cimil

mostly rants

[cimilgirl]

I NEED. beomgyu to marry a man.

ykw I just need a gay couple to come out of txt

beomgyu soobin

beomgyu yeonjun

yeonjun soobin

kai and taehyun feel straight, Yeonjun gives bi

SOOGYU HAS TO BE REAL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[cimilgirl]

I don't have anything to be sad about currently

but I feel so gone

my heart feels so heavy ( ´_ゝ`)

I feel so sad

I feel my brain, like physically

[cimilgirl]

I feel so stuck in my head

I need to escape

[cimilgirl]

m gonna study

get an art scholarship

AND NEVER LOOK BACK AT THIS CHUD COUNTRY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[cimilgirl]

how many more doctors telling me to stay happy until my mom takes me to a psychologist

(;´-｀)

[cimilgirl]

ouch ouch ouch !! (。･´д`･。)

doctor doctor help me pls

thats a song

I need to go to a psychologist I think ( ´-｀)

[cimilgirl]

why does everyone talk to me like I'm a little girl with no knowledge

maybe im too self-aware

doctors tell me to stop being so anxious

then send me back home

YOU ARE SENDING ME BACK TO THE BATTLEFIELD AFTER CHOPPING MY LEG OFF DUE TO AN INJURY !!!!!!!!(゜ロ゜)

atleast give me something so I stop feeling so aware :-(

[cimilgirl]

been in physical facial pain for the past 12 hours

I go to a doctor

he takes 2 of my kidneys and says

Get sleep !! Drink water !! Uhm.. stay happy!

I can do the first two, don't ask me about the third (ーー;)

I've heard this from every doctor since I was 13

[cimilgirl]

I'm sorry mama

please

[cimilgirl]

why does everyone act like I'm a court jester

I'm an 18 year old girl

treat me like one

treat me like I'm human first lol (^∇^)

[cimilgirl]

the biggest prank I played on my dad was saying that I love him

wait.. I never said that to him.. LOL TROLOLOLED ＼(^_^)／

[cimilgirl]

every man ik has disappointed me

do I just become lesbian

I can't ill disappoint my parents for the 100th time

sorry mama

sorry papa

...LOOOOLL JK PAPA (^o^)

mama I'm sorry for papa ig he's a chud

[cimilgirl]

in my head I'm three different people

cimil, the name i was supposed to get

my actual name, present me

nickname, me during 11-15

[cimilgirl]

it's been 4 hours

no ones come to check on me

ヽ(；▽；)ノ

I relapsed today after 4 years of being clean

I'm sorry baby cimil I tried to get better but everyone's too mean

but I'll fix this

I always somehow fix things

we're gonna be better one day

you won't have to feel this way soon I promise

[cimilgirl]

I'm really pretty and I feel like im wasting my youth because of my chud parents and country

what to do what to do

[cimilgirl]

I think the only thing that can fix me is an asian twink now sigh ( ω-、)

👀👀👀👀👀👀😳😳😳😳😳

I'm asian too btw just incase so I don't sound crazy

[cimilgirl]

sometimes death scares me

but in moments like this I don't care