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HAPPY AUTUMN 🐴 🍁

#dan and phil #phan #daniel howell #phil lester #amazingphil #new image #new video #danisnotonfire #horsies

#new reaction image just dropped #phan #this is real #from the video #amazing phil #danisnotonfire #daniel howell #omg #dare to say it #phan proof

citrussquirrel

HOLY SHIT

citrussquirrel

at the very least it's good backstory

#amazingphil #danisnotonfire #phan

HOLY SHIT

#phan #dan and phil #phanisreal #phan proof #phil lester #daniel howell #is it real???#holy shirt #YouTube #peep the channel name change #omg

herchaosbasement

Water Nymphs by @LukasWerneck

Such a happy picture! Screams three of cups.

byherbandcandle-deactivated2025

Unsolicited Witch Tip #6

Grind together lavender, lemon balm, and salt, and use this as a floor sweep to promote peace and happiness in your home.

lilousole

Mother’s youth was loud and boyish. Mine is smothered by the very idea that I exist a little too much.

memory-and-minds-eye

Witch Aesthetics

kanamajo

#me if you even care

valtsv

it really is insane how waking up early will grant you access to some of the most beautiful sights and sensations in the world that will make you want to live forever, but only if you overcome the gauntlet of a thousand razors that is getting out of bed early. truly one of life's little saw traps.

pupita

twt: ggmashumaro

sweetbunnytears

I feel neglected. I understand that you want to pigeonhole me into the role of a boyfriend, but at the end of the day I'm not. I'm just me. I don't want to be babied or coddled or some shit, I don't mind being the provider. I actually enjoy it to a certain extent. But I just wish that you'd show me some appreciation. I wish you hadn't said anything about flowers. I wasn't expecting any so it honestly hurt more when you said that you were going to and then didn't. Like, why even pretend to care? It felt pretty shitty. I didn't expect us to celebrate Valentine's but it's like that comment made me realize that you didn't get me anything for Valentine's Day. Like. Nothing. Then I (attempt) to buy us all Hozier tickets and you make that comment about how I should pay for weed next like....I already pay for so fucking much?? I recognize that I should go to work more but like I am so fucking burnt out and tired I don't want to do anything more than what I already work on top of school. I honestly wish I were dead most of the time. I'm so fucking exhausted and I just wanted something nice in my life. Our relationship is usually my refuge but it's always like something's missing. I know you don't have $200 but like none of the rings I sent you were that much. I often feel like you don't love me as much as I do and I honestly don't know if I'll ever feel like you do. To be completely honestly I often think that the only reason we're together is because you have this thought in your head that you're unattractive and that nobody else wants you. But I want you! I just wish I felt like you wanted me too. I honestly don't believe you're attracted to me. I get being a bottom but the complete lack of interest in my body behind my fucking mouth doesn't feel great. It's so funny because I remember approaching you when you were just a crush of mine and thinking that it didn't matter how you treated me as long as you gave me some attention, but now it's one of my least favorite things. I don't want you to give me attention because you feel like you have to, I want you to actually enjoy and want to look at me. I just want to feel like you actually love me. I know this is stupid but I guess I just thought that if you proposed to me it would mean that you loved me. Obviously I know that that's not a genuine representation of love (especially if it feels forced), but it's at least the illusion of it. As of now there's nothing. It's not about sex. I like topping, as much as you make fun of me being pathetic, and I wouldn't care if you never touched me, but it sometimes feel like you view me as nothing more than a tool to get you off. I honestly think I'll probably feel that way for the rest of my life, assuming that our relationship maintains itself the way it's been this far. I've spent so much fucking money on you, your hobbies, activities to do with you, and beauty protects to make myself look alright enough to be next to you (despite what you think about yourself I am extremely worried you'll be taken from me). I don't want to be fucking polyamerous with you. I just want to be exclusive. Not because I'm not interested in polyamory but because I just want to feel like you actually value this relationship and and love me specifically, not just because you think I'm the only option. You make me so fucking mad. Why can't you just apologize and do better?? You know I would've loved dead flowers. I've never ever recieved flowers in my life. I've hinted about them over and over and nothing. Just sucks that it lives up to everything else, forgotten because nobody really cares. You're not gonna propose by the time I wanted you to. It's fine I suppose. Because everything has to be fine. If I actually am upset somehow the narrative will always end with me in the wrong. Because you're always fucking right. Why can't you just love me like how I love you?? Out of all the love languages you give me none of them. So I'm assuming you just don't love me at all. And I mean that genuinely. Whatever. Happy fucking Valentine's Day.

#rant post #rant tag #dating #vent post #personal vent #valentines day