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[cnderyne]

《 Master list 》

this is just a masterlist of all my works and a short paragraph, which will be at the end of this post. my requests are open bc im bored and i like writing. i try to have accurate grammar while writing so ignore how this is in lowercase <3

The True Experiment

Summary: You visited Albedo, expecting the night to be like any other night, only to find out his true intentions 

Albedo x Reader

Warnings: Angst, Swearing

30/08/2021

Part Two: The Conclusion

Summary: Albedo discovers how he truly felt about you. Unfortunately, he was too late.

Warnings: Angst

31/08/2021

He Was Supposed To Be Yours

Summary: In a deterioratibng relationship, Kaeya looks towards someone else to love. 

Kaeya x Reader

Warnings: Angst, Cheating, Manipulation

17/09/2021

Part Two: Your Happy Ending.

Summary: You have your happy ending with Diluc. He was there to mend what Kaeya destroyed. It isnt the ending Kaeya wants.

Diluc x Reader

Warnings: Fluff, little angst, one swear

22/09/2021

Part Three: You Were Supposed To Be His

Summary: Someone was always watching you.

Diluc x Reader

Warnings: Little Angst to Fluff (w Diluc), Angst (w Kaeya), Stalking, Implied kidnapping ig, Kaeya being a bit crazy. Some swear words.

27/09/2021

Only ever a delusion

Summary: Falling in love with your best friend sucks, doesn’t it?

Eula x Reader

Warnings: Angst [Hurt/Comfort], Swearing

29/09/2021

I write for Genshin Impact but i will write for other fandoms. i write for both men and women (ily ganyu pls come home) I dont write smut bc im a #virgin and will keep it that way. i do use swearing so if you are uncomfortable with that then please do not read. i am also not v familiar w Tumblr but i promise i will get better at using it :D (if anyone knows how to do the "under the cut" thing, pls help)

[cnderyne]

Only ever a delusion

Summary: Falling in love with your best friend sucks, doesn’t it?

Pairing: Eula x Reader

Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort

Warnings: Angst, Swearing

Word Count: ~1,100

Italics are thoughts and speech in thoughts and bold text is used for emphasis

A/N: a little rant after the fic but you can ignore that.

Rumors are always just rumours to you. Of course you understand where they come to the conclusion that she is 'evil' or a 'villain'. Her family background, her clan, were oppressors. To you, it was unfathomable how she could be a villain when in your story, she is your love interest. By 'love interest', I am referring to your unrequited love and that she will never love you. 'Never say never' but you know you are only a friend to her. Her friend who would stay by her side, fight for her against the townspeople's prejudice and help her in her endeavours. 

You're getting sick of it. So sick of hiding your feelings for her. You even tried hiding it from yourself. 

She is only a friend. You love her platonically. Eula is just a friend… a really, really pretty friend. See, you only feel this way because you think she is pretty. It is purely attraction, get over it. You aren't in love with her or something. She can never and will never be more than a friend. Stop it. Just get rid of those feelings. 

You just couldn't help but fall in love with her. She is your exact type. Eula is elegant, strong (in physique and in mentality) and she is kind hearted once you truly get to know her. It is so hard loving someone you can't have. The worst part about your feelings: you can't bring yourself to become distant towards her, even if it may stop your feelings towards Eula.

Every night you lay in bed, under the warm covers, and imagine being with her. You imagine sitting in an open, quiet field with her. Eula is seated right next to you, looking up at the sky and trying to find pictures in the clouds. When she finds a picture she turns to you and exclaims:

"Look! Doesn't it look like Amber's bunny?" Her soft lips hold a gentle smile while a finger points at the cloud. 

"You're right Eula," You never turn to look at the cloud, the only thing you want to see is her. Copying her smile, you then tell her, "How pretty." 

A rosy tint covers her cheeks and nose. "The cloud or… me?" Her eyes are now directed at the ground and the red in her face is more apparent. 

