON'T BREAK THE CHAIN! I HOPE YOU HAVE A LOVELY DAY <3

Thank you Lydia! ☀️💖

Not quite how I envisaged my first full day at castle Leslie!!! I had the most amazing flatwork and then jumping lessons in the morning where I jumped 1m 20!!! But in the afternoon we were galloping on our way to the cross country jumps and my horse was very excited and bucked and I was thrown forward and landed on my back. My neck is fine they just had to put it in a brace so it looks pretty intense but they were just following protocol. My accident happened at 12:40 but I wasn’t discharged from hospital until 8pm!! They did X-rays and luckily I have no fractures but I’m still in a lot of pain and finding it hard to walk and bend down. Going to the loo is surprisingly difficult! I had my X-ray and had to wait 2 ½ hours for my results and I got very very panicky as the machines were beeping in the ward I was on and it reminded me of being in hospitals for overdoses etc. I was also so worried that my back would have fractured due to my osteoporosis in my spine.  When they gave me the all clear i had to slowly get up which took me 20 minutes as I was so stiff! I walked to the loo and came back to my bed so that I could be discharged. I then fainted haha because of the pain and I hadn’t eaten since breakfast as I wasn’t allowed to bc of the X-ray 😂😂😂 Very glad to not be seriously hurt but so so disappointed that I can’t ride whilst I’m here again 😭

Was my birthday yesterday and have had to pull an all-nighter to get to the airport for 5:30am this morning 🙄🙄 I had the best day - I went cross country riding in the morning and then came back to London and I had a surprise party with my friends at my ex boyfriend's house (Cas if anyone remembers 🙈) where I drank and ate a lot ahha. Then I went for a run and came back to the house, showered and went out for dinner with what I thought was my mum and Charlotte.. Turns out it was a dinner for 12! Something which I had not been expecting AT ALL. Then I rushed back home and had 18 people over for pre drinks and my macaroon cake (lol my mum organised it for me!!) and we went out to Notting hill arts club so I could use my ID for the first time without having to use a fake haha. Honestly such a great night and I haven't even opened all my presents as there just wasn't time 😂😂 so when I get back on Wednesday evening I can finally open them all haha. We're now off to Castle Leslie in Ireland for 4 days! It's embarrassingly my first time EVER in Ireland so I'm rather excited ☺️

(Cam anon) Yeah Churchill is fab for having space & right next to other hill colleges so easy to mingle with other college peeps! I go to homerton which is pretty but farrrr, & I study English :) xx

This is actually quite funny as I know a guy who just finished his third year at homerton and is staying for a masters next year!! I think he's physics based though. He's the older brother of one of my guy friends and a big rugby player haha xx

Omg Chessie I'm so so so happy for you!!!!!! PROUD of you 😄😄😄😄😄 you deserve this so much!!!!!!! I hope it'll be part of getting on with life and getting to where you want to be. Love you so much xxxxx

Thanks Iva - you are so sweet ! love you xxxxxx

Ohh very nice (I'm going into my 3rd year at cam). Churchill is a really funky college, you'll have a great time! Also my friends who do pbs love it :) xx

Oh cool which subject are you studying/which college? Churchill is not the prettiest haha but the rooms are so spacious and they do lots of sport which I really want to get involved in/have beautiful grounds. Xx

I love this filter ahhaha Have just been chilling in West Sussex for the past few days where I have a country house. It's been so so peaceful and just what I needed. The Zante trip went ahead yesterday but I decided that despite losing the money it was for the best! The lack of mirrors here makes my body image a bit better which is very much appreciated but I'm joining a gym with my friend back in London to hopefully do some classes and stuff which will hopefully make me feel a bit more confident.. And also makes exercise more enjoyable and sociable! I'm joining Pure Gym if anyone has any experience with it!? They're one of the closest gyms to me and so cheap it's amazing 😂😂 Anyway I am heading back to London this evening but don't know what I'm going to do this week 😁 anyone got any suggestions? I might try and organise my first driving lesson haha but still absolutely terrified

Congrats on your results! What degree are you going to study & at which college? X

Psychology and at Churchill college! Thanks so much xx

Ps feel free to ask me some questions on whatever and I'll answer xx

Pic from Hawaii (you can see more on my insta chessie_br 😏😏😏) Still not quite believing that I somehow managed to scrape the grades for my offer! I never thought I'd be able to get 2 A*s and to think that this time 2 years ago I was in hospital is scary. So much has changed, somethings haven't. But that's life and I'm trying to move forwards 🛫➡️ I also mentioned in my last post that I've self discharged from the Maudsley. I do not regret my decision (yet) but need to start taking responsibility for my own mental health instead of leaning on support systems for 3 sessions a week. I have been in therapy for SO long, I'm nearly 18 (bday is 27th August) and I feel I am ready to try tackle some of this stuff alone whilst I'm still at home and in London but just not having such intensive therapeutic support. Thanks for all the love and for everything over the past 3 years with tumblr ahha 💖 Lots of love, Chessie xx

Hope results day has been a day of celebration. If so, mega congrats. If not, then big hugs xx

Aw thank you for the message kind anon. I made my offer of 2 A*s and an A so my place at camb has been confirmed! Still a bit in shock and also just extremely relieved. So will be heading to Uni in October 2017 so now have a gap year to plan!!!

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