From the start of the year I have thought of this day when I would write this. But now that this day is here, I dont really remember the long message I was meant to write. It desnt help I have a massive stomach ache (ate too much fruitbread…) and also an eyelash got in my eye, my suffering knows no limits.
Anyways, I dont feel like doing anything and I would like to sleep but since its friday Im forced to stay until late, ugh… so I thought "eh, might as well get this out of the way", maybe I'll just read for a while after.
…Though Im not sure how to introduce the subject so I guess I'll just go straight to the point. You see, after Hero's birthday (because I dont wanna miss out, its just an extra week after all) I will stop maintaining this blog, and the rest of my blogs too. Not that I think my departure will be a big deal at large but I still wanted to write a proper goodbye.
why have I taken this decision? you might ask. well there's a handful of reasons, the simplest is that I'm still pissed off regarding some of tumblr's relatively recent desicions. another is that it takes a good chunk of energy for me to maintain even one blog, and I have thought sometimes that I would like to use that energy for something else. there's also that I wanna make a backup of this blog and keeping adding posts seems counterproductive.
But the biggest reason is that I have already been doing this for nearly five years. I think I made my account on 2020 when I was bored and then I forgot about it after a while and then I brought it back around december 2021 a long time after I had been lurking the fandom and suddently remembered I had an account. "ah, what the hell," I told myself back then. "let's make a fandom blog and see how such experience goes like."
By now, I have gotten a good idea of the experience. this has been the first time I have truly joined a fandom, reblogin fanart, writting nice tags whenever, and also getting to help out others find stuff or such, having little talks with other fans. it was pretty nervewrackign at first, but I thin it helped me at least be more comfortable socializing over the internet, I remeber the spikes of anxiety I used to have whenever I was about to publish any comment! now it isnt such way anymore. I think its very fitting that I got to experience this with the omori fandom. I'll remember this fondly.
Half a decade gone by, the circunstances changed, there's other experiences I want to have. I wanna try out now the albatross lifestyle! closest thing to a five year plan in certain way. But I have only so many slots, and it doesn't seem like I can do that and keep maintaining a blog, which makes sense as its a contradiction. I decided then the fifth anniversary would be a good date to leave things… or hero's birthday, rather. As such, I'll go back to my lurking ways, as I dont think I'll leave the fandom truly, but otherwise you wont hear from me again until like the 10th anniversary, or in 2 years if I end up making that fanpage after all, all asuming tumblr still exist by then but we all know how much of a cockroach it is so sure it 'll be fine.
So yeah, I'll be flying away soon, maybe I'll get a flock and everything! that would be cool. Dunno what else to add but while writting this my stomach ache has gotten better, yey. Remember to know your limits and not eat too much fruitbread. Now how the hell do you make a blog backup…?
Well bye, see ya in 5 years or smth
