Babe Ilu ✩

(she/her) 29!! Hi im just a blue potato living in a green world me ||cute animals ||idk relatable things i guess ||pretty people ||pretty hair colors etc.

[yessirskiii89]

[thefinestbeauties3]

Yasmine Lopez

[cinqk]

i have like 15k words going across my poems so far :) i kinda want to publish them eventually but idk lol

[cinqk]

in other news lately i’ve been writing bomb ass poems for him/us and he responds with songs on our playlist to match my vibe 🥰

[cinqk]

i wanna be back here soooo bad but i can’t commit 🤣

[zzzilan]

[rozieramati]

[sadclowncentral]

(grabs you by the shoulders) you have to make room for new experiences in your life. you have to go through the unpleasant work of leaving your comfort zone, even if just for a few minutes at a time. because if you don't, your brain will trick you into stagnation. you will start to believe that the world can barely fit you in it. but that's not true. it's the opposite way around. you can fit the whole word inside of you. your task is only this: to welcome it with open arms

[evilrashida]

Maty Fall, Rosalieke, Ida, and Hejia Li by Guido Palau, Sharna Osborne and Jacob K. Makeup Sam Visser.

[cinqk]

me rn going through my data 😱

[cinqk]

ik i keep saying ima come back here but i’m fr this time 😤!!!! i deleted my negative time waster social apps, and never was i more introspective/expressive than when i used to blog to the abyss lol. i can’t keep up with intentional/dedicated journaling for the life of me 😭

[cinqk]

:(

[cinqk]

My anxiety has been actin up lately idek why the hell…like i’ve never been more chill in school than i am rn or sleeping a normal amount like i am now 😂

[gena-rowlands]

BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN (2005) | DIR. BY ANG LEE

[lilkimuk]

Lil’ Kim (2000)

[likeitaughtyou]

[666ter-deactivated20171116]

WHAT!!!!!

[nocanonhere]

This sounds like one of those late night bumps that would come on adult swim back in the day

[menalaus]

love

[cinqk]

RE my weight loss, i started my journey bc 1) it was starting to cost money to be unhealthy cuz i ate takeout allll the frickin time lol and my clothes werent fittin lol 2) i was at my heaviest and just felt really bad about myself esp thanks to my POS ex he’s the reason i gained like 15-20 lbs of stress weight lol and 3) for health reasons but also to look hotter lol. My family got all the bad genes. Rn i’m a lil less than what i weighed my senior year of HS so im excited for whats to come! I’ve been slightly overweight all my life but around when i started high school i delved deep into the pits of depression and gained 50lbs over 4 years. While my goal isnt to be my pre depression weight, i have a surprisingly muscular body under all these chichos and i feel i might be better at a slightly higher weight for that reason but we’ll see how it looks!

I also have a herniated disc/sciatica at times from a accidentin 2019 but it didnt worsen/become painful until 2023. Somedays i forget i have it and then there’s days like the past month where the sciatica is always present unless i exercise!! But its hard cuz pain is demotivating and i also usually have a school deadline but the sciatica literally makes it hard to do my school work bc i have to sit and it hurts after a while. But im working on working out at the start of my day for that reason

[cinqk]

Roommate life has calmed down thankfully too. The roommate i have on the lease has been tightening up cuz i sorta scared him straight ig when i said i would be forced to consider kicking him out if he has any more money issues moving forward. He’s cool and chill just bad with money lol. But now onto the juicy stuff! i could sit here and talk about exes but they don’t deserve the spotlight long but i will say this: i found out my POS ex went to ukraine to fight (honestly thought he wouldnt with his bum ass lol) and got interviewed by outlets there and EVERY DAMN WORD WAS A LIE 😭 or some honky bullshit lol it was hilarious reading the comments from other countries cuz they were roasting him lol. I still don’t know why he made a finsta to creep on me when he was the one who ruined my life and dumped me (and admitted to cheating after said dump) but i hope this year i can finally get him off my car insurance so i can never speak to him again 🥹 fucking bum ass bitch doesn’t have insurance still its been years…

The other ex is the guy i lost my v card to and was fwb for while when i was 19. Before my current lingering attachment, he was that and i’m glad we gave things a shot, i don’t regret our time together i learned a lot about myself and navigating a real relationship. Technically he’s not an ex yet tho lol but lets just say we established we don’t see a future together romantically (as friends tho? maybe) and while we care for each other, we’ve made the decision that we’ll stay together until i’m ready to end things since we’re happy with how things are atm. I’m not stressed and not in a rush to end it cuz he’s my friend at the end of the day, and i’m never going to do casual sex or fwb again lol. I could end it now since i’ve mourned the relationship but depending on how my dating life goes i think we’ll be together for the next 1 month - until i graduate college. I’ll explain this range in another post lol