I love gidle and i just found your posts about Iris! Im enjoying them but they really threw me off at first cuz my name is Iris and it was kinda uncanny how some things matched up LOL
I'm so glad you love GIDLE! I do too! They were one of the first groups I stanned in Kpop! And that's so funny that you're name is iris too! If you ever want me to write a fic about something about Iris specifically, please let me know!
In December of 2020, Suki got into a dating rumor with NCTâs Mark because they both worn the same Jacket. This was not cleared up by either company, because there wasnât really anything to clear up.
When Suki first saw Doyeon, her immediate thought was to go up to her and ask how she grew so tall. (Luckily the other LOONA members stopped her from doing that!) Suki will always say Doyeon is one of the most captivating people she has ever met, both with her personality and her looks. Suki also tried teaching Doyeon how to rap, but sadly that just occured in Doyeon yelling at her and Yoojung dancing in the corner!
Yoojung
Yoojung sort of came along with Doyeon whenever they were hanging out, but Suki absolutely loved her! Fans often note the complete differences in their personality, but when theyâre together, they just fit! Suki refers to Yoojung as, âThat one short friend,â and even though Yoojung says she hates it, she secretly loves the affirmation!
Yeoreum
Suki met Yeoreum at school and immediately befriended her. Yeoreum later said that the experience was like when a big dog runs up and jumps on you! Suki said she loved Yeoreum personality, even when she was quiet, and she knew she would be louder and crazier when they became closer! They also got to have a bunch of cute friendship moments on Queendom!
JiU
JiU was Sukiâs first leader and helped her through a lot of the time she spent in Korea. When Suki had become an official member of LOONA, the first person she called was JiU and she would not stop screaming! JiU will always support Suki in whatever she does and they have many cute moments at award shows and variety shows!
Yoohyeon
Yoohyeon and Suki were incredibly close during their time in MINX, they even shared a room! Everytime Suki came back to Korea, she would always check in on Yoohyeon and make sure they got to spend enough time together, even if her visit was short. JiU once said that having Suki and Yoohyeon together made her go crazy!
May
May and Suki had originally met at ISAC, accidently bumping into one another. May had apologized in Japanese accidently, but Suki loved her in an instant! They immediately became friends and Suki is the person May goes to if she has questions or wants Suki to tell her anything. Suki started calling her Giant Baby, and thatâs even what she is saved as in Sukiâs phone!
Despite how chaotic they are when separated, they have an incredibly calm relationship when their together. They share a lot of mutual friends such as the Dreamcatcher members and Ryujin, which gives them a lot in common! Heejin is the only one in Loona that actually calls Suki Sunbaenim (And Suki acts like she hates it, but she really thinks itâs funny!)
Hyunjin
Suki and Hyunjin may not have many moments together on screen, but off screen they are as close as possible! Suki thinks that Hyunjin is the funniest member in Loona, especially because of Mixnine (A show she watched to support her former members, Yes!). She loves watching her perform and always watches Hyunjin fancams to support her!
Gowon
Similar to how Godwin used to listen to Loonaâs songs before debut, Suki listened to One & Only on repeat every single day! She thought Chaewon was one of the prettiest people she had ever seen and is often caught staring at her during interviews. Suki and Chaewon have a calm relationship, but they compliment each other extremely well!
Choerry
Along with Chuu and Jinsoul, Choerry is Sukiâs cuddle bug! Whenever Suki was working late, Choerry would always stay up late and try to wait for her! (Even if she fell asleep most of the time!). Suki calls Choerry Cherry or Cher (Said as Chair) because she loves nicknames for everyone. Suki and Choerry have one of the cutest relationships in the group!
Olivia Hye
Hyejoo may seem cold towards Suki, but in reality she loves her. She loved not being referred to as the âMaknaeâ of Loona (In debut she, not real age). Suki definitely bugs hyejoo the most, but she will always âtolerateâ Sukiâs physical contact.