Bringing a hand up to her cheek, you let out a hushed "You" and moved your head closer to hers. The wind's soft breeze encourages you on as your lips finally touch. 

It's all a delusion. It will only ever be a delusion. 

When you wake up after a peaceful dream about her, you cannot help but tear up a little. After all, it's apparent she will never feel the same way but you still want to tell her. The guilt of loving her eats you up. You feel horrible for having these feelings for her. It's like you are deceiving your best friend. So you decide to tell her. 

You tell her on a nice day. A day of celebration so maybe she won't be as cold as you know she will when she rejects you. After a successful mission that Jean gave to you and Eula, you express your feelings to her on the balcony of the Tavern. 

"Why did you tell me to meet you here? If it is for something trivial then I will have vengeance." She gives you a small smile to indicate she is only joking so you awkwardly chuckle at her words. 

Are my feelings trivial? She won't be angry at my feelings, right?

Eula notices your discomfort and moves closer to you to comfort you. "Are you okay? You look pale. Maybe it's better to go inside."

"No!" You abruptly exclaim. Now she is more worried. You never shout at her. "I just- I want to tell you here. I can't tell you inside." Eula slowly nods and allows you to continue. "So umm… Eula, if your friend likes you, what would you do?" 

"Someone likes me?" Your eyes widen and you assure her that this is a hypothetical. So she answers, "Well, I am not looking for a relationship so I would have to decline their feelings. Y/N. Do you like me by any chance?" 

Shit. I should have known she would catch on. Oh no. Oh no. Oh no. What should I do? 

"Y/N?" She brings a hand to arm and looks at you. It only hurts more. That's the look you imagine in your daydreams. "I must be wrong. You would never love me. It must be the wine."

"I love you."

"Excuse me?"

"Eula, I love you so much that I don't know what to do. I can't stop thinking about you and I can't not be your friend. It is impossible for me to push you away so all I can do is ask you to do it on your own." You knew you were going to cry but not this hard. The tears keep coming and it's hard to stop them. A hand is placed  onto your face. It is cold but it's soothing to your face. Eula swipes your tears away with her thumb and you hesitantly open your eyes. 

"Are you sure you want me to leave?"

A broken "no" escapes your lips. "Please. Please don't leave me. Stay." She brings you into a hug. The tears you kept up over the last months spilled out and onto her shoulder. You mumble apologies while grasping tightly onto her.

Please don't let this be a dream. Please keep holding me. Please stay. Please.  

"It's okay. I won't leave. I will never leave you." One hand is placed on your back while the other one strokes your hair. 

After what feels like 30 minutes you regain your composure and wipe the remaining tears and snot from your face. Eula asks if you are alright. "Yeah. Thank you for being there for me. It sucks that you don't feel the same."

"Who said that?"

"Excuse me?" Your eyes go wide and your mouth slightly opens. 

"Well I am not looking for a relationship but I can make an exception for you," she has a smirk on her face. "But I will make you regret making my shoulder wet–"

You cut her off by pulling her tightly into a hug. Once again, crying. 

"Oh dear. My partner is quite emotional." Eula giggles and returns your hug while slowly rocking you from side to side. "Y/N. Get it into your head that I will never leave you. Don't expect that from me. It's insulting."

You laugh at her and stay in Eula's arms for a long time. 

It's real. Now you can say that it is only ever a reality. 

To the person that read this before I posted it. This could be us but idk if I can distinguish platonic to romantic. ALSO YOU WERE SO BLIND TO MY FEELING BEFORE “(Y/N) I love you.” “Aww I love you too” 😐 AND YOU WERE SHOCKED WHEN I TOLD YOU A WHILE AFTER

[My Eula getting decked - colourised]

[cnderyne]

You Were Supposed To Be His

Summary: Someone was always watching you.

