give me my flowers.

possessed by ghost. private writing blog. . closed. est. 2022.

[atgvnpoint]

Too bad they were in public right now because Ludo had a certain way of doing things to Benji that he couldn't even explain. Maybe it was the fact that they were in a very fresh relationship, and it was normal to want the other all the time, but hell, how could just some words make him incredibly weak? Playfully, Benji narrowed his eyes at his boyfriend when he was pulled by his wrist. Oh, he tried so hard not to let his longing and amusement show, but Benji's expression changed way too quickly into a smug little smirk. ❝If you continue, I will drag you to the next best public bathroom, we don't want this to happen, do we?❞ he winked a bit before they tried to switch their conversation again to make sure they would not ravage each other on the spot. But it was definitely harder than expected. Benji felt his heart flutter a little upon hearing that Ludovic didn't have much fun with others anymore. Maybe he shouldn't be too happy about it, but deep inside, he had to admit that he was happy about it. Because it only meant that he occupied Ludovic's mind just as much as Ludo occupied his. ❝I like the sound of that. Forever. Because I feel the same. I've waited for you. Now I know that I've waited for you and no one else.❞ He looked into those hazel eyes while a smile stretched onto his lips. It didn't take long for Benji to burst out laughing again. ❝Sure, we will go to the volleyball date naked, but only if it is just us, because I don't want anyone else to see your naked glory.❞ The young man sounded way too amused, but at the same time. He took Ludovic's hand in his own and lifted it enough to place a kiss on the other man's palm. ❝You will volunteer as my coffee now? That's very brave of you, Babe. You are very confident in your appetite not dying at some point, huh?❞  

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we don't want this to happen, do we? -- did benny really ask him this? fucking in a public restroom, where people can hear? but who said they needed to be loud. "drag me, bebe. not like i'll say no and stop you. if it were for me, we wouldn't even make it inside the stalls." smirking, hazel hues falling to benny's lips, taking the bottom lip between his teeth, tugging at the plumpy carnage; teasingly slow. moving back slightly after, no man has ever made him feel this way. completely smitten, in love; he didn't want it to end. "you have no idea how bad i want you right now. the only thing stopping me is being out in public. if we weren't, i'd have you in all different positions moaning my name." even the thought of that had ludo already getting hard. "besides, you look so tempting right now." swallowing the knot in his throat, benny's handsome beauty is pure perfection, an angel in ludo's eyes. who would've thought he'd make angels moan. "no one could ever had my heart the way you do." benny is now the proud owner. ludo took benny's hand resting it against his chest, his heart beating just for him. he hoped, no prayed, that he'll always make him laugh; like now. no smile or laughter made him feel such immense joy. "the volleyball date is just another excuse to fuck you out on the court or beach sand. but you are right baby, i'd hate it if anyone saw you naked. take what happened back at the hotel, i lost it." however, the kiss on his palm made him more erect, bulge noticeable through his pants. "i'll volunteer in anything as long as you're in it. i'd be your coffee, i'd be anything." grabbing benny's waist, pulling him more against him to hide his bulge that probably the other felt right away. "i won't die any time soon, could you ever imagine life without me? because i know i wouldn't. and let me add that i'm hard as bricks right now."

[atgvnpoint]

Benji didn't feel uncomfortable with Ludovic around, but the fact that the other was barely dressed made him feel a certain way. He shouldn't look at the other too much. Would he make his interest known too much when he looked for longer than two seconds? Benji pulled his legs closer to his body and wrapped his arms around them as soon as the captain sat down next to him. A hum fell from his lips while he rested his cheek on his knees. Yes, he felt sorry for Scout. The other went through so much trouble, and now Benji was here and couldn't even write him that he couldn't make it. ❝It's okay. I just feel like an asshole because I cannot tell him that I can't make it. Maybe whoever has my phone now will do it for me. It would only be fair.❞ Benji rolled his eyes a little as he turned his head to put his chin on his knees.

Nervously, he started playing with his fingers even though he tried to keep his mind and body under full control. Yet, how was he supposed to when fucking Ludovic was next to him, half naked? ❝You don't have to be sorry. I got where you were coming from, and I am new to the team, so there is a lot for me to learn. I saw you playing before; your jumps are usually good; you just seemed distracted today. Maybe stressed? I don't know.❞ The young man shrugged a little. ❝It's been my dream for a while to get into the team. It probably made me a little sensitive.❞ Slowly, he turned his head again to look at Ludovic from the corners of his eyes. Being told that he wasn't hated was one thing, but being called perfect and hearing the reveal that Ludovic wanted to kiss him made his eyes widen, and the tips of his ears flared up in a bright red. ❝I--- uhm---- really?❞ Great, what a great way to go about it, Benji. Get it together. ❝Same. I mean. When I get nervous, I tend to do very embarrassing stuff like tripping for some reason. I tripped because I tried to be cool around you and impress you. As my clothes did not…impress. Stupid. I know…I know…❞

[cnlykills]

ludo's laughter echoed about the locker room hearing benny wish someone would send a text to scout about what happened. no one is nice enough to do that. "still have hope. hate to break it to you benny but i highly doubt anyone will send your date anything." though they sat next to each other, at least one of them had clothes on, how lucky. with the towel barely hanging around his waist, he nodded as benny sat next to him in a fetal position, cheek resting aganist his knees. "how ever which way it goes, hope scout understands shit happens. this happened, out of our control. maybe now you'll see me in a different light, something good has to come out of this right?" either they leave out of here on good terms or they continue on with their toxicity. "so far, we haven't argued. yet. that's a good sign isn't it?" he asked hazel hues staring at benny, like he always had -- his new obsession.

