Big feelings

[christy-augustian]

YOU ARE LEAVING ?

you are leaving?

I am so happy for you!

spread your wings my dearest girl , The world is waiting for you.

Fly as far the winds take you ,

The mountains are cold and the beaches too warm,

If you ever need a shelter from the harsh sun or the cruel winds,

Remember I will always have my lights on for you.

I still go back to us all the time, running with you till my lungs crashed,

My brightest star you are so afar,

Remember i will always have my lights on for you.

Purple skies,pink cotton candy and silly schoolgirls with their silly lies.

All remind me of you, will you remember me ?

When your wings are adorned, by everyone other than me?

Remember I will always have my lights on for you.

Come back soon,my dearest girl

Let's be together again, let's run away again.

[christy-augustian]

MOM WHY WON'T YOU MISS ME ?

Haven't I been away for so long,why don't you call me?

am i forgotten about ?

is there no place for me in your heart,why do you keep wrenching my heart?

Why have I left it in your hands?

Why am I the only one who wants you to want me?

Everyone tells me to forgive you,forgive you for what i want to ask ?

no one has an answer ,your claws leave bruises only I can feel.

[christy-augustian]

Homes that dont feel like homes anymore homes like lime in cuts it cuts you deep….

i left so many places with cracks that could never be filled… so many people with cracks that could not be filled with love again, was i always supposed to be the one holding the gun,pulling the trigger; why must i always be the one questioning the agendas?,could not i be stupid? people confuse me, people hurt me people open me, and cross my heart out why? i thought i would not hurt anymore, but i am hurting. it still hurts under the scars ,they hold memories they hold me... they keep me up at night, they appear in my dreams or are they nightmares they can't be me right? cause why is there still a trace of hurt , i thought i left it all behind my favourite places don't feel like mine anymore places that oozed comfort ,drown me now places that warmed me once now sting ,they sting like lime in cuts… my friends try to reach me but they can't . no problem they say, i know there are problems they will soon forget me they all do… but i won't.. they will all sting me again like lime in cuts….

[christy-augustian]

Only if you were to runaway with me ,maybe we could have had it all...

[christy-augustian]

My love you glow so bright... sometimes I wonder if u are fire or light?

Sent to lead me or burn me alive...

[christy-augustian]

Oh to be Icarus and fall...

[christy-augustian]

Were you sent by heavens or pulled by gravity...