Part 3 of He Was Supposed To Be Yours

Part 2: Your Happy Ending

Genre: Tiny Angst to Fluff (w Diluc), Angst (w Kaeya)

Pairings: Diluc x Reader

Warnings: Stalking, Implied kidnapping ig, Kaeya being a bit crazy. Some swear words. All of this is after the second blue line.

Word Count: ~830

Thoughts are italics and words in bold are for emphasis

A/N: Kaeya is kinda far from canon 🧍‍♂️. Anyways, enjoy!

There was always a presence around you. Whether it was near or far. It was always around you and it was always unwanted.

"Diluc. I feel it again. It won't leave it. It won't ever leave." Your head hung low and your hands wrapped around to grip your arms, nails gripping the flesh under it.

"My love, I still don't understand what you mean. If it makes you feel any better, we can leave." You simply raised your head and that was enough for Diluc to put his hands over yours. He allowed you to release the grip you had on your arms and he helped to stand up. He then bent down to press a kiss to your forehead and walked you out of the establishment you were in.

Once you got some fresh air, you felt better. A lot better. Especially with Diluc there. He hung an arm loosely around you that held onto the small of your back to keep you walking in front of him. To protect you. However, that feeling didn't stop. As you two travelled, you felt the presence disappear as you focused on making idle conversations with Diluc. It was something he hated but he learned to deal with it as he got to hear your soothing and almost hypnotic voice.

As you both approached your house, Diluc began to return his arm to his side and when you got to the doorstep, he was about to say his farewells.

"Wait! Do you mind if you stay the night? I just really need the company." His lips rose into a tender smile and he accepted your request. Although he wasn't able to wrap his head around what has made you so bothered for the last few days, he knew you needed comfort and he provided exactly that.

It was almost everyday that he slept over. After his (k)nightly duties, he would make sure you are comfortable and safe. He soon suggested that you move into his manor and needless to say, you were ecstatic about his request.

You felt more comfortable than ever. The maids were so nice (they still are!). You were and are happier than ever. You tried to help the maids with their work but they frantically took the wet rag from your hand and told you to relax. Diluc suggested you could look after the affairs in the manor to take a load of work off his back and you agreed. Life at the Mansion was serene

Life wasn't serene for him though. Everyday he watched over you. Everyday he made sure you were safe.

Everyday he protected you from dangers. YET EVERYDAY YOU WERE WITH HIM. How DARE you be so UNGRATEFUL! The blue headed man was seething with rage. An emotion that was forgein to him. You were his. You are his.

Nausea fills him whenever he sees you with his bastard of a brother. He despises seeing you with him. With your hand around Diluc's arm. Your bright, loving smile aimed at him. All of that was supposed to be Kaeya's. Well, it was his. But he really wants it back.

The only time he got to see you alone was when you were at your house. Oh how breathtaking you were. Every night, he snuck onto your balcony to watch you fall asleep. He had to make sure you were safe after all.

“You will return back into my arms soon. I promise you.” He brought a hand to the window, water condensating on the other side of the window. His lips grew into a malignant smile while he watched you get ready for the night.

He was planning to get you soon... If his brother didn’t get to you first. He never saw you in your house anymore. He never saw you in the bar. He never even saw you in Mondstadt anymore! He couldn't deal with the pain of losing you. He wanted his partner back. He wanted the person who would do anything for him back. He wanted his doll back. Why? Why did you have to go to him? Kaeya is better. He has to be better than that fatherless child. Why Diluc?

I was first. I was first. I was first. I was first! He glared at the piece of paper on his desk. The murderous aura surrounding him grew every time the phrase repeated. I WAS FIRST TO LOVE YOU! He slammed his fists on the desk and rose from his seat. People surrounding him gasp at this erratic behaviour. Realising his mistake, he immediately put on his normal smile and said, "The hilichurls are becoming a huge problem," to defuse the situation. He was going insane without you.

No matter how much Kaeya wanted you, he never got you. You were happy with Diluc. Kaeya never got you and you still regret that he ever had you.

