A personal blog about Me

Hi, My name is Ciel, I'm 21 and I really like aliens and hamsters, my favorite stuffy is Gnarp Gnarp, an Ikea alien. I'm nonverbal due to aphonia and dysarthria also disabled, I use AAC full time.

[cielinginspace]

Introduction

Hi my name is Ciel, 21 yrs old

----I use They/them pronouns and is Nonbinary---

I'm disabled and nonverbal and I am a full time AAC user and I have a favorite stuffy named Gnarp Gnarp who is an Ikea alien. I'm not going to disclose my disability until I'm comfortable enough but for those who know please respect my privacy.

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My special interest are currently:

Aliens and space

Hamsters

My little pony friendship is magic

AAC

autism

And Hair

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In my personal blog you will encounter

- pictures of me and gnarp gnarp (yip yip as a special guest/he's an autism creature stuffy)

-pictures of daily life

-hamsters and aliens and space

- personal AAC recent experience (with pictures)

(will also post AAC videos too)

- Personal public diary

- Mini art and doodles of "MINDSCAPE" including small comics (I am an artist)

My main art account is @cielingg

- disability rights reblogs

- if anything is misc it'll show up too

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I do happen to age regress and pet regress but that's not going to be main focus.

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Goals for this blog:

-to make friends and share experience

-to express myself for others to see

-For self growth

-have fun and self journey

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[r-cake]

なぜか寛ぎモードに入ってしまったひじき

[r-cake]

ムニャムニャするひじき

[r-cake]

稀に撮影できる目の大きいひじき

[ellie-the-syrian-hamster]

Hanging out with all my ladies tonight. Look out how crazy the mice’s burrow has gotten! It’s huge! I see them passing by all the time. When it was still a little window, that small piece of wood covers it because I thought they’d like the dark.. but they’ve proceeded to make it triple in size so my efforts were in vein lol.

[daybyday-artwork]

Decadence.

[shchuratismoss]

Hamsterrrrrrrrr

the first pixel drawing i did in Aseprite, because i love hamsters

I had to buy Aseprite because I'm making animated sprites of some characters for a college project

[r-cake]

ジャストフィットひじき

[r-cake]

ちょっと「これぞ豚もち」って写真撮れたんで投稿しちゃいます　腹の上でうとうとするひじき（ほっぺパツパツ）

[nemuiro]

Happy Hamster Day🐹💛

[theviceenforcer]

The Amazing Digital Circus (SFM) - Caine's Paine

In an alternate Episode 8 of TADC, instead of going mad with power and torturing the humans Caine breaks down in sadness and writes poetry because everything you wanted him to be has fallen apart right in front of you. Bubble has even relapsed into smoking bubbles again.

[ellie-the-syrian-hamster]

Today is world hamster day! So he’s a little collage of some of my favorite pics of Ellie.

Ellie is my first hamster (not my first rodent, I had Guinea pigs as a child lol). I love her so unbelievably much. She means so much to me and has provided me with so much comfort. She has no idea what she’s done for me, and it’s such an honor for a little creature like her to have trust in me. To have bonded with me. Happy world hamster day, sweet girl💗

[cielinginspace]

BELT strap AAC idea!!! Instead of shoulder strap AAC, its belt strap AAC on your waist to prevent shoulder fatigue from carrying around your shoulder!!

I'm a genius guys..

[pawlovearts]

I finished my Pita Doop embroidery! (Just need to wash it next) This is my first original embroidery work. Of course it has to be the doop.

[r-cake]

縦にすり抜けていくハムケツ

[cielinginspace]

Nonverbal infantilization

Some people do treat me like a child or a pet that doesn't understand language but I don't see it as an extreme way of being dehumanized.

I look at it as those trying to be sensitive and learning to navigate something they fear they don't understand without offending.

Sometimes when I feel people do this because I can't speak, I can understand why they feel scared to interact with me and don't want to accept their honesty and be open with their personality with me. It'snot because they want to purposely infantilize me like i am a child or pet, it's because they are afraid how I will react if they become honest and offend me.

Sensitivity is not about refraining to be offensive or making mockery, but it is about being honest and understanding the difference of being human from our personal struggles. If you want to be sensitive about me being nonverbal, it is more hurtful to avoid my presence or not be aware of my capability to understand you, than it is to state how you feel and be brave of being yourself around those who can still communicate in other ways. I respect those who are trying to be sensitive, but don't worry about feeling scared of being yourself around me because I am nonverbal, I respect you when you treat me kindly, it is okay to be expressive and treat me like someone who enjoys communicating with you! I don't really like it when I see a distinct categorization of those being ablest without giving them the chance to understand and reduce antagonizing behavior so they can grow and learn from their mistakes. Do not make those feel shame for not understanding enough, express kindness and offer a hand to help them become a better person. Live life with all the kindness in your heart.

[cielinginspace]

Being nonverbal feels fine until you forgot to bring your AAC device and now you can't communicate... I solve this by nodding and shaking my head and giving thumbs up or downs. I also have like lots of back up AAC for this problem but at least I don't get frustrated as much anymore when I talk inside my head and my family dont really mind cuz they know that I have a medical condition which causes me to be nonverbal. I can speak a little bit but not enough for it to be use for daily functional communication since my chronic pain comes rebounding after speaking. I also found more of my prescribed medication for my MTD to deal with the pain in my throat.

Being nonverbal feels quiet but I feel expressive in my head.