I was scared, Clare. scared of losing you. I know. I know I should have told you but I didn’t know how. I’m not asking you to look past it Clare. It’s there and out now. I just want you. I’d do anything it takes to make it up to you. I love you, Clare. I want to marry you and be with you forever. I’ve wanted that for so long now. Don’t say that. Don’t say you “loved me,” Clare.
Honestly, I had no clue. Not that he loved you, he never said. Maybe he fancied you, but he never said a word to me. Not when I told him I liked you. Not even when I told him I was going to ask you to be my girlfriend. Not even when I told him that I thought I loved you for the first time. I-it was last summer. I have never stopped regretting it. I’m not asking you to trust me now, Clare. I get that it won’t happen right away but please…don’t think for a moment I wanted this to happen.
Well, now you've lost me. I'm going to have to get used to saying that at some point, Elliot. Might as well start now.
Have you met Caleb?














