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[clare-m-est]

𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐞-𝐦-𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐍𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐠𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

┈⊹ 𝐀𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 ⊹┈ m | mid-20s | she/her | usa

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not nsfw free or spoiler free for any fandoms/media, proceed with caution

honestly just here to post fics for writing practice and reblog fandom stuff. feel free to join me!

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✶ AKOTSK closing the gap - baelor x reader modern office!au

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[nikolaj-costerwaldau]

A KNIGHT OF THE SEVEN KINGDOMS (2026-)

[obsolete-borger]

[breakspeardaily]

Bertie Carvel as Baelor 'Breakspear' Targaryen

1.03 | THE SQUIRE

[clare-m-est]

it's all fun and games making the next chapter deadline a vague "end of july" until the end of july comes around huh

[cinewhore-deactivated20211003]

[clare-m-est]

new laptop successfully acquired!! my parents were very kind and got me an early bday present 😅 it's nice to upgrade, it's been at least 5 yrs since i last replaced it. now, back on the fic writing grind!!

[clare-m-est]

hi miss m, I really love closing the gap!!! I'm super interested in the dynamic between daeron and his former assistant that led to the beginning of the story. I wanted to ask if you would be okay with fanfic of your fanfic? it wouldn't be published publicly and would only be for me personally, but I wouldn't want to do it if you weren't comfortable. thank you for sharing your writing with the world <3

hi anon!! first of all, thank you for your kind words, this is v sweet 🥺 i'm really happy to hear that you're interested in reader and daeron's previous working relationship! actually, the next chapter will deal with more details on that score; what their dynamic was like, what Really Happened at the board meeting, how those events have changed their relationship, etc. without giving away too much, i imagine that their dynamic was awkward even before the board dinner, since a) daeron is a little younger than reader (reader has no specific age, but for the plot to make the most sense, i have her pegged between 25-30), b) she was essentially hired as his babysitter, and c) he was putting her in a frustrating position by making her complicit as he drank on the job. i'm excited to get into more details as i flesh out chapter two :)

but of course, those are just my ideas. to answer your question, i think it's a wonderful idea to write something inspired by the dynamic i've laid out in my fic! i'm flattered that you've been so inspired by my work. i would be happy to see what you came up with, but i'll leave that up to you. feel free to write whatever you'd like; if you do post anything publicly, all i ask is that you credit me for the initial inspiration <3

[clare-m-est]

my laptop screen got all fucked up, the computer is still functional but the display has a bunch of black lines running through it............. unfortunately, this will delay any updates to closing the gap or any new fics i'm hoping to post. hopefully i can resolve this soon!!

[keltbh]

exchange piece for @palmviolet!!! 🫶

[mournfulroses]

Catherynne M. Valente, from her book titled "Deathless," originally published in March 2011

[metamorphesque]

why do all the words sound heavier in my native language?

—  @metamorphesque, Yoojin Grace Wuertz (Mother Tongue), Still Dancing: An Interview With Ilya Kaminsky (by Garth Greenwell), Jhumpa Lahiri (Translating Myself and Others), @lifeinpoetry

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[austin--friars]

As for Baelor, i enjoy reading him as a very morally complex, but at the end, morally good man, verses the black and white goody two shoes persona that is often pushed on to him.

Because Baelor objectively is a good man, better than his brother. But he still sat by and allowed toxicity to fester within his family. Baelor standing against Aerion and his own brother to fight for Dunk wasn't just him doing the right thing, it was also him coming to terms with the fact that a legacy he had probably held on to so strongly before all of this, was crumbling. The right thing to do, would have been side with Dunk to begin with and bring his concerns to Maekar, regarding Aerion being a loose canon. The right thing to do, would have been to reprimand Aerion far before it got as far as it did, whilst punishing Maekar for allowing his son's awful actions to fester and go unchecked.

While Baelor was kind to and empathized with Dunk, even to the point of being extremely cold and sharp toward Egg (which I like--because it shows us that he is capable of being cruel and cut throat), he still did not overly praise what Dunk did in the moment. He did not commend Dunk for striking Aerion, nor did he excuse he. He simply said, 'I might have done what you did, but I'm a prince'. There are so many ways to interpret that, but none of them overly excused or ignored what Egg did, nor did they put any accountability on Aerion. Infact, Baelor validated Aerion; he validated his anger, he validated the fact that what Tanselle did could be seen as treason against House Targaryen.

