Just Chris now

Likes: Ace Attorney, fries, friends. Dislikes: Being kidnapped twice by a yandere ex boyfriend.

[chrisblackquill]

what do i even say about all this.

to start im... logging off for awhile. forever, maybe. im gonna be staying with adam and lara and adrian and kyler now too, and keep in touch with dollie... 

noah... he was my friend. and once i did love him. but, now... i hope i never see him again. i cant see him again, i just... cant. i dont know how im gonna get away but i will. 

and to everyone ive hurt, im truly sorry. i was... a very different person a few weeks ago. stuff changes, i changed, and im sorry. and, thank you for sticking with me and all of this.

it was nice while it lasted, huh? 

[chrisblackquill]

no no not again no no i cant do this again

[chrisblackquill]

hey um @kcchan can you leave my dad alone? hes happy... were happy. please

[chrisblackquill]

well small update. me and dollie are talking again. shes a good friend and im glad shes still in my life. hell shes one of the few people who... knows what we went through. our friendship is nice, i value it

me and klav are settling in nicely. dad (is it weird to call him dad this soon?? adam feels wrong too) got us a playstation so weve been having fun on that and... they dyed my hair. everyone, even the AC group. it looks nice, i like it black. 

the AC group, theyre my family too. its weird to think these people i fought with over the internet are now my family and were growing and healing together... its nice. i like it a lot

as for noah... i still think about him a lot. no clear emotion but... not good ones. im so... scared hes gonna turn up somewhere again. i wanna get better and ill be getting therapy soon but... im scared honestly. that he’ll find me or something and itll happen again... i never want him to find me. 

[chrisblackquill]

I think my dad’s gay now.... gotta say getting him ready to reconnect with Anton felt... nice? it felt like we were a true family... i managed to pretend noah didnt exist for an afternoon

[dahliairl]

Dahlia, how did the ordeal with Noah turn out?

very well~

[chrisblackquill]

i really wanna thank you, dollie, for all of this. i know i hurt you and it wasnt right, and im really, truly sorry... if you ever wanna just catch up, get a coffee or talk, i can okay? but if you want me out of your life after this blows over i understand

[dahliairl]

you’ve clearly grown a lot over this week, and I think I have too. the way I treated you while we were dating was wrong. could we leave this behind us and just be... friends?

[chrisblackquill]

friends is good

[chrisblackquill]

hey. its chris. i think moving on from kristoph is... the best idea. considering all that happened. Kyler said he can dye my hair black so, i might take him up on that once he recovers 

[dahliairl]

Dahlia, how did the ordeal with Noah turn out?

very well~

[chrisblackquill]

i really wanna thank you, dollie, for all of this. i know i hurt you and it wasnt right, and im really, truly sorry... if you ever wanna just catch up, get a coffee or talk, i can okay? but if you want me out of your life after this blows over i understand

[chrisblackquill]

hey, im back. lana, kyler and adrian got me, and adam helped too. were at the hospital now, kyler got shot in the leg... fuck, this is allmy fault. if i didnt fucking insist to much i was kristoph maybe none of this would have happened... 

[chrisblackquill]

plea se if yuo see this i tuink ont he way in i saw a wendys nearby its not far from noahs house which @adriancommentary knows the location of please near a wnedys this is the last post i can make for awhile

[chrisblackquill]

He got me I dont know how much time I have please I dont know where.im being held he got me he got me om jot at his house I dokt know where I am

[chrisblackquill]

so where do i begin

Jason, or Mod 3 is dead. im convinced it had to be Noah. his parents arent here… i dont know man. im not safe here, but im not with Noah anymore. where the fuck can i go? 

i didnt want any of this. i didnt want noah. i didnt want…. this. 

please, @klapollo-against-kristahliaweek @allygodot @dahliairl i need help. acts down. everything down. i need help before noah finds where jason lives 

[kristahliaweek]

I suppose it was inevitable you’d turn on me like this.

[chrisblackquill]

yeah its fucking inevitable! how many people have you fucking hurt? how many? 

whatever. stay away from me. im going to stay with someone else, not telling who. if you show up im calling the police and the fbi or some shit

[chrisblackquill]

so where do i begin

Jason, or Mod 3 is dead. im convinced it had to be Noah. his parents arent here... i dont know man. im not safe here, but im not with Noah anymore. where the fuck can i go? 

i didnt want any of this. i didnt want noah. i didnt want.... this. 

please, @klapollo-against-kristahliaweek @allygodot @dahliairl i need help. acts down. everything down. i need help before noah finds where jason lives 

[chrisblackquill]

dont tell noah. i left the basement, im at mod 3... Jason’s house. jesus fucking christ noah 

[chrisblackquill]

well i figured out what happened to mod 3... using his account for now. ill explain in a second