[cnderyne]

Your Happy Ending.

Summary: You have your happy ending with Diluc. He was there to mend what Kaeya destroyed. It isnt the ending Kaeya wants.

Part 2 of He Was Supposed To Be Yours.

Part 3: You Were Supposed To Be His

Genre: fluff and a bit of angst.

Pairing: Diluc x Reader (fluff) Kaeya x Reader (angst and very little of the pair)

Warnings: like one swear word and it is kinda long

Word Count: 1,325

A/N: Thank you @reveltica for requesting a part 2 and thank you @imnikki for the idea :D. I... may have went a bit to overboard on the relationship with Diluc so no jealous Kaeya is in this but I promise I will do a part 3 of this v soon. I also changed the title of part 1 to 2nd person bc it really didnt fit. Anyways, thank you for reading <33

You never actually had such a malicious intention to break Kaeya using his brother and you still don't. Even through all the torment and emotionally abusive things Kaeya has done to you, using an innocent person is unfathomable to you. Diluc managed to hurt Kaeya because he wanted to court you. I'll give an overview of how you got to the point of a relationship. 

After you saw what Kaeya did, you avoided him. There was no dramatic fight nor was there any confrontation about what you witnessed. He just… stopped being in your life. Of course you needed to let him know you guys were over so you opted to just send him a letter that you wrote while drinking at Angel's Share. 

Dear Kaeya,

I knew you never wanted me so I will let you go. I hope you are happier with Traveler. 

Y/N xx

Those kisses were meaningless and you hoped he would see the humour in that last sentence. Tears still welled up as you wrote that. Emotions were hard to get rid off after all. Diluc saw this. Everytime you entered the Tavern, his eyes lingered on your graceful figure but always lowered his gaze whenever you would run into Kaeya's arms. Diluc was conflicted at the time. How dare he hold feelings for you while his brother held you. That feeling never left after seeing you hiding from Kaeya whenever you were both in the bar. I mean, you were his brother's ex. Oh but how he wanted to indulge in a relationship with you. 

That all changed one week. Kaeya was out on a mission for a week so you allowed yourself to meander around Mondstadt with finally a genuine smile on your glowing face. The townspeople, who knew of the situation, were affected by your change in mood and soon, the whole town of Mondstadt shared a similar feeling. 

A night alone at your house felt lovely but now you could roam around, so you decided to go to the tavern to waste all your money on alcohol. You seated yourself at the bar so you could get your drinks quicker. This was something you never did and Diluc realised that. He was aware of his brother's absence and was rather grateful because he got to see the gorgeous smile you rarely showed after the break up. It really suited your face and he couldn't help but fall for you again. This time there weren't any problems with his feelings. 

"Hi Diluc! May I have a glass of dandelion wine?" Your energetic voice filled his ears, soothing him like a melody Venti would play. You noticed his… dazed look so you called out to him. His eyes widened a bit and began to process your request.

"Sorry. Let me get that for you." When he turned to prepare your drink, a dust of pink covered his cheeks. Diluc gave you the drink, with a bit of fumbling. You took a sip of the wine and the refreshing taste cleansed your palate. The drink dwindled and but there was still a craving for more. After a lot few glasses, your speech started to slightly slur and you that familiar lightheaded feeling comes that happenes everytime you drink. However, there is warmth surrounding you instead of that empty and icy feeling that always hurts.

"Aaah Diluc, your drinks are always the best. You're just what I need," you looked up at him and was met with an averted gaze on flustered face. You continued to praise him, "Diluc, I am being serious. I really like being around you. It makes me feel so warm and comforting. Are you my panacea or something?"

"I-I think you've drunk a bit too much." Diluc slipped the glass out of your grasp and placed it behind him, while you were frowning and holding his arm to get it back.