"distraction, yeah you can say that. i've always had my head in the game. doesn't matter if it's a tournament or practice. i personally didn't like today. my mind was elsewhere." he admitted. ludo's mind was on that date benny had with scout. in just a short matter of time, he'd seen how close they became. and now they might be potentially dating but not only that, ludo fucked up that one moment at the beach and has been beating himself up for that ever since. looking away from the other momentarily as he fidgeted with fingers. "as a captain i'm not suppose to make anyone feel unwelcome or uncomfortable. that's on me. i didn't know how passionate you were about joining the team. you thought i was stressed earlier, it's much more than that." though ludovic finally made it know as to why things have been out of balance lately, benny seemed like he didn't care much for what he's just confessed. this was a lot for ludovic and probably not a good decision. all things might go here moving forward. "i liked what you wore, usually i pay no mind to anyone's wardrobe. i pay attention to other things instead. like you tripping and falling right on top of me. the way your curls moved when the blew, your eyes widening, the way your lips were slightly parted. or the way your skin looked at night, how warm you felt." he said these words with a smile on his face, ludovic thought he might look stupid right now. that night at the beach is the only good memory he liked most. "you don't have to impress me with what your wear." looking over at benny. "i appreciate the effort though, you looked delicious." being a little flirty right now, a grin curled at the corner of his mouth as he leaned closer to his crush. "guess we were stupid. but i gotta ask, if i kissed you now what will you do? slap me or give in. i'd very much want to have that night at beach again, if can go back i would." words a slight whispers, his face near benny's mentally counting each freckle, admiring the mole over his upper lip, his ocean blue eyes that told him more than what benny verbally said out loud. the more his lips got near benny's he can feel his heart racing. the setting and timing was off but this was his only once chance, no distractions, no scout, no date. just them. slowly, effortlessly, ludo caught benny's mouth and fuck did he taste so good.

[atgvnpoint]

Noel couldn't believe that everything was over now, but he had to admit that he felt relieved. Not for his own sake, because he's been here by Amaru's side for a long time now, but for Amaru. The man suffered for way too long, and his heart was broken into pieces. It would take a long time for Noel to fix it again, but he had the patience to do so. Their kiss made his muscles relax pleasantly, and even a little smile appeared on his lips just when the kiss broke. Playfully, Noel nudged the tip of his nose against Amaru's while he massaged the other man's scalp gently with his fingertips. Noel couldn't even explain how nice it feels to have his heart flutter against his chest like that. A low chuckle fell from his lips, and Noel shook his head just so slightly. ❝I won't take this last chance, handsome. I want to be with you. No matter where in this world.❞ Their lips met once again for a kiss, and Noel wrapped his arms around the other man's neck while pressing their bodies together. ❝I already feel bad for you because you have to handle all the language issues until you teach me how to survive on crumbs of language skills.❞ Noel joked between kisses. ❝But we need to behave, or you want us to leave the wedding?❞

[cnlykills]

with the dark ages put behind him amaru didn't want to admit out loud how scared he is internally for the road ahead. their relationship is brand new, there were small thoughts of experiencing heart break again just after it's starting to slowly mend itself. but another part of himself thought he's just being ridiculous. his boyfriend hasn't shown any signs or red flags, even before when they were just friends. they shared a common interest then, wanting the downfall of two people. after their kiss, noel's fingers massaged his scalp in such a tender way, he felt sweet sensation travel down his back and into his loins. not the best thing to feel when they were among family and friends. "oh, well in that case. you'll move in with me after today and got two flight tickets but first it's a detour." amaru remained vague about this little detour but he had been very discreet of this little "honey moon" of theirs. he figured after everything he's caused, finally, happiness and love awaited him. another kiss was exchanged, this one really had his cock wake up. damn. tugging his boyfriend closer until he is glued and pinned against him -- amaru smiled, dark hues beaming with happiness. "that's no problem to me, generally, when people want to learn a new language they always start out with the cuss words." moaning slightly between the kisses. "technically i came here to squash some beef with the grooms, that task is complete. i wouldn't mind ditching the wedding and escape with you. in the end babe, i got what i wanted. you."

[cnlykills]

bro idk what's going on with this blog and the notifications ???

[pretendurgod]

[cnlykills]

HEADCANON — Ludo w Benny

— Ludo loves watching Benny while he sleeps and loves the sounds he makes, the soft snore or mumbling words or his name. — Ludo has picked up gardening, likes doing so without the shirt and his excuse is bcs of the heat. However he likes doing it bcs he knows Benny sees him through the window with pp face next to him, meowing whatever in cat language. Maybe cussing him out bcs pp face thinks he’s the king of the house, he owns everyone ( lol )

— whenever ludo has to go to one of AJ’s fashion events he has to call Benny ( if he’s not able to accompany him ) or if ludo is limited in time he can always check the cloud where he can see Benny and watch him do random things, either play with pollito or pp face which all the time seems grumpy. Ludo’s favorite area to watch Benny is either