-chris 

[chrisblackquill]

what the fuck did i miss

[allygodot]

Apparently, an autopsy has been conducted on Krissy’s body concluding she died of food poisoning, so the forensic scientists are trying to convince me there was no foul play involved. They want me to believe this is all some sort of tragic coincidence... but Krissy knew nothing was ever as it seemed. If I decided not to pursue this further, I would be dishonoring her memory. It would be like desecrating her grave. Besides, food poisoning is still poisoning. The fact that poison, disregarding the form, has been confirmed by professionals as the cause of death only bolsters my argument. The scientists’ proposition that this was not all orchestrated by some sort of conspiracy, however, is complete bullshit. I graduated top of my class from Chicago Law School, so I’m not going to be mislead so easily. They’re just trying to convince me to stop pestering them about investigating the scene further. Amateurs!

[chrisblackquill]

Tell me, Coffee, what would happen if you're wrong? If all of this is just in your mind? What would you do if it simply was an accident, wasting your time hunting a murderer who does not exist?

[allygodot]

I don’t have time to waste on hypotheticals, Mod 3. If Krissy wasn’t murdered, then what was all this drama? Was it all a massive waste of my time? Do you think I would have been better off never getting involved at all? Assuming this was all a freak accident, then Krissy would have passed away regardless of Kristahlia Week. Do you expect me to believe that there was nothing to be done to prevent this? I don’t believe in fate, Kristoph. If this was all inevitable... then am I not as powerless as ever? There has to be some sort of meaning to this madness!

[chrisblackquill]

Fate, choice, does that matter? Things happen, and they happen for a reason or none. It’s as simple as that. Krissy died with no connection to KristahliaWeek, and that’s the end of it. To believe something could have been done to stop it is too assume you have a say over the way the universe runs. Do you truly believe the mods at KristahliaWeek would kill Krissy to prove a point? I cannot say for the validity of Heaven or Hell, but I can say your belief of what happened does not make it truth. 

[allygodot]

How can you pretend to speak as an authority when you have no answers to anything? You don’t know if life is dictated by destiny or by chance, nor do you know if the afterlife exists or if this life is the only reality. How, then, can you pretend to know to know the circumstances of this murder? How can you pretend to know what is going on inside my mind? You know nothing, and yet you act as if you know everything. Is the contradiction lost on you?

[chrisblackquill]

You know not what I know because you know not either. Who’s the say I’m wrong or right? Or do you truly believe you know more than me? My belief is my truth, Adam as I am lead to believe. Funny. You’re named after a biblical story of lies and going against the truth you know, and you act in the same manner. 

[allygodot]

Drawing a comparison between the two of us is like comparing apples to oranges. You are an unprincipled rube who believes in nothing. You have made no attempt to discover the truth of this universe. How are you content knowing that you know nothing? How can you live without answers? What standards dictate your life, what final goal drives you to your end? Have you no purpose? I have spent my entire life in pursuit of answers. I have tried individualism, religion, philosophy... I have not once ceased in my search for the truth. Even an uneducated child could tell that we are not the same.

[chrisblackquill]

My life is dictated by my actions. It seems yours is dictated by your beliefs. You believe something to be foul play, so it is foul play to you. You believe me to be uneducated, so I am to you. But I have support, you do not. In fact, my broken ties with Noah and Chris are proof enough I know more than you. I still keep in contact with Noah, in fact. But from what I’ve seen you are an outsider forming opinions off of n evidence. I have answers because I’m involved. You assume based off of what you can see, which is far from everything. 

[allygodot]

If I were to define myself by my actions, I would be the lowest scum of the earth. When you have done the thing I have done, you cannot let your actions define your identity or else you will come to think of yourself as evil. And if you believe yourself to be evil... then you will act in evil ways, plain and simple. Six years ago, I broke an innocent man’s heart for a selfish reason. It truly was a vicious action... and if I centralized my ideology around that moment then I would be unable to be irredeemable. Actions are something that can not be changed. Once something has been acted, it becomes a part of unchangeable history. Conversely, beliefs are dynamic and fluid... an idea is not a fixed point in the past because it is contained only in the vacuum of the mind, where it affects only you. Human beings are fickle creatures, but that isn’t necessarily a weakness. The ever-evolving state one’s own thoughts is their own personal reality, it is unique to the individual and it is what differentiates one from another. I have spent years cultivating this philosophy, and I am confident in it’s validity. Nothing you can say will change my mind.

[chrisblackquill]

Didn't you suck dick in college?

[allygodot]

What I did back then isn’t important. I cannot change the past, as much as I wish I could. Of course there were good times, and sometimes even I allow myself to look back on them wistfully, but they are embittered by the following heartbreak that followed. The whole bittersweet ordealI... I wish I could erase it all. But alas... time makes fool is us all.

[chrisblackquill]

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