Really craving a big bad monster rutting his cock into me until he becomes a whimpering pussy drunk mess, every thrust leaking a little more precum and pushing it straight into my womb. His massive body encapsulating my entire frame as he surrounds me so that he’s the only thing I can see.
Drool dribbles from his maw and his long forked tongue swirls over my skin, using the excuse that he’s cleaning me up but really just wanting to taste me. And he can’t stop moaning and whispering the most filthy things, promising he’s gonna stuff me to the brim and trap me with him forever. Every wet plap, plap, plap is intertwined with his sinful promises.
“Wan’ me to make you a mommy? Gonna keep you all full and pregnant, make sure you never gon’ leave my side. You’ll stay right here where you belong…”
And he doesn’t stop the words from pouring out of his mouth even after he’s fucked me stupid and the ringing sound in my ears replaces his voice right before I pass out.
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Nothing in the world feels as good as this.
Sitting on Bucky’s lap, his cock thick and hard inside of you, unable to do anything but just feel it.
You’d gotten here the same way as always. He’s in bed reading like the handsome old fucker that he is, and you’re desperate. You’ve been thinking about him all day. Rubbing your thighs together and getting warm in the face whenever he so much as looked at you.
So you crawl over him in bed. Start to kiss up his neck, your fingers running over his abdomen, a teasing, hopeful promise.
Bucky gives you an amused look, then returns to his book. Relaxing under your touch, but not moving at all.
“Bucky…” You whine, pressing your face into his neck. “Need you, please.”
He just hums, dragging his free hand over your ass. “Need me, huh?”
You nod desperately. His mouth curves, and he finally puts his book down.
“You can need me, doll.” He mutters, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. “Just take what I give, alright?”
You can do that. Bucky doesn’t like to torture you, so at least it will be something.
Something close to torture, but also pure heaven.
Being pinned to Bucky’s chest and made to warm his cock.
He’s so hard inside of you. Pressing on every single right spot without any friction, lazily drawing patterns on your hips and thighs while still reading his damn book.
You toss your head back on his shoulder, your eyes going unfocused. The pleasure is almost too much to bear. You’re being made into a live wire that’s not allowed to spark. Approaching the best part of the most beautiful song in the world, but never allowed to hear tit
Begging does nothing. You know that.
It doesn’t stop you from shamelessly doing so, as your body becomes slick with sweat, your heartbeat pounding desperately in your ears.
“More.” You breathe out, twisting to kiss back over his neck. “More, Bucky, please-“
You’re rewarded—or punished—with Bucky’s thumb grazing over your clit. You moan, clenching around him, and get a soft slap on your thigh.
“Keep still.” He mutters, soothing over the hurt, and you nod a little stupidly.
You don’t know how long he expects you to last like this, but you know it’s far too long. All you can do is feel him in your throat, feel the slightly pressure whenever he takes a long breath, drive yourself insane trying not to flutter around him or grind down,
Your thoughts run wild. Fantasies brought on by your predicament, how easy it is to imagine Bucky’s thick cock driving in and out of you, how deep he can it, the drag of him inside you while his metal thumb would play with your clit.
The tight circles he’d draw, as he hit that spot inside of you and moaned in your ear. Hot, sticky skin slapped against yours, the wet sound filling the room, his cum leaking down your thigh as he kept going into round twod. The fever behind every kiss, sloppy and open-mouthed. Wandering hands leaving bruises, small love bites all over your neck, sensitive skin teased as he’d fill you up, over and over and over-
“You’re leaking, doll.” Bucky mutters, and you flush.
You are. You’re gushing around his cock, staining on his pants and he’s still just holding you to his chest.
You whimper, risking one wiggle for anything, but you’re too over stimulated. You almost scream, back arching, and Bucky yanks you back against his chest.
“Dirty girl.” He drags his thumb over your lower lip, and you moan. “All this and I’m not even fuckin’ you.”
Tears are pricking at your eyes, and you try to say something—even to just beg, until he spanks your clit and you get to scream again—but only babbling, hopeless sounds come out.
Bucky chuckles, and the sound vibrates in your abused, split open cunt.
You moan, eyes fluttering, and Bucky slips his thumb between your lips. You take it quickly, sucking like you know he likes, moaning every few seconds in an invitation.