"Please let me have one more drink," You begged and gave his arm a little squeeze. This resulted in you stating, "Oh my! How big are your muscles? Sheesh, you're so strong!" An innocently intended question made Diluc jolt his arm back and the colour of his faced matched his hair. Startled by his sudden movements you immediately apologised. You may have been drunk but you still knew when you messed up.

"It's not your fault. I was just... surprised what you said and if you keep drinking, you won't be able to walk back home."

"Then you can walk me home. If that is okay with you that is." He informed you that it will be really late by the time he can walk you home. You responded with, "It's okay. I can wait for you."

And so, you and Diluc got closer than ever. The conversations shared that night flowed with ease.

The walk home was filled with laughter and subtle glances. The night air felt uncomfortable on your skin as goosebumps were raised to keep your body warm despite Diluc feeling like a portable heater next to you. Diluc saw your hands rubbing your bare arms in attempt to gain heat so he plopped his large coat onto you. The smell of alcohol and sweat invaded your senses but it wasn't as bad of a smell as you would think. You nestled into the oversized coat and wished you could stay in it forever.

"My apologies that it doesn't smell good."

"Don't worry about it. It smells homely and your coat is really comfy." He let out a light chuckle and you continued the conversation.

You told him the story of how you once got your ass handed to you by a whopper flower. An embarrassing yet humorous tale. The dim street lights eluminated Diluc's face to bless your eyes with his tender smile, obviously smiling at your ridiculous telling of the story. In return, he told you “one of many” stories he has about things that happened while he was working at the Tavern. As that story came to a close, you were at the doorstep of you house.

"Thank you for walking me home! I had a lovely time with you today. Here is your coat back." Taking it off, your body was exposed to the chilling air, which made you shiver slightly. It was a shame you had to take it off. It was really fun to wear.

"I hope it was able to keep you warm," Diluc took it into his hands and put the coat back on him. "If it is okay with you, can I take you on a date?"

"Only if you give me a hug." You attempted to be playful only resulted in you wanting to die of embarrassment more than when you told that story. However, Diluc immediately embraced you. He didn't want to miss the opportunity to hug you and get a date with you. The hug was unlike any other. You relaxed into his hug absorbing the heat he emitted. His hand was carefully placed your waist and the back of your head. He curled up around you and held you close, as if you were about to leave him for good. You decided that the hug would definitely happen again.

His embrace weakened but was still unwilling to let go. Soon after, he withdrew himself from the hug. "I'll pick you up at 6." With that, he walked away.

Despite how reserved he is, Diluc was very good company that night. He was also very good company for the following days that soon turned into weeks.

You hopelessly and utterly fell for the red head that brought you the company you craved. Unlike how you begged Kaeya for attention, with Diluc, it felt healthy. It felt right. You got your happy ending with Diluc and you are happier than ever with him.

However, Kaeya found out that you and Diluc. Needless to say, he wanted his "doll" back.

[cnderyne]

He Was Supposed To Be Yours.

Summary: In a deteriorating relationship, Kaeya looks towards someone else to love. 

Part Two: Your Happy Ending.

Part Three: You Were Supposed To Be His

Genre: Angst

Pairings: Kaeya x Reader, Kaeya x Traveler

Warnings: Cheating, Manipulation, Very messed up tenses. 

Pronouns for you and Traveler are neutral so you can imagine which sibling <3 

(Idk if its Traveler or Traveller)

Word Count: 877

A/N: I wanted to write another angst fic but about being the "second person" but you were first because I know that feeling well :D. Anyways, please let me know if you don't like how I included a narrative voice type of thing. Also, send in some requests bc I like writing but I have no creative juices or ideas.

Being someone's fool is never fun. The mere thought of only being entertainment for someone makes my skin crawl, even if I've experienced it before. Despite knowing he would only use you, you clung to him in such a desperate and pathetic attempt to keep him when the relationship was going stale. What was worse was that he enjoyed it. He basked in the attention and you just kept giving it to him. So only you can have him. 

What could get worse in a toxic relationship like this? 

