ari ❤︎⁠

[ummyusha]

“Collect books, even if you don’t plan on reading them right away. Nothing is more important than an unread library.”

– John Waters

[cinnamonvanille]

pretending it's fall on a rainy day in may...

[florasrealm]

[n1pp]

quit brainrot. unfollow trolls. read essays. go down rabbit holes. have a calendar. maintain a todo list. read old books. watch old movies. turn on dnd. walk with intent. eat without youtube. chew more. train without music. plan for 15 mins. execute. organise your desk. take something seriously. read ancient scripts. act fast. find bread. eat clean. journal. save a life. learn to code. read poetry. create art. stay composed. refine your speech. optimise for efficiency. act sincere. help people. be kind. stop doing things that waste your time. follow your intuition. craft reputation. learn persuasion. systemise your day (or don't). write. write. write. write more. iterate violently. leave your phone at home. walk to the grocery store. talk to strangers. feed the dogs. visit bookstores. look for 1800s novels. experience art. then love. sit with a monk and offer them lunch. don't talk shit about people. embody virtue. sit alone. do something with your life. what do you want to create? turn off your mind. play. play a sport. combat sports. notice fonts in trees. fall in love. notice patterns on a table. visualise it. talk to people with respect. don't hate. be loving. be real. become yourself. cherrypick your qualities. discard the useless. rejections aren't permanent. invite what aligns. accept what does not. read great people. be different. choose different. do great work. let it consume you. lose your mind. value your time. experience life.

[annori]

Mark Haber, from Saint Sebastian’s Abyss (2022)

[theorangepdf]

book dedications are so tender here is this piece of art i made for an audience of thousands. but really every word is for you

[fairypepsi]

follow my insta @ batmanbarbi & TikTok @ cokeprincesa <3

[cinnamonvanille]

worst mental state of my life

[cinnamonvanille]

another day, another work outfit... i need a new job :/

[cinnamonvanille]

they're always weirdos.

[cinnamonvanille]

i wonder why i've never been passionate about anything... since i was young, i've only ever liked my hobbies. i liked to read and write, i liked to take my grandmother's scrap fabric and make clothes on her mini mannequin pin cushions. i liked ballet and dancing in general, i liked to bake, i liked soccer. i liked many things, but nothing ever stuck. it was as if every hobby was just a pass time; like i never actually cared enough about anything. why is that?

i worry about it more now at nineteen, when i'm supposed to be creating a life for myself, a career. but what do you do when you haven't loved anything enough? i'm afraid of being miserable in a job, but it's becoming more and more inevitable. i wish i had loved something enough to pursue it. now twenty looms over me and i've done nothing; achieved nothing with the things that should have been indicators of a beautiful future.

[h4nifah]

it’s october which means it’s time to listen to listen to melancholic music while wearing a big coat and staring wistfully out the window on public transport

[cinnamonvanille]

will forever be jealous of lily rose depp's name

[m00nl1ght22]

[cinnamonvanille]

today's outfit <3

[cinnamonvanille]

today's work outfit (featuring my fuggs lol)

[cinnamonvanille]

sensitive girl diaries: i just unfollowed a girl because she and her boyfriend dressed as a deer and a hunter for halloween. i never understood what was cute about that... "i'll be the cute little animal and you be the thing that shoots me!" "i'll be the symbol of purity and innocence and you can be the thing that destroys me!" it's very weird in my opinion.

[cinnamonvanille]

When I was still in school, I frequently found it difficult to fit in while still being myself. Making friends required me to become them and becoming them meant abandoning myself in some way; often this way was denying my sensitivity. So many times I found myself quieting when jokes were made at others expense, awkwardly chuckling when I was the joke. I couldn't find humor in the things they did; I didn't understand them and they didn't know they didn't understand me.

When Fiona Apple said "because it's not cool to be sensitive, it's cool to be like nothing gets to me", I had never felt more seen. I wasn't always so docile in my kindness. In my younger years I was confident enough to stand up for myself and others. But that was quickly ridiculed out of my system, molding me into the silence I partake in today. Away from others, I can feel again. I can be unnecessarily deep and dramatic and free. Sensitivity is difficult, but it is me.