He almost takes it. You feel his cock twitch inside you, when you flick your tongue against the pad of the finger. You moan again, and his hips shift, a low grunt leaving his chest.
But you won’t win this. Not against Bucky.
He presses his thumb deeper, and goes back to reading his book. You’re flushed and cock-drunk, ready for him to have however he wants, but this is how he likes you.
Blissed out and ready to snap, if he so much as flicks your clit. Sucking his thumb and moaning around him whenever he so much a whispers a low praise, putty in his arms and happier for it.
Later, when he takes mercy, you’re going to end up below him while he drills into you from behind, under him with hooded and adoring eyes while he paints your thighs white, over him as he fucks up into you, your hands shaking as you struggle to stay upright.
Right now, he just wants you right here.
“Just a little longer,” he murmurs, but you both know that’s a lie.
He’s going to keep you here all night. Even after he cums, you’ll just stayed pinned to his cock, his release mixing with your arousal, maybe being fed to you as you whine and wait for round two.
You’re going to let him.
Losing your mind is a small price to pay, when you’re trapped in paradise.
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Pairings: Anthony Bridgerton x fem!reader, Benedict Bridgerton x fem!reader (threesome)
Summary: After having denied you the previous night, the boys make amends...
Warnings: 18+ smut, minors DNI. Kink content. Dom/sub dynamics. Power imbalance (housemaid!reader). Free use reader. MMF Threesomes. No romance. No incest. No use of “y/n”. Cunnilingus, rope bondage, impact play (riding crop), whipping including genitals, object insertion, overstimulation, verbal degradation, smidge of dehumanisation, multi-orgasms, sub space, brief loss of consciousness, vaginal sex (including while unconscious), cum play, minimal aftercare.
Word Count: 3.8k
Author's Note: I am back on this train... heed the warnings please folks. This is not romance; it’s an exploration of free use kink dynamics. There are 3 more fics planned for this series (1 for each brother & a final threesome). Thanks as ever to my wonderful beta @colettebronte. Enjoy! <3
When the clock strikes 10pm, you are already making your way out of Aubrey Hall and across the rear courtyard to the adjoining stables.
Pleased to leave behind the sounds of the bacchanalian orgy, where the visiting guests are celebrating their hunting victory with a selection of visitors from local brothels. The lewd sounds just make your simmering arousal so much worse. Having been denied orgasm the previous evening and forbidden from touching yourself today, the day has been a challenge to endure; an intimate, persistent ache between your legs for your masters, whom you have not even seen—likely by their design.
As you traverse the cobblestones, you are struck by how quiet it is out here tonight—none of the usual groomsmen seem to be around, dismissed from their evening duties apparently. Indeed, when you round into the stables, cosy and warm from large torches burning in holders on the walls, you notice everything looks scrubbed and cleaned out, no animals to be found. Merely the aroma of fresh straw strewn on the floor.
“We had all the horses moved to the other stablehouse,” a smooth voice rings out, startling you as you peer over the gate of one of the empty, well-swept stalls.
You pull back, and there, at the end of the row, is Anthony Bridgerton. Casual in black britches held up with braces over a white shirt, sleeves rolled up to his elbows. His riding boots echo loudly on the flagstone floor as he prowls towards you. You had no idea there even was another stablehouse. Not that you give a jot in this particular moment, too mesmerised by the man advancing upon you.
“We have plans to use this one…” he smirks as he pulls up in front of you.
It's only then that you notice in one hand he wields a riding crop, tapping it against the side of his leg as he slowly circles you. You instinctively bow your head; his shiny boots hove into view with each pass.
“You, my little Doe, need to be broken in some more,” Anthony clucks, stopping before you and a hand rounding under your chin to make you meet his gaze. “What is your word?” he asks pointedly.
You instantly know what he refers to.
“Red, my lord.”
A flutter in your belly as you invoke it.
“Good. Repeat.”
“Red,” you state, clearer, louder.
“You may need it,” he warns, that flutter becoming an inferno as he releases your jaw.
“She will not need it,” another familiar, smooth voice counters.
Materialising from seemingly nowhere behind you, Benedict crowds into your back, the warmth of his body pressed against your spine, even through clothing.