I think it's finding out he was cheating. I pity you, truly. 

You caught him talking, hugging and staring at Traveler. It was the same gaze he had for you at the start of your relationship. It was the gaze you craved for when he looked at you now. However, I know you were convincing yourself that they are just colleagues, friends at most. But they are not. You might have caught on by the way he talks about them.

"Oh! Traveler?, you've got nothing to worry about dear," what happened to 'Love'? He always called you 'Love'. Did his change in pet names occur because of Traveller?  Perhaps you're looking too much into this. At least hear Kaeya out. You have known him for years. He wouldn't do that. After all, he loves you. "I am just helping them around the town. You know they are new. How would you feel being in a random town with no one to help you." But they have Amber, don't they? Traveler doesn't need Kaeya's help. They are strong, kind and "beautiful", as Kaeya always puts it. He loves to compliment them around you. Traveler is everything you are not. But if Kaeya says that he is just supporting them, then he is. They are only friends. Kaeya can have friends. Are you one of those people that controls who your partner hangs out with? You're better than that and as Kaeya said, you have nothing to worry about. 

Until you coincidentally saw them drinking together at the bar. You invited Hu Tao out for a night out. She was in Mondstadt for business but when you heard that she was around, you wanted to just drink, catch up with an old friend and to relax as stress makes your skin break out and you had to look your best for Kaeya. Well I guess you are going to break out anyways. 

"Hey, Y/N, isn't that your boyfriend? Why is he with Traveler?" Hu Tao asked in her usual bubbly yet unsettling voice. However, you were more intrigued as to how she knew them, so you asked about it. 

"Traveler is like Liyue's hero! They stopped a giant sea monster. I guess you haven't heard." Wow, they really are better than you. She went on to praise Traveler further, much to your dismay. However, as she continued to speak, she was a bit too loud, which caught the attention of the pair.  

You didn't dare to talk, in fear you would say something you would regret. You just allowed silence to fill up between the four of you. Hu Tao had her signature bright smile plastered on her face, cluelessly waiting for someone to talk. So was Traveler but they didn't bother to smile. What was your expression? Were you upset? Infuriated that he went on a date with them? Could you even call it a date? Well whatever face you made, it sure made Kaeya pleased, evident by the god forsaken smirk he does when you've entertained him. That was enough to make you grab Hu Tao's hand and drag her upstairs. Your night was ruined. 

A few days passed and you were growing restless. Not a word was heard from Kaeya and you had no one to confide in. You felt alone. A feeling you desperately avoided. You needed to know what Kaeya was doing. I mean, you think he is cheating on you. He is with Traveler all the time. "Helping" them. You knew what you needed to do to get some sort of closure. 

This time it wasn't a coincidental encounter. Well, you didn't really "meet" them. They didn't see you. But you saw them. You heard them. They were in the middle of a conversation. 

"Traveler. Do you have to go to Inazuma?" Kaeya's tone was low but clearly presented his sadness. Their reply was a quick yes, so he responded with, "It's safer in Mondstadt. You might get killed!"

"I must find my sibling." 

"But what about us? Traveler, I love you." Kaeya was growing irritated at Traveler's disinterest. "Did all the time we spent together, all the things we did, mean nothing to you?"

"Was it supposed to mean something?" Was the only response Traveler could say before Kaeya stormed off. Despite your hatred towards Traveler, what they said was amusing. Well Y/N, you got closure. Now Kaeya is only yours. He can't go to them. They don't care about Kaeya. Did you get the result you wanted? Are you happy knowing that Kaeya was able to fall in love with someone else? However, what did Kaeya mean by "the things we did"? 

Should you stay with him? Or does his brother look tempting? 

[cnderyne]

The Conclusion

Summary: Albedo discovers how he truly felt about you. Unfortunately, he was too late.