Yeojin
When Suki first moved into the dorms, she thought Yeojin was Haseuls little sister and was confused as to why she lived with them. She took care of her like she was family, but only realized she was a part of Loona when the filming for Hi High started!
Suki goes to see her sister and ends up auditioning for a company she had never even heard of
âAnd when we were touring, we had people from all over the world shouting out names! It was amazing!â Sana excitingly told her younger sister.
âI know! I was at your concert in Tokyo! You think I would miss it?â Suki asked, sharing the excited energy.
âI know you wouldnât miss it, but I wish you could have stayed long enough to say Hi to everyone! They missed you SO much!â
Suki smiles at Sana gesture, knowing that she was prone to make things more dramatic. âWell then itâs a good thing I get to see them today!â
Suki had a break off from filming and missed her sister so much! They used to be able to see each other everyday, but since Suki left Happyface, she hadnât come back!
âI KNOW!â Sana shouted, earning the two girls a few looks from people passing by. Luckily the two had masks on, so it unlikely they would be recognized. âThey canât wait to see you! I have been talking non stop about you!â Sana continued, talking in a normal tone this time.
Suki gave Sana if of her famous eye smiles before the pair turned into Twiceâs dorms. This would be only the second time Suki had been here, as the last time she was in Korea was in October of 2015. She also hadnât seen Sana for over a year, the longest they had ever been apart.
Sana turned the key, letting the two of them into the girls dorm.
âSUKI!â She heard someone shout before a body crashed into hers, shoving her against the door.
âNAYEON! WE ARE ALL EXCITED TO SEE SUKI! DONâT BREAK HER!â Jihyo scolded the oldest member. Nayeon pulled away from Suki just as Jihyo gave her a quick hug shoved her towards the living room.
âJihyo, have you seen myâŠ.SUKI!â Momo had the same reaction that Nayeon did, and immediately ran to give her a hug.
âGUYS! SUKIâS HERE!â
âSUKIâS HERE?â
âALREADY?â
âWHOâS THAT?â
Suki sighed at that last quip from Tzuyu, already knowing she would be attached to her within a minute.
âŠShe was right of course.
âSo, Suki. Are you going to watch out show tonight?â Jeongyeon asked, giving her a drink.
âYea, you should come! You havenât seen us perform in so long! You must have forgotten how good we are!â Chaeyoung said, excitedly.
âI could never forget! And of course Iâll come see you guys tonight! What time does the show start?â
Jihyo checked her calendar. âIt starts at 7, but we are the last group performing, so if youâre a bit late, itâs no big deal!â
Suki smiled at her. âThatâs good because Iâm meeting up with Yoohyeon later today!â
âThatâs great! I know how much youâve missed them!â Sana exclaimed, snuggling into Sukiâs side. âAre you going to see anyone else before you leave or do you not have time?â
âI have time, but they mostly donât. But I will stop by there dorm sometime before I leave!â
âWhat time are you meeting her at?â
â2.â
âSuki?â Jihyo asked.
âYeah?â
âYouâre meeting her in 5 minutes?â
ââŠShit.â
âŠ.
âIâm sorry I have to go, they just called a meeting right now and I canât skip it!â Yoohyeon said sadly when Suki arrived. They had planned to spend the rest of the day together, but Yoohyeon had been called into a meeting just a few minutes before the other girl had arrived.
âItâs no problem,â Suki said as she waved her off. âSince Iâm taking a break from acting now, Iâll be coming back a lot more!â
Yoohyeon quickly hugged the younger girl, âThank you! I owe you one!â
âNext time Iâm back, letâs plan a whole day together!â
Yoohyeon gave her a smile and a thumbs up before getting in her managers car. While Suki was disappointed she wouldnât get to spend more time with Yoohyeon, she wasnât going to waste her last full day in Korea.
She started walking the streets, finding herself taking the same path she would to school everyday. She saw the way everything had changed, even in the few years she was gone. It felt comfortable, even without the other girls.