“I can smell just how much she wants this…” he opines, taking a deep inhale, scenting you, his nose nudging your scalp.
He is right. There’s a heavy slickness between your thighs that is not just the oil you applied. Something tickles the back of your calves, and you realise Benedict is holding a long coil of rope.
“Come, Doe.”
Benedict places a guiding hand on the small of your back, and Anthony steps aside to allow you to be led into a nearby stall. He keeps walking you all the way up to the wooden partition, studded with heavy-duty metal rings, which you assume are for leashing horses or other animals of varying heights.
“Turn around,” he dusks over your ear.
You do so, feeling his smoky, whiskey-laced breath on your face as he gives you another order.
“Strip.”
You cannot move fast enough. Peeling off your uniform and throwing it aside among the soft straw, and toeing off your shoes.
“Good little Doe,” Benedict compliments, patting your cheek.
Then that large hand slides down your throat, over your clavicle and cups your left breast. You inhale sharply, pressing yourself into his warm palm as a reflex, his thumb flicking idly over your nipple and staring up at those intense, hazy eyes. Not forfeiting his hold, he herds you backwards against the stable partition.
“Legs apart and hands up,” he murmurs.
Instantly, you obey, raising your hands high above your head as if being held hostage.
“My turn…” Anthony gruffs.
Benedict steps back with a crooked smile as his older brother strides forward, grabbing the rope from his hand and placing his riding crop aside.
“What did I tell you last night, Doe?” Anthony checks.
“That I would be allowed to come tonight,” you answer quietly.
“As if you would ever forget that,” he chuckles.
Anthony’s thumb hooks into the corner of your mouth, and you watch his pupils dilate as you dutifully suck upon his invading digit, looking up at him through your lashes, his skin tasting earthy like straw and leather.
“Well, even though you are a good little obedient thing for us, as with all things in life, there must be balance,” Anthony intones, slowly unfurling the rope between his hands as he speaks. “One cannot appreciate the sun without knowing rain, cannot understand the gift of rest unless one has known toil. And thus, to truly value pleasure, one must know pain….”
Your stomach flips, but in spite of his warning, he suddenly drops to his knees, and you cry out in shocked pleasure as he buries his face into your folds instead, so much suction and heat. You instantly soar skywards. Your hands flex as you obediently endeavour to keep your arms aloft, but the intensity makes you yearn to curl over him, tumble to the floor.
Instead, Anthony throws your left thigh over his shoulder and dives deeper into your slit, his hot tongue a muscular swipe over your engorged nub. Unrepentant, perhaps not realising you have never experienced this before. A blinding, sweeping pleasure that makes your chest glow, your fingers tingle.
This is not at all what you had expected; it is clearly a reward for your good behaviour thus far.
As if sensing the weakness in your stance, Benedict steps forward. His large hand curls around your raised bicep, pressing your upper body back into the wood as you writhe and stare at him wide-eyed, wanting to lower your hands for balance, bury them in Anthony’s thick hair as he kneels before you, his tongue lashing your clit ferociously.
“Hold still, Doe,” Benedict warns.
Then you feel a rough tickle encircle your raised leg.
Without relinquishing suction, Anthony has twined the rope around your thigh that he has thrown over his shoulder. He now passes it to his brother, who loops it into a nearby ring. You gasp as Benedict jerks the rope taut. Your leg is pinned high and open, a slight burn in your stretched tendons.
“Steady, little wild thing…” Benedict smirks.
He passes the rope over your belly diagonally, then weaves it through another ring off to the side by your ribs, all while Anthony keeps feasting upon you, a twinge deep in your pelvis that steals your breath.
“Keep those hands up!” Benedict clips as you sag slightly, awash in novel sensations.
You do your best to obey as he criss-crosses the rope again over your body, laying it upon your clavicle and then passing it through a ring near your shoulder. You inhale sharply as it tightens again, lashing you to the divider securely, a slight pressure over your ribs as you inhale sharply.
“Do you wish to invoke your word?” Benedict queries just as Anthony seals his mouth over your entire clit and sucks hard.
You moan loudly, the ropes creaking as your body flexes, then shake your head almost violently. Wanting nothing more than to be right here, with them.
“Such a smart little Doe,” he chuckles, passing the rope over your shoulders to the other side.
