I am my mother's daughter. I might love you to the point of insanity, to the point of anger, to the point of destruction. But I am also my father's child, and I'll stay silent—silent in my suffocated anger and silent in my love for you.

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I am my mother's daughter. I might love you to the point of insanity, to the point of anger, to the point of destruction. But I am also my father's child, and I'll stay silent—silent in my suffocated anger and silent in my love for you.
one day when you point a gun at me
i will tell you how we met
and for one terrible second
you will remember
My entire existence has been a wait.
A long one.
An unbearable one.
For insanity.
It is a strange thing, waiting for her when we are to be the best of friends.
When the time finally comes, I only hope I get to know her half as well as she already knows my mind,
my heart,
and all the tiny corners I keep pretending belong to neither.
We are not the same, you and I.
Your liberation shall be love and insanity mine.
The cruelest part of truth is that it has never been enough on its own.
People speak about justice like it is objective, measurable, blind almost
as though courts can govern honesty better than human beings can.
But no system on earth has ever been powerful enough to force belief.
Because to the people who need you to be a liar, you always will be one.
No evidence will soften them.
No confession will satisfy them.
No amount of grief spilling out of your mouth will ever look enough to those who have already decided what you are.
And I think that is the real tragedy of being human,
that your truth can exist in its full, unbearable entirety,
and still die in the space between your mouth and somebody else’s willingness to believe it.
this body was made to fit me.
stitched to my bones,
taught my shape,
grew around me like it knew i would need it.
and still
you speak
and your words burrow.
not loud.
not even cruel enough to bleed.
but just enough
to sit under the surface
and itch.
and itch.
and itch.
until i forget what comfort feels like.
until i start dreaming that
maybe relief looks like tearing myself open
just to reach it.
just to make it stop.
I think what I am actually drawn to isn't that they're opposites.
It's that they're almost the same thing.
A moth is not the opposite of a butterfly any more than dusk is the opposite of dawn. They're cut from the same shape. The same wings. The same fragile body. At a glance they belong to each other.
And yet they spend their lives chasing different lights.
A butterfly opens itself to the sun. A moth mistakes fire for it.
There's something devastating about that uk the idea that two things can begin with so much in common and still become entirely different creatures. That resemblance is not destiny. That sharing a shape does not mean sharing a path.
Maybe that's why the metaphor works because sometimes people are like that too.
You meet someone and they feel familiar in a way that frightens you. They carry your mannerisms, your fears, your hungers. They feel like a version of yourself that wandered off years ago.
And yet where you softened, they hardened. Where you stayed, they left. Where you learned caution, they learned desire.
They stand so close to the person you could have been that it becomes difficult to tell where one life ends and the other begins.
Not opposites.
Just two creatures with nearly identical wings, learning that they were never meant for the same sky, wanting to belong to one another but destined to be alone.
You did not love me. You loved the version of me that agreed to testify against herself
What is your love if not the willing witness to my ruin, my madness, my depravity
You loved me, but I was the narrator. I introduced you to myself. And I am famously unreliable.
Starvation atleast affords dignity
Hunger humiliates
It keeps you alive just enough to know what you missed
Mediocrity is not survival
it's a sentence
Sometimes I think we only ever worship what we lack.
That love is a god to the unloved, and peace, a temple for the war torn.
Perhaps divinity isn't power- it's absence.
Perhaps the holiest thing is hunger
you are not my type. you are my fate.
i don't owe anyone softness. especially not myself.
You are beautiful and I am tragic
the moon sees me. the rest of you just look.
i romanticize everything but myself