Suki smiled fondly at the park she, Yoohyeon, and Yubin would pass on the way to school. The memories of them dancing in the practice rooms, sharing a room in the trainee dorm, and crying on each other when they were told they would be debuting.
But with all the good memories she had, the bad memories came back too. The hours spent practicing a routine making her body give off bruise after bruise, the managers telling her that she needed to stop eating to make herself more attractive, the costumes they had her wearing, despite only being 15 when she debuted!
While she was glad that they got to re-debut with a concept that suited them, Suki never felt like she could go back to that company. No matter how much they had changed, no matter how much she had changed, she couldnât bring herself to be in a place she lost that much respect for.
However, even with all of that, she loved performing and singing, especially with her members. She wondered if she would ever have the feeling again. If she would ever get to debut again. As much as she loved acting, her passion spread much further than that.
On her walk, she noticed a new company. It must have been established sometime after Suki had left Happyface. Naturally, she became curious of what it was and walked around to the front of the building. There she saw in company font, BLOCKBERRY CREATIVE.
Suki actually knew Blockberry, but only from talk. She knew they were Loonaâs company, a girl group centered around a lore that was built into their music videos and songs. Each member had debuted as a soloist and then in a sub unit before debut and it was rumored they would be officially debuting in the 2nd half of the year.
Strangely enough, they had an Open Audition sign in front of the building. Not big enough to attract a lot of attention, but not small enough to be ignored. She wondered if they were already preparing for a new girl group, but brushed it off and thought they were only looking for trainees.
She started walking past the building when she had a feeling. She still loved performing and knew she wouldnât get many chances after leaving South Korea, so she could either audition now or never audition.
Against her better judgement, she walked up to the company noticing the sign and saw that auditions ended at 5. She looked at her watch and noticed it was already 4:58!
She walked up to the company and saw the receptionist pointing towards a sign that said, âAuditions.â She bowed to the women and went to audition for a company she knew nothing about for a chance at debuting in a group she might have some control with.
The men at the 2nd desk handed her a form, which she filled out quickly and they told her to take a seat. Either everyone else had already auditioned or she was the only one, but either way the room was empty.
Suki looked around and started laughing, realizing that if she and Yoohyeon had been hanging out today, she wouldnât get the chance too audition. She wondered what Sana would think if she heard Suki was auditioning again.
AUDITIONING! She hadnât prepared anything beforehand and was basically coming into this to improvise. She thought back to her audition for Happyface, she had picked out the perfect song and had practiced her routine to the point that it was perfect. She had spent hours upon hours perfecting every little step to make sure everything was perfect.
Now, she was going in with nothing more than an impulse decision and whatever song she had in her repertoire. She wondered if she should do something more focused on her vocals or her rapping. She decided to do a rap she had memorized a while ago, due to the speed of it. She rapped the entire song for her first monthly evaluation and got her first A!
âSuki?â A man called from the door. âWeâre ready to see you now.â
She smiled up at him and followed him to the audition room. She saw 3 men sitting in front of her, seemingly watching her every move. Suki felt glad that this wasnât the first time she had auditioned, otherwise, that sight alone would make her regret everything.
âBefore we begin,â One of the men starts. âYou should be made aware that this is for a position in Loona, you will be debuting within the week, and you will be asked to perform a specific song that you will have to learn within the hour. If all of this is ok with you, we will continue.â
âItâs all ok.â
With those 3 words, she had unknowingly changed her entire future.
Iris, being the lead dancer of gidle, rarely found herself struggling with choreography. She was often the person the other members went to when they had struggles. She loved the choreography they had, even if it wasnât the most complicated, it was elegant and matched the song perfectly.
However, more recently, Iris found it harder to fully complete gidleâs choreographies. She had been falling behind due to a part of the chorus. She always worried about hurting her ankle worse than she had before, which made her become more cautious while performing Gidles dances.