Benedict binds your wrists together and secures them to a loop high above your head, then mirrors the same pattern, working back down your body to ensure you are securely lashed with multiple crossings. All the while, Anthony pushes you somewhere electric, you moaning with each breath, your swollen, distended clt a hard pearl slipping over his lapping tongue. You want to curse and swear, thrash your body, but you can only do the first two, thoroughly tied up now.
The rope loops four times around the thigh you are using to bear your weight. Then Benedict glances down at Anthony, who pauses in his ministrations to assist, hoisting your foot off the ground as his brother tugs the rope. You gasp loudly as your leg is yanked into the air.
You are now entirely suspended from the ground, trussed to the stable partition, nerves quavering in your belly.
Anthony jumps to his feet, his face glazed with your juices and hovers so close you can scent your tart sweetness upon him.
“Do not be concerned, little Doe, we have you,” he assures you as you look at them both beseechingly.
You are shaking with bereft need, your now abandoned clit pulsing hard with each heartbeat. But you do not dare ask either of them to return to pleasuring you. Knowing the agreement you have signed means you have no vote on the matter.
“Pass me the crop, brother,” Anthony orders.
Your belly clenches as it is passed into his palm, and he taps it against his calf, cocking his head to one side and peering at your restrained body, as if assessing all of his options, while Benedict moves in.
“We can see your little clit is beautifully swollen…” Benedict purrs, ghosting his fingers over your belly, making you whine and plead with your eyes for him to brush lower, alleviate your need.
“That was for pleasure, little Doe,” Anthony forebodes, also moving in, “... and now for the pain.”
That is all the warning you get before the crop smacks onto the soft skin of your inner thigh, making your toes curl, and you hiss between your teeth. Benedict’s large palm spans your entire belly, holding you still.
“Hush, sweet Doe, be tamed….” he murmurs hotly into your ear, his soothing tone at odds with the harsh blow that lands slightly higher on your trussed thigh.
You meet his gaze and nod, fervent with a want to please them, despite any discomfort.
“That's it, you will know untold pleasure…” he promises huskily, tracing one of the ropes looped under your left breast.
Benedict then moves aside, and Anthony rains three blows onto your other thigh, you crying out and flexing hard in your rope harness. Each lick is a sting that zips right to your clit, distended and on full display, with your legs tied so obscenely open. God knows the slight you would be if any of the stablehands were to return to duty.
“No one will come by,” Benedict assures, perhaps reading your mild disquiet in your darting eyes.
“She was quite happy to have an audience last night,” Anthony points out dryly.
He strikes a mild blow on the tendon where your thigh meets your torso, achingly close to your pulsing core.
“Positively dripping as they all brayed for her to be filled…”
He drags the leather loop of the crop over your pubic hair, then slips it between your legs, you moaning loudly as it rubs over your labia, your clit. A cool smoothness that is almost akin to a tongue.
“She was a good little Doe, too. Took me all the way down her throat…” Benedict remarks smugly, crossing his arms and leaning casually against a nearby post.
Anthony taps lightly on your clit with the crop, then a harsher slap, the sound echoing up the walls as you groan, the pleasure-pain a thrilling sting that makes your blood run hot, your skin prickling with a thousand goosebumps.
“And now look at her, on the verge of coming from a whipping…” Anthony snickers as another blow makes your core burn white hot.
The ropes squeak as your body bucks, chasing another hit, when something pushes into your weeping body, slightly rough-textured, not a finger but a little wider. You glance down to see that Anthony has pressed the handle of the crop inside your cunt, just a few inches.
“Hold that for me, Doe,” he smirks, stepping away.
You clench around the thin handle, holding it as bidden, it jerking slightly as you close around it tightly, desperate to obey.
“That is so beautiful, I almost feel inclined to fetch my easel…” Benedict chuckles languidly.
Indeed, you must look a debauched sight, trussed naked to the wall, a crop dangling from your channel, fleck marks on your thighs from the blows given to you.
“We could just leave her like this…” Anthony shrugs.
The noise of protest that escapes your lungs is a half-whimper, half-plea, even knowing it's likely an empty threat—since that first night, they have never left you without at least one of them finding their pleasure, if not yours. You doubt they would go now, especially as you can see their erections straining inside their tight britches.
