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25: No more being the last kid picked.

Everything should have been easy from this point in life right...No in life nothing is never until you work hard maybe even harder. In the end, I know I will be a stronger better person for this. I wished maybe I can never get this hard tho. Along the way you will lose friends and gain new one. To those friends I lost thanks for the memories and laughs. I wish nothing but the best for you. I am washing my hands with the drama and officially closing that door forever because no people who have a falling out should be forced to make something work if it's not both parties are making it work....there's no point. Also, no body should forced a bond between two people that is completely broken. The friend I lost a bond with is now best friends with my friend who I hang out and live with. It's a weird situation but I encouraged it even tho sometimes I feel like I am left out I'm outside their bubble and I'm that kid waiting for a turn to be picked and I end up being picked last. I guess it's different since they have more in common then I do but I can't think negative because we bonded over certain things I have in common with her then he does. You can say it if you are thinking it I'm jealous. I have that famous green monster on my back. I guess it's because I spend every day with her and we did everything now it's them. They can now meet up after work is over and hang out like I did. Now I can't. I got this promotion that allows to me to close now. Just have to let it go and remove myself from the situation. I'm not gonna be that kid waiting to be picked last no more. I will go on my own adventures and fly my journey. Maybe it's for the best it's part of growing up figuring out what works for you and your friends to balance what you have going on in life. I moved out of my mom and living in my own place. Buying my own food. Being my own person. Doing my own thing. It's been a hella of a year 2017. We are in august aka Summer so let's see what else brings me this year.

A boy in LA

September 30th was the first date I had with him, and it was amazing. He took me paddle boating on a lake in the park and we went to eat at Bubba grump shrimp. We talked the whole time and we took our time to get to know each other. I sped every minute talking to him. It was amazing time I ever spent with him. I spent every Wednesday and Thursday with him till December. He stopped doing what he started in the beginning of the relationship. He never made me smile like I used too when he first talking to me. I would never understand why guy thinks it never enough to stop making your lady blush and smile. He stopped making me feel special which all I ever wanted from him. He stopped texting and calling me which I didn't understand since I made him my King. But later on he told me that he wants to focus on school and work. In January, and February he try to be in my life by texting only simple words and sentences. He was started to show he didn't care which I though he was there for my heart and not what was between in my legs. I never though he would turn out like this. Me sitting here worrying about if he truly cared for me and truly feel like I been played. I took control on this situation where I told him, He needs some time to think if I am truly what he wants in his life, also if I am to stay a friend I will stay in his life. Well that was in February, almost 4 or 3 days ago.

All you need in Life

Sometimes I will sit here on my bed thinking what I need to improve my life....even by a little. I wish I didn't have to struggle with money where I can not afford to do certain things for myself. I would like to go and buy a new car or finish school but pay for my classes with no worries at all. I am 23 years old, never been to a club or rave, never tried drugs only weed when I was in high school. I am a college student with 2 jobs. So tell me why is it hard for a working college student with 2 jobs, can not succeed in the love department. Where there's girls who will have kids and still manage to find love. Yes I am picky as hell but there should be a few decent guys out there. Maybe it is not my time, maybe I have to suffer with assholes before finding the one who treat me right. Only time will tell, where life will lead me. I hope somewhere good. I need a good one in my life. All I need in life is to be happy.

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“it’ll be 99.99”

“but i dont have any money”

“so what do you have to offer”

I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. #simplyme #92 #dontgiveafucknomore #gokickrocks

#dontgiveafucknomore #92 #simplyme #gokickrocks

No matter how far we go, I want the whole world to know I want you bad, and I won't have it any other way 😘 No matter what the people say, I know that we'll never break

Hut one, hut two, big bitties, big butt too Fuck with them real niggas who don't tell niggas what they up to Had to show bitches where the top is, ring finger where the rock is These hoes couldn't test me even if their name was pop quiz Bad bitches who I fuck with, mad bitches we don't fuck with I don't fuck with them chickens unless they last name is cutlet Let it soak in like seasonin' And tell 'em, tell 'em blow me

Work hard & Play even harder 💰❤️ #money #work #hustler #rideordiechick #single #mymoney #lovethatgreen #overtime

#mymoney #lovethatgreen #money #work #overtime #single #rideordiechick #hustler

2o15 ❤️ New Year & New Beginnings 😘 #single #me #family #work #life #happy #conquerschool #journey

#me #life #family #conquerschool #work #single #journey #happy

🎀Bre'ale Amaya Adams 🎀

But if that someone who shows you that they are willing to do anything to keep you, but you tend to run away cause you were never ready to be kept. People will always think they know what they want in their partner but when they get it, they won't treat them right. #thatsislife #neverregret #movingon #closingtheirchapter #itsover #dontlookback #dontneedasorry #notears #hedontdeservethem (at Never Never Land)