After her surgery, Iris was scared that if she did end up debuting, the choreography would be too challenging for her to do. When she was given the task of choreographing for Gidleâs debut, it felt better because she could control what they were doing and make it easier for her.
However, Gidle seemed to have made enough money off their debut to hire an actual choreographer for their first comeback, one that didnât seem to take Irisâs condition in mind.
The choreography seemed easy on the surface, and it was, but the chorus itself made Iris fall into a lot of uncomfortable positions. With the main part of the chorus being the girls balancing on one foot (which just so happened to be her bad side!), Iris had no choice but to overwork herself to try and get it right.
So now instead of the normal tiredness she would be for a comeback, her leg was killing her from all the exercises she forced herself to do with it to try and make her leg stand the pressure. During one of those exercises, she actually hurt her leg enough to the point that her limp came back with double the pain she had before!
Of course, Iris would never tell her members this. She may be one of the youngest, but she was by no means seen as weak. Besides, all she has to do is hide it during the day and night and only be more careful during practices to make it not show.
However, this was easier said than done.
âIris, you keep falling out of this move,â Soojin told her, as she was correcting Gidleâs dancing. âI know itâs not the easiest, but you have to try and balance more.â
Iris nodded, bending over to catch her breath, something only their Maknae seemed to notice. Shuhua had been relying on Iris a lot more lately, so naturally she noticed the change in Irisâs behavior.
âAll right, letâs run in again!â
They all got into places for the start of their performance, and it started off well. It wasnât until the chorus when Iris felt herself stumble, trying to not put too much weight on her foot.
âOkay, Iris. I donât know whatâs wrong with you, but whatever is going on with you, you need to fix because itâs messing everyone else up!â Soyeon states, frustrated with the constant stopping and starting of rehearsals.
âHere Iris,â Yuqi says, trying to lift the mood. âYou go like this.â Yuqi was also a Lead Dancer, so she was another member that often got the choreography down faster.Â
âThe problem isnât that I donât know what to do, the problem is that I canât balance while doing the move!â
âHey donât get mad at Yuqi! Sheâs just trying to help! And itâs obvious that you need it!â Soyeon yells at Iris.
Iris glared at her leader. Soyeon had been one of the main people to help her when she had her surgery and she had always been understanding before. But something changed when Gidle debuted, something in Soyeon changed and it made Iris question if she was actually right for this.
âIf you think Iâm doing such a bad job, then you should learn to tell me nicer. I canât help it that sometimes, certain dance moves are harder to complete than others!â Iris started raising her voice at Soyeon, something the other 5 members seemed to take note of.
âTHEN MAYBE YOU SHOULD BE LEAVING THE HARD DANCING PARTS TO SOMEONE ELSE INSTEAD OF JUST RUINING IT FOR ALL OF US!â Soyeon yelled back at Iris.
âWELL MAYBE I COULD DO THE DANCE RIGHT IF IT DIDNâT HAVE TO BALANCE ON MY BAD LEG! DID YOU EVER THINK OF THAT OR DID YOU JUST ASSUME THAT ITâS EASY FOR ME WHEN ITâS EVER SO CLEARLY NOT!â And with that, Iris stormed out, leaving behind her group mates, stunned as to what she said.
Soyeon looked shocked, but underneath, she felt embarrassed. Iris obviously had been working hard, having always stayed late and taught the other members, so even if she was hurting, she didnât show it.
âGod youâre so insensitive, sometimes. Do you know that?â Shuhua asked Soyeon, speaking up for the first time the entire practice.
âShuhuas right,â Minnie adds, making everyone look to her. âIris has gone through a lot and she was struggling throughout the entire practice, but all you did was make her feel like shit over not being able to get it right!â
âWell, sheâs been practicing so much, she should have it right by now!â Soyeon said, trying to defend herself. However the looks from her members told her otherwise.
Shuhua shakes her head at their leader.
âHey Where are you going?â Miyeon asks the Maknae as she started heading towards the door.