“Look where the greedy little Doe is feasting her eyes…” Benedict clucks bemused, his hand straying over the fabric to give himself a quick squeeze, a tease for you as much as him. “We cannot leave until we have given her what she craves. A promise is a promise, brother…”
“You are doing such a good job, my Doe,” Anthony concedes, gesturing to the crop held dutifully off the floor by your clenched channel. He growls as it sways slightly, you grasping it harder under his praise.
Benedict steps forward, and you whine as he withdraws the crop, passing its now soaked handle briefly between his lips, then twirling it dextrously in his fingers and glancing a light blow low on your belly lightning-quick.
You cannot withhold little noises as he smacks the crop with soft motions all the way up your torso, until he comes to your breast, dragging its leather loop over your puckered nipple as you pant nervously in your bindings.
He flicks the smallest of licks there, the sensation an intense spike, the ropes protesting as your body jerks. With a victorious, crooked smile, he swaps to your other breast, giving it the same treatment as you silently plead for relief. You have not orgasmed at all for more than a day, and that feels like a lifetime when things, including their cocks, tongues and fingers, have been inside you so many times since, not letting you come.
“You are so pretty when you beg with those big eyes, Doe,” he rumbles, his mouth skating your temple.
You cry out into his cheek as he shoves the crop between your legs and slaps your clit three times, its soaked state making a loud, wet sound. He swipes the crop between your labia, wetting its leather tip until it glistens.
Then one loud continuous moan as he makes sharp blows upon your body and arms, the wet smack from your own juices adding to the sting of the crop, the pain merging to pleasure that has your entire body afire, so hot you know your face is reddened, each little mark he leaves behind adding fuel to the inferno.
“Please, sir…” You implore mutely, shaking with unmet need.
“What do you want?” Anthony crowds into you now, too, lacing his hands with yours, forming a fist above your head, your knuckles pressed to the smooth wood by his grip.
“Your cocks please…” You moan hoarsely, mouth feeling dry, shaking, a bead of sweat tracking down from your hairline, as he licks a strip up your cheek, lapping its saltiness from your skin.
“Oh, you are right, brother, she's exquisite when she's denied….” Anthony preens, “It's only been a day, and she is begging for our cocks. Tied up and mewling in a stable like a filthy little bitch in heat…” he grabs your jaw and makes you meet his dark eyes, reflections of the wall torches dancing in their depths as he addresses you. “What if we denied you for a week? What would you do for us then?”
You know his question is rhetorical, fully aware that you would do absolutely anything you are told. It's written in the agreement you willingly signed.
“Anything…” you whisper, playing up the part he seems to want from you tonight.
“Right answer,” he smiles predatorily, and you gasp as his fingers furrow into your folds.
Harshly, he strums your swollen clit, you crying out as Benedict takes his turn to grasp your hands high on the wall. He keeps going, the stimulation too much, the spasms in your pelvis almost painful. Just as your entire body shivers, Anthony withdraws his touch, and you howl, your noise only muffled when he shoves those soaked fingers between your lips and deep in your mouth. You close around them and suck hard without second thought, tears in the corner of your eyes at being brought so close but denied.
You know you are sobbing and pleading when Anthony moves aside, and you finally sense Benedict fighting with his trouser buttons. You yowl in relief as he grabs your splayed hips and drives his cock into you, unforgiving.
Split open, invaded deep, you come instantly.
Squeezing Benedict in a vice grip as you thrash, the ropes abrading your skin, teeth sinking into your bottom lip as your entire body goes stiff and then explodes as a quaking wave, undulating yourself on him as he groans and thrusts to stay inside your contracting cunt.
He mutters a curse as you continue to fight in your harness, the utter relief of orgasm making you sob and murmur your thanks in a litany of babbled words.
“You do not get off that lightly, Doe,” Anthony warns.
His warm, muscular arm pushes between your body and Benedict's, and you wail as he unerringly finds your clit again and thumbs it roughly. At the same time, Benedict starts to fuck into you, using the ropes you are suspended in to pull you down onto his cock. Oversensitive, you scream, the sensation too much, your skin feeling too tight and hot, your brain boiling inside your skull.