Even when Aerion requested a trial of the 7 (and both Maekar and Dunk were equally confused and both actively crashing out in unison), instead of denying him that or even trying to argue with him, he allowed him to trial without any consequence, knowing that it would be a disadvantage to Dunk. And by that I mean, he hardly stood up for him, outside of giving Dunk and his brother a history lesson, he gave Aerion what he wanted. And of course, that is the law, but Baelor never put up very hard opposition against his nephews desires.

This is not at all to say that, he didn't stick his neck out for Dunk because he did, immensely. This was seen by the fact that he did not blame Dunk at all, for any of this. He blamed Egg for it. This also isn't excusing the fact that he gave his life for Dunk, because he did. But joining the fight against his family, IMO, is the result of Baelor realizing that there needs to be a change. That he has been enabling his brother and his brother's son for too long that it has come to this; the Targs have not only lost their way but are falling back into the travesty that was Aegon the Unworthy. Baelor doesn't want a repeat of that, but he sees that by his lack luster actions, that is going to happen. He knows that as much as his brother grumps about his children, he is an inactive/bad father. He will threaten and hit Aerion, but he will stand by him. He too is an enabler; if none of them stood up to Aerion, then their legacy would repeat itself.

Similar to how I mentioned that Egg and Dunk are Maekar's redemption, Dunk is also Baelor's redemption. Dunk is a reflection of everything that a knight and a good man is to Baelor, and being lost in castles, in Summerhall, in Dragonstone, around elites, nobles, royals, etc., Baelor had forgotten that simply because he didn't have to confront that until he saw Dunk vs Aerion. And it was no longer something he could ignore; there was a terror brewing within the household of his brother, whcih inevitably would impact his legacy and threaten his life.

So Baelor is a very good man imo. He is not your typical Targ man, and it's foolish to act like he is a man with ulterior motives. But I actually like this idea that he deals with internal struggles more than the thought of him being a very basic, black and white person. While he was not actively torturing people like Aerion, he allowed it to fester by not condoning his brother's lack of parenting. And of course people are probably wondering 'why is it his problem', not only is he going to be king, but what one unruly prince does, impacts everyone. And it would be absolute hell for Baelor to be king while his nephew who thinks he is a dragon and a true targ is living and breathing. They would've eventually had to kill Aerion I kid you not.

I love that Dunk opened Baelor's eyes, and he shattered the family unit that Maekar and Baelor created. He forced Baelor out of his own space of comfort and compliance. It is because of Dunk, that Baelor knows that if he wants a change, then he is going to have to stand against his family, and his own brother. Because TRUST me, if Baelor survived, things would never be the same between Maekar and Baelor, and Baelor was willing to risk that because he believed in Dunk. And that is far more interesting than him being just a goodie two shoes, because not even that makes sense for what we saw.

[clare-m-est]

wait i just reblogged one hammeranvil fanart and now im getting flooded w hammeranvil. send help

[tooersh]

continuing to think about them all growing up together... busy court full of children

[bluegiragi]

hooost of dornish speaaarmen

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process video below the cut

[clare-m-est]

closing the gap | masterlist

pairing: exec!baelor targaryen x assistant!reader

summary: Targaryen Enterprises, Westeros’s largest real estate conglomerate. Baelor Targaryen is the Chief of Staff, right hand man to his father, the CEO, and in need of a new executive assistant. In comes a clever young woman who tilts his world on its axis and ignites a fire in him that he believed had died out years ago.

content notes: Corporate executive!Baelor, executive assistant!reader, modern AU (as in modern Westeros, not real world), office romance, slow burn, eventual nsfw/smut, employer/employee relationship (inherent power imbalance, though the story won’t focus on that), age gap, mutual pining, description of alcohol abuse, implied workplace harassment, implied toxic family dynamics, Baelor POV, no Y/N, no physical description of reader

ao3 | divider by @strangergraphics

chapter i: strategic alignment (8.2k)

chapter ii: circling back - release date: end of july (hopefully)

further chapters TBA (i expect this fic to come in around 10-11 chapters, though that is STC)

updated 07.08.26