âIâm going to make sure Iris unnie is alright, because she obviously doesnât want to talk to you,â points at Soyeon, âYou guys arenât close enough for her to like you right now,â points to Soojin and Minnie, âAnd you two are horrible at dealing with other peopleâs feelings,â Shuhua says pointing at Miyeon and Yuqi.
âIf anyone has a chance of getting an honest answer out of Iris, it is 100% me right now,â Shuhua says, matter of factly as she exits the practice room.
There was a silence amongst the members of Gidle. Not only had Iris actually gotten mad at them, but Shuhua was the one to comfort her instead of Soyeon or Yuqi. It felt strange to them.
âIâm not that bad at dealing with other peopleâs feelings,â Miyeon says, to no one in particular.
âYou definitely are!â Yuqi answers back.
âYouâre really bad at it!â Soyeon says.
âYes, you are.â Soojin states.
âWhat have you done that makes you think you are good at that?â Minnie asks.
âIâŠIâve..Iâm not horrible!â Miyeon yells, thankfully lifting the mood. Soyeon got out a small chuckle but it soon went away when she realized that Iris was genuinely mad at her, something that hadnât happened since they had met over 3 years ago! She just hoped that Shuhua would find her and make everything right again.
Shuhua knew Iris had certain places she liked to hide whenever she was upset. For example, normally she would go to her studio because she has lots of comfort items in there. However, since she wasnât there, Shuhua had to think about where Iris would go.
She probably wouldnât be in a place where thereâs a lot of people, but she also wouldnât go to a place she doesnât know. Shuhua realized she knew exactly where Iris would be and went to the training rooms at the other side of the floor.Â
Most of the trainee rooms were dead, but Shuhua knew exactly which one Iris would be in. The room that Iris referred to as âthe room where everything started,â aka the practice room where she met Soyeon for the first time.
Shuhua saw the door was cracked and slowly opened it, trying not to make too much noise. In there, she saw Iris unwrapping her foot. This wasnât uncommon for Iris, as she was always scared of hurting it again. However, what was unusual was the fact that her ankle was noticeably blue and purple and the fact that Iris seemed to be crying.
âYah! Whatâs wrong with you?â Shuhua asks Iris, rushing to examine her leg. Although unlike how she asked Soyeon earlier, she asked Iris with genuine concern.
Iris quickly wiped away her tears, âWhat are you doing here?â
âDo you really think I donât know where you go when youâre upset? I have known and lived with you for over a year now! I have picked up on your habits.â
âWell, Iâm fine. Itâs just a little bruising, it happens from time to time.â
Shuhua scoffs at that. âBruises happen from time to time, but these kinds of bruises only happen when youâre overworking yourself!â Shuhua then gets up and starts walking towards the door.
âWait! Where are you going? Youâre not going to tell anyone about this are you?â
Shuhua sighs and turns around to look at Iris. She knew that Iris was overworking herself and someone should know, but on the other hand, Iris looked like she was going to cry more if she told someone.
âIâm just going to get some ice. Iâll be back in a few minutes.â And with that, Shuhua left Iris alone again.
Iris breathed a sigh of relief before looking at her foot again. The damage was there and it wasnât going to be going away. She thought she could hold it off until promotions were done, but they hadnât even filmed the music video yet and she already felt like dying.
âWow,â Shuhua stated plainly, putting the ice she brought down on Irisâs foot.
âWhat?â
âI have never seen you look so defeated,â she said, with a hint of sadness in her tone. âI never realized that you were struggling this much. Why have you not talked to us about this?â
Iris sighed, leaning back against the wall. âI didnât want to be a burden. I already bring our group down so much in terms of vocals and popularity and personality, so I didnât want to bring us down in terms of dancing too!â
âYou are NOT a burden to us!â Soojin says, walking into the practice room followed by the other members.
âI thought I told you not to tell anyone!â Iris whisper-shouts at Shuhua.