Another wave hits you almost instantly, orgasming again, your channel fluttering around Benedict's harsh tip as he cleaves you open, grunting over your left ear as Anthony sucks the cord of your neck on your right side.
It's too much, and you realise that is the point. Anthony’s fingers harshly pinch your clit, and you cry again, overstimulated, everything a blur. You can hear them both talking a litany of filth, some degrading words that just make your body clench again, but it's all wooly, your mind fuzzy. You sense Benedict pull out, but all you can do is whine until you feel Anthony move in, pulling his riding britches down just enough to free himself.
You groan, his wider cock pushing your walls out, a wet, filthy sound from your cunt as your body greedily sucks him in.
“Cock drunk, are you not?” Benedict snarls, biting your earlobe, his own cock still wet with your come pressed into your hip as his brother fucks you so harshly the wooden partition creaks.
You can only nod, incapable of words, only animalistic noises. You cry out as there is a slap against your suspended foot, right on the sole. You didn't realise Benedict had grabbed the crop again. Anthony’s cock is harsh, and with his fingers back on your clit you are soon screaming again, Benedict lashing the crop against your calves, making you jump. His other hand wraps over your mouth to muffle your noises.
“Such a noisy little Doe,” he gruffs.
But you cannot stop, your body used, utterly fucked out, your brain mush, your lungs burning from all the breaths you need to heave. You feel Anthony pull out, and again they swap, Benedict ploughing into you. Fingers, you do not know whose, are on your clit again, and suddenly it is too much. You break again, what seems like a vibrating wave sweeping through your entire being, a technicolour explosion behind your eyes before a dark, enveloping peace.
Woozily, you come back to yourself and realise you must have lost consciousness briefly, the overstimulation too much to bear. And yet still there is a cock drilling you.
“Welcome back, little Doe,” Benedict chuckles.
You realise it is his still inside you, the curve of his tip angled deliberately to glance that spot deep inside that makes you a limp, helpless, mewling mess.
Your cunt feels swollen, thoroughly used, fucked out, and yet you crave more. Plead softly as they swap again, Anthony inside you again now, the difference in their cocks wonderful. He growls as he fucks you hard, the ropes creaking as you sag, incapable of anything but drooling and your cunt dripping onto the straw beneath, feeling the next wave of ecstasy licking at the edge of your consciousness as Benedict tweaks your nipples, knowing they are darkened from his treatment. Your mind is in a blissful zone, switched off, wanting to be used by them for hours, for days, just floating in a subliminal space awash in a paradise.
Anthony’s thrusts become harsher, the angle meaning your distended clit is taking rhythmic blows, making you crest another wave, only capable of whimpers. The clenching of your cunt has him growling, and he pulls out just in time for a jetted arc of his seed to paint your belly. He is panting hard as he trails his fingers through his cum and then wipes it over your lips. Your tongue darts out to lick it off on instinct, and he mutters his praises before slinking aside.
Your body makes an obscene sound as seconds later, Benedict is inside you again, seeking his pleasure, even as Anthony’s bitter taste is still blooming on your tongue. You can do nothing but let the ropes score your skin and moan softly as he takes his fill, grunting and groaning into your cheek. The ruffles of his shirt chafe your nipples as he leans fully against you, chasing his completion hungrily, sweat on his brow that you want to lick off. It feels like you are on one long extended orgasm, your cunt grasping around him reflexively in waves, so slick and hot, his cock like a spear as you moan and writhe. Just as you feel you cannot take any more, he stills, teeth in your hair, then he pulls out and does the same as Anthony, painting your belly with his warm seed before slumping over you.
Your body is bone tired as, moments later, you sense them slackening the knotted ropes, lowering your suspended body, bracing you between them as they work diligently to free you. Your mind is still like cotton floating on a breeze, and you are a rag doll as Anthony picks you up and carries you back to the house, up a hidden staircase.
He settles you down onto your bed with soft words, murmuring that he is leaving a pot of salve upon your bedside table for the darkened lines across your body from the ropes.
All you can do is nod sleepily and instantly tumble into a blissful slumber, body and mind entirely sated.
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Childhood made everything feel like it lingered. The time it took for hot chocolate to cool down was eternal. Christmas day took weeks. The two-hour drive to my grandparents' house took us to a new world. It's all too fast now.