Spent the morning shoveling the sidewalks of my old childhood house with my mom and her bf. Last night a panelist at @wingonwoandco mentioned duplicitous experiences, both being happy in sadness and loss. Something all my bodily atoms feel in this battle with my crumbling old home. So much loss has happened but so much happiness is being extended to me in this life that I don't feel completely devestated. So while I can feel stunned by all that's been destroyed, I am so happy to be able to smile like a cheezy, sweaty gal at my mom while she teases me in Shanghainese. Will miss falling asleep on the lawn under the sun while busses roll by, all the random yard sales we did on the front lawn, growing funny vegetables in our side garden, playing with worms 🐛 and so many other things in this beautiful & spacious home https://ift.tt/2GWGX7M