Hello!! I saw that you had requests open and I wanted to make one!!
could you do headcanons or an imagine with an f/o who’s not exactly used to physical touch, but since they’ve started dating (Insert here), they’ve gotten more used to it and became a bit more touch starved than before? Thank you in advance! :)
Hello hello yes my requests are in fact open! Glad to have you here
→ Your f/o who isn't used to physical touch, they just haven't gotten it, they don't know how to give it, they don't really know what it entails when it comes to you
→ They haven't felt brave enough to bring up the whole thing with you, because, lets face it, that comes with a lot of baggage and they don't even know where to begin with a conversation like that. What are they supposed to say "hey I don't know how to touch you and what's ok, please draw me a map", yeah no way
→ But you get it, you can tell, you know that physical touch is difficult for them, but you know to be gentle. A touch on the hand when it's relevant, leaning next to them or on them when the two of you are sitting together, small things to start off slow. Seeing whether they are comfortable or not with it. When they don't shy away you make a mental note that this is a 'safe action', so to speak
→ They notice these things as well, how gentle you are with them, how much time and care you take with each touch, how it's deliberate and always lovingly. Maybe they're used to a rougher hand and are still trying to get it out of their head that you won't and never will hurt them. They know that, is just hard.
→ After a while you work your way up to more intimate touches, a hand on the hip, a caress on the cheek, maybe a hand on the thigh or the lower back, movement that's all about trust. And only ever done with love and complete affection. You worry the first time you try your f/o will shy away from you but they don't because they need it
→ That's the biggest thing about the touches, not that they don't shy away from them, but about how they realise just how much they need them now more than ever. Very quickly they've come to crave those soft touches, those loving holds, the way your hands are so kind on their skin, so gentle. They crave it, but still they can't ask for it
→ Somehow it's worse, when they felt nothing, and worse when the hands on their body were cruel. Not having you touch them makes them sad beyond description. So now they are finding more excuses to be near you, you to touch you and have you touch them. They stand close to you, so close in fact that your hips are touching, they hold your hand in public and in private, they guide you with their hand on your back hoping at some point you will return the gesture.
→ And one day, when it's been really hard, whether it was a hard day on the job, a hard day studying or just a long day without you around they come right up to you when the two of you are together again and they wrap their arms around you, enveloping you in a hug. And they whisper in your ear, something so soft and gentle you wonder if you even heard them right
→ "Please hold me" they ask you. And of course your heart breaks a little bit because they say it with such need and such sincerity. How could you ever say no to them. And you do, on the couch, in the kitchen, at the dining table, on your bed, wherever the two of you want to be you hold them and you keep them close. You don't let go, you stroke their hair and their skin. And you f/o practically melts into the touch, soaking up ever second of it
→ And if you try to stand up or walk away, even just for a second they are reaching for you again, grabbing you and trying to pull you back. Because at this point they can't live without your touch, and it's the only thing that makes everything alright because they love you and your touch so much
I was thinking very heavily about one of my own f/o's who is highly touch starved then I was writing this so I hope I did it justice for you. I hope you enjoy!