Part 2 of The True Experiment

Warnings: Angst

Word count: 726

A/N: @ukoru14 requested part two so I wrote it. I hate the name "The True Experiment" but in my defence, I wrote the story on a whim and it was like 2am.  

The story is from Albedos POV and I tried keeping it as gender neutral as possible. Also sorry if the tenses are a bit skewed. 

Love, hate, happiness, sadness. He thought he couldn't feel strong emotions. He told himself as much. If he couldn't, then why does he miss them so much?

Albedo thought that letting them find out that he was experimenting on them was for the best. I mean, now he doesn't have to listen to them talk about how much they hated climbing the mountain to see him. He doesn't have to put on an act in front of them. He could now be left alone to his experiments and drawings. He should feel glad that his experiment was a success and he should be relieved that he doesn't have to be around that person that is as annoying as a whooperflower. 

But… whenever he sees them in Mondstadt, laughing at a idiotic joke Kaeya made, he feels a heavy drop inside of him. Something in his chest has been tightening and has only been getting worse. He makes frequent visits to Mondstadt. For work. For them. He never did that when he was with them. Now that he goes to Mondstadt, he sees them a lot more. There are small glances passed between them. Despite Albedo's research into human emotions, he can never figure out whether it's resentment or sadness that is held in their eyes. When they have to converse, it's normally filled with awkwardness and a bit of spite from them. However, he understands. He hurt them and he feels bad that he did.  

It's hard to explain how he feels, not even he knows how he feels. However, he knows it hurts when he sees them. Frequent visits to Barbara and tests he has done on himself has confirmed that he is not indeed hurt physically but when he looks at past drawings he made of them, Albedo wants to tear it apart. It irritates him that the drawings do not capture their beauty or perfectly reflect them, which makes his heart ache more. Even now, he can't stop drawing them in fear that he may lose his idealistic image of them he can no longer see, although he hates that he can't stop thinking about them. It is incomprehensible as to where this pain and frustration is coming from. So naturally, he visits Lisa. 

"It seems that you truly love them and regret the pain you have caused them," Lisa says in response to him telling her how he feels after berating Albedo for hurting them. "I'm also assuming you feel jealous due to how close they've gotten to Kaeya. Am I correct?"

No response comes from Albedo. After a while of silence, Lisa goes back to organising the returned books as she lets him evaluate his feelings. 

Albedo leaves the library shortly after to go back to his office and through the window, he sees them. He sees them with Kaeya. They are looking at Kaeya the way they used to look at him. Oh how he loved when they looked at him like that. They looked so angelic with their red cheeks and nose. Even when they hate the cold, they still came to see him. He misses the way their eyes would light up when they saw him with a big smile plastered on their face. He misses the moments where they sat on his lap waiting for him to be finished with paperwork. They were so patient with him.

He misses you. He wishes he never let you find out about the experiment. He moved the report to his office at Mondstadt a while back. He somehow got emotional whenever he saw it. But at the worst moment, when he realises that he feels guilty for hurting you, it's there. The pages haunt him. He wants to burn them along with his sketchbook with breathtaking drawings of you but they hold memories of the relationship. Memories he would have forgotten if he didn't have them. He wants to help you feel better but the people who hurt you can't heal you. It's not the way it works and he knows that.

Perhaps he can feel emotions. He just didn't know what they were. The love he held and will always hold for you was figured out a report too late. Albedo may only look back at the experiment and think about what could have been but never can be.

[cnderyne]

The True Experiment 

Summary: You visited Albedo, expecting the night to be like any other night, only to find out his true intentions 

The second part: The Conclusion

Warnings: Angst and Swearing. 

Word Count: 925 

A/N: I'm not really sure if anyone would read this but this scenario has been on my mind for a while. Idk if it's any good but happy reading <3 

You were fortunate. For the Pyro Vision at least. Less fortunate for the events about to transpire. The air in Drangonspine felt... colder than normal. It was a battle to venture up that mountain, with your boots soaked and lips blue. However, you could deal with it. Not because you had 5 layers of clothes on that boiled you alive while in Mondstadt with an extra pair of shoes in your inventory. Or even the Pyro vision that allowed you to light fires to rest and warm up. Instead, you travelled this dangerous path as frequently as you could to meet your perfect boyfriend. It was a pity he was rarely ever in Mondstadt despite being the chief alchemist. 