âI didnât go out of my way to tell anyone! They just happened to see me coming here with ice and followed me,â The Maknae says, trying to defend herself.
âYou mean so much to us, I donât think we can even express it through words,â Yuqi says, cuddling into the side Shuhua wasnât currently on.
âYou are the entire reason all of us debuted! You convinced Cube to debut us as a 7 member group and took charge adding me into the group!â Miyeon added, sitting next to Yuqi. âAnd that has gone so incredibly well!â
Yuqi snorted, âThatâs debatable.â Miyeon slaps her head, but it was all in good fun. Soojin went to sit by Shuhua, who had moved to cuddle with Irisâs side.
Minnie sat down in front of her foot, putting a slight pressure on the ice. âOn top of being an amazing dancer and rapper, you also write almost all of our songs, plan our promotions, go to all the meetings that Soyeon doesnât want to go too, and you act like the 2nd leader.â
âWhich is good because sometimes the real leader is a pain in the butt,â Shuhua mumbles under her breath, although everyone heard her.
Soyeon, who was the only one that hadnât approached Iris yet, was standing in the middle of the room, looking at her feet. Iris could tell she felt guilty and it showed.
âSoyeon, come here!â Iris states firmly, leaving no room for discussion. Soyeon reluctantly approaches Iris, who grabs her hand and pulls her down to the floor. It wasnât until Iris had started hugging her that she fully broke down.
âIâm sorry!â Soyeon mumbles into Irisâs shoulder. The other members hadnât seen this much emotion from their leaders ever, let alone on the same day!
âI know.â
âI didnât mean for it to go this far! For anyone!â
Iris hugged her just the tiniest bit closer on that last part. She knew how much Soyeon was struggling to be a good leader for Gidle, but sometimes it was just too much for one person to handle.
She stayed holding Soyeon in silence while she let everything out. However, if you know anything about Gidle, you know how much they hate silence.
âSoâŠAre we just going to ignore the fact that Irisâs ankle is literally purple or is that not really important right now?â Yuqi asks, breaking the silence.
Iris laughs at her, glad that she seemed to be lifting the mood. âHonestly, whenever this happens, I just need to stay off of it for a few days and ice it. Sometimes it can just happen from me walking too much!â
âWell, youâre not walking anymore! I can carry you,â Minnie says, scooting in between Irisâs legs. âPut your legs around me, Iâll give you a piggyback!â
âCan you handle that?â
âYou donât weigh like anything!â
âIâm not concerned about my weight! Iâm concerned about you not being strong enough to carry a person!â
Minnie stands up, âAlright, I suggest we leave Iris here and go be a group of 6! Whoâs with me?â
Everyone laughed at Minnieâs statement and started getting ready to leave. Iris finished wrapping up her foot and Minnie helped her up and onto her back. Shuhua was still pretty mad at Soyeon, but she didnât seem to hate her as much as she had earlier. Soojin grabbed Irisâs stuff and followed out Yuqi and Miyeon as they started fighting about who could give someone a bruise like Irisâs faster.
As they went back to their dorm, Minnie stuck close with Iris, making sure she had water and food and anything else she might need. Since she was one of the youngest in the group, Minnie felt a need to protect her, even if they werenât super close. Iris smiled at Minnie, who hadnât left her side since they left the building.
âThank you, Minnie,â she says, quietly. Although, Minnie could easily hear her voice and hugged her close. âI just said thank you! That wasnât an invitation to hug me!â
âAnything is an invitation to hug you if you donât push me away fast enough!â Minnie says, as she curls closer to Iris. It was a nice gesture, even Iris had to admit. But that was not something she would admit out loud!
âHEY IRIS! IF SOMETHING SAYS MADE WITH GRAIN, DOES THAT MEAN ITâS GLUTEN FREE?â Yuqi yells from the kitchen.
There was a long pause as Minnie and Iris slowly looked up at each other.
â....Theyâre going to kill me, arenât they?â
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