ciellosero

a soundless instrument

[bluedrifting]

[acdhw]

[petricorah]

based on that one portlandia bit [ids in alt]

[beelze0-0]

Swordplay

[ciellosero]

For the Better

I saw the sun rise behind the mountain.

I saw the moon shine behind the trees.

I saw the beetle fly across the bark,

it flew until it can't even lift its wings anymore.

I saw the rain slowly dropping from the sky,

Like a child crying as its ice cream fell to the floor.

I saw the leaves fell from the trees,

As autumn is coming,

and so is spring.

Days by days everything change.

Yesterday is cold, now is warm,

tomorrow will still be left unknown.

Today is march, next will be april,

as it goes, soon it'll be june.

but isn't this for the better?

the sun seems shiney,

the moon seems glowing.

the smile of your neighbor is gleaming,

and so are you today is beaming.

perhaps all of this happened,

for us, for the better

[ciellosero]

I just know that sometimes, in Valinor. Legolas is offering Gimli an alcohol and making him drunk so that he can seduce him whenever he want and the dwarf will fall to his elve's every command.

[ciellosero]

Change is for the better

It is not! It will never been better! It isn't! Because I did. I did change. And I miss those times where I don't stress myself out of someone who shamed me infront of everybody else. I miss those times where the world revolves around me. I miss those time where I'm still with a so called family. I miss my mother, my father, my sister. And where I am now because everything changed? Alone, grieving, mad. I am so mad about what happened to my life, but not as mad on my own self. Who the hell will be with me now I'm suck here? Dealing with goddamn anxieties, depression, and grief. Drowning in my own tears out of sorrow, where I don't know the way up anymore. The sky looks black down the drain of emotions I'm slowly sinking in. Change was never been for the better. Because some people, some people doesn't change. they're mad as who they are. They're crazy as they will be. Change is infinite, yet never been better.

[ciellosero]

Truce

You told me we are good,

You asked me for a truce,

But I know better than your mom,

That you will never keep your promise like a man.

All you do is lie, lie, lie,

I don't even have to cry, cry, cry,

But here I am high, high, high,

With the memories you left behind.

You left the door open,

My eyes wanders around.

I see your traces,

The remains on the ground.

[ciellosero]

One wish

One wish you have,

One wish you'll take,

One wish for him,

Or one wish for yourself.

One wish that will fall,

One wish that make a call,

One wish from a plant,

A dandelion in the land of grass.

One blow will decide it all,

A wish that cost your soul,

Is it your desire or need,

Him and him forever will be.

[ciellosero]

I love you

I love you, I love you,

So much it hurts.

I hate you, I hate you,

So much it burns.

You can slain me with your tounge,

You can murder me with your fingertips.

You can kill me with your laugh,

But oh god, you're all I want.

You will be the death of me,

The art of death I desire to see.

You will also be my knife,

To kill my own, to taste my blood.

[ciellosero]

Promises

Promises are meant to be broken,

But I wish you didn't.

I wish you stayed beside me,

I wish you told me.

I wish you kept it,

The promises you swear with me.

I wish you told me why,

Why would you ever leave me.

Your promises burns,

Your words became poison.

Your look kills,

Your voice stings.

It hurts to see you walk away,

It hurts to hear you leaving.

But what can I do to make you stay?

If myself, can not make such promises.

[ciellosero]

She,

She swore in the moon not to fall in love again,

She swear not to be hurt again,

She crosses her heart to not feel any pain,

For everything she have done was put in vain.

She stands in the middle of the road,

Midnights ticking in the clock.

She looks up at the moon full of hope,

Asking questions in wish her heart will lock.

"You are lovely every night,

I watched you with my sinful eyes,

I can't bear to see you gone,

But I can not change the time.

I'm just a mere human being standing before you,

Watching you glimmers in the sky so blue.

You're hidden, once the sun show's up,

And I'm just a she wishing for you to come. "

[ciellosero]

Ciello

I stand in the corner watching people drift away.

I stare at the floor, hoping their eyes will look the other way.

I wished to every string, to every fingerprints I have,

To be heard and to be seen. But what can I do? As I am just a mere soundless instrument behind a table.

Cowering in fear, sulking in darkness. A pigment of light can be blessed to a small part of me.