"Oh well, I can complain to him when i get there." You said under your breath while lighting a fire. The muscles in your body were starting to tense up and you didn't feel like doing some parkour to cross the destroyed bridge just yet. To pass the time, you decided to reminisce about past meetings with Albedo. 

Kaeya was the one who introduced him to you. You had picked some mist flowers and used it to treat your burns from fighting hilichurls. Kaeya was shocked when you told him your tale and immediately brought you to Albedo, who was working. He was courteous and cordial but only focused on his research after the initial greeting. The only time he looked up from his desk was when you spoke. His eyes lit up and muttered something about a perfect subject. He seemed to be interested in the mist flower. You had further encounters and rather quickly, mutual feelings bloomed. Now you two were dating. 

Watching the fire die into embers, you decided to continue on travelling as the sun was about to set. 

You finally reached the camp with a big smile on your face and saw him. Archons, Albedo looked radiant under the dimly lit lamp, writing away at whatever his new experiment was. The pen glided along the page with vigour but still remained graceful and fluent. He was and will always be beautiful. 

Deciding to surprise him, you carefully crept towards him. Those training routines really did pay off. You were about to slam your hands down on his shoulders when you saw what he was writing.

Experiment 1203 

Subject: Y/N L/N

Their feelings are stronger than anticipated. Whenever the subject is free, they come to Dragonspine and talk about their day or gossip. Although it's annoying, I will continue to listen to further develop their "love" for me. That is the aim of the experiment after all. 

"I know you're behind me," Albedo said bluntly. Rage began to cloud your mind and disgust began to slither around you. "How much did you read?"

"What the fuck is this Albedo!" You knew what it was. You just couldn't believe he would do that. 

"These are research papers for the experiment I conducted on you. Would you like to read it?" Your heart stopped. It was hard enough to realise he was using you as a test. 

"HOW CRUEL CAN YOU BE? WHY WOULD YOU EVEN SUGGEST THAT?" Tears were so close to falling from your face. 

"I thought you would like to read more about how I made you fall in love with me but I made the wrong assumption. I will include that in the report," You stood there, dumbfounded while he continued to write. "If you have nothing useful to say then you can leave. The experiment is over as you have found out."

"I know you are made of fucking chalk but Archons, I didn't know your master forgot to give you a heart while creating a pathetic bitch like you," The movement of his pen came to a hault but he never looked at you. "After all that time together, did you ever love me?"

"No. I'm incapable of that and just so you know, you were a great subject. It was so fascinating to diminish an esteemed knight into someone who would do anything for me."

"You are revolting," You could not stop the tears from falling. Albedo was your whole world. It is still unfathomable to you how he could do that. "I did everything for you but to know that you thrived off of feeling powerful makes me sick." 

He never said anything to you. He just kept staring down at the report. At least he wasn't writing. You resisted the urge to get violent with him, no matter how much you wanted to punch him right on that star. 

"It is so clear to me now why your master left you. He knew he created a monster. At least he knew when to stop things, too bad he forgot to stop your heart before leaving. Perhaps if you acted like chalk and dissolved in water he would come back."

"Shut up."

"Oh my! Were you hurt by that? I figured that master of yours would be a weak spot," he looked at me as I said that. "Finally showing your cowardice face? I really do hope you try to destroy Mondstadt. It gives me all the more reason to kill an abomination like you."

With that, you left. Your heart was shattered and your boots still soaked. You tried convincing yourself that you were more angry about the walk home than what had just happened but you were lying to yourself. 

Just as Albedo was when he said that he didn't love you.