DAY 5297
Jalsa, Mumbai Aug 13/14, 2022 Sat/Sun 12:50 AM
🧡 , Aug 14 .. birthday of Ef Kishore Bhatt from UK 🇬🇧 .. gracious greetings , Kishore .. we are on time this year 😁 .. thank you for your affection and your dedication and for being with us all these years .. happiness to you and good health and all the best wishes always .. from us all your Ef .. 🏵️
.. and the many moods of the day at work .. starting around 6 am and ending by 10 pm .. and the joy of spending time with the contestants and the guests on sets as an audience that provide the cheer and voice so inspiring for work to go uninterrupted and to be in the company of an entire young group of crew that give work a dedication so proficiently executed ..
to experience the love and the attention at this age and stage of the professional career is a tribute to them all that have tolerated me for some 53 years .. to be reminded each hour as the game stretches on for the recitation of the dialogues of some of my earlier films .. of the songs they sing .. of the objects of art they present at the end of the show .. and the millions of autographs they ask and get from me after the game is over irrespective of the time it may be .. they came they waited patiently and sat through the game for hours .. my admiration and my love to them for this ..
they bring art works , paintings , pictures and references of years gone by which they have kept in well maintained diary’s .. they wish to read out the poems in praise they have composed .. prasad from their temples ..
and just the expressions of affection that they express in their conversations and their outstretched hands for a touch a hand shake ..
an overflowing river of grace and love .. immense love ..
blessed to be in such company .. blessed to be receptive of their thought word and deed .. blessed to be in their proximity and savour the compassion and generosity of their attention ..
simply blessed ..
and I indulge on the time and overtime of today .. for the morrow is a break of sorts .. to be not in front of the audience and on sets for KBC but to be in the gathering of all that comes by and stores up in and around .. not knowing at any given time what needs to be done next ..
so .. a solution has been formed ..
a post it stuck with instructions, on the desk .. jobs to be done at vantage points of my appearance .. tags, luminous stickers .. and the psychological bearing of whatever comes to the mind to record it or perform it in its immediacy ..
for in the time to shift to the other, it shall be lost in thought and translation 🤣
It is now given deed that the interest and care and supervision that is done in the person personally is the best ever , despite the availability of staff and others to follow instructions and chores ..
what the owner sees and wants is never seen by the one to whom instruction has been given .. call then in the immediate to further oversee and check whether the command has been understood and executed as has been advised or instructed ..
and there is surprise and lamentation and consternation as to why I .. I .. I must do this when there are others to do it for you ..
NNAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH .. !
never ..
the personal is the best supervisor .. drive it yourself, clean it yourself , print it yourself , write it yourself , speak it yourself , instruct it yourself ..
self self self .. it is the SELF that shall prevail ..
the self be the best ornament, judge, and player in life .. my mind my thought my execution ..
and as it comes to dawn .. the strains of the recently composed music, play silently by the side and the understanding of it shall never be understood by any other .. NEVER ..
it was that silent solitudinous - if that can be accepted as a word expression - moment that brought it on .. and non one could have access to it in its tone breath and feel other than the composer .. albeit in the being of one of my amateurish attempts on the keys ..
I may have the ability to talk it through .. but the understanding shall never be the same .. for if I may endeavour a thought -
no one understands the creator, other than the creator ..
and if there are some that wish to challenge that and come up with unqualified responses .. they are not being honest with themselves or worse their creation ..
I shall rest my mind of the most limited creativity .. and be in the preparation for some brickbats by the comments on the medium of mediums ..
Amitabh Bachchan