My Life Is Full Of Lies

Disappear, without a trace A treasure lost, I can't replace The only piece that still remains Is in these scars, is in this pain

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Life ✌️

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My Love

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My babies <3

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God I hate humanity, Why do people have to fucking care and get into my shit in my fucking life. I would be surprise if I get called down today thinking that they be thinking I’d be snorting cocaine or smoking crack like seriously maybe they’ll think I’m shooting up heroine. I didn’t think you smoke cigs is her fucking answer she is the reason why I got suspended. 

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When people assume shit about me it pisses the shit out of me because that means they don’t trust me. Like seriously being assumed that your intoxicated because “I wasn’t myself” You don’t know shit about me. When I am quiet they think I’m snorting cocaine in the fucking bathroom then they make a huge fucking deal out of it. Getting fucking suspended from school for carrying cigs on school property because I got checked in my the vice principal and he searched my stuff for a completely different reasons. If nobody had fucking assume shit about me that would have never fucking happened. I would have a clean slate at Scarborough but fucking Noooooooo. They had to fucking think something is wrong with me. I have fucking mood problems and shit they fucking know about like seriously fuck them they don’t no shit about me 

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God I wonder what would happen if I would end it how many ppl would really care.

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God I wanna fucking die and never show my face again to anyone when someone video tapes something your very conscious about without you knowing and post it up on the internet. I didn’t deserve it... I didn’t fucking do anything. My weekend has been shit. I fucking missed an appointment and know I am humiliated and I got in trouble for expressing my emotions and comments

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Why do preppy girls have to be weak fucking bitches like serious girls with all dat doe tho they should probably invest in that power and actually put some of that power to use by improving the women figure and fucking deal with my fucking sinister jokes bc if a girls fucking makes them their shunned by if a fucking boy makes them they are so damn fucking cool like serious preppy bitches out there grow a penis and some balls before complaining about comment even tho most of the boys they hang out with probably jokes about them too.

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I love the color of my dogs eyes 

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You know what is depressing I have no friends but my Tumblr animal gifs, My YouTuber Markiplier and they have no clue that I am even a person but they understand me without even knowing me. All my friends at my other school don’t even give a shit about my feeling all they want is for me to entertain them and my friend is to busy paying attention to what ever she is paying attention to and we’ve been just drifting apart. My only friend that semi cares is my bf or idk that if were still a thing since he moved to Florida and he probably has a way hotter chick. I am just here fucking alone shoving as much food down my throat to distract my horrible thoughts from taking over my mind 

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God,

I can’t stand the feeling of happiness , people tell me I am crazy but I am not used to being happy or feeling good about myself. I do dumbass shit to make me unhappy so I don’t have to feel that feeling. Someday I just think about the reaction of people if they were to find my lifeless body hanging from the ceiling or my pale body floating in the bath drench in my own blood and vomit. I just imagine my loved ones reaction their pure sadness and horror on their face. I just take deep breathes and try and calm my mind from the terror of my thoughts and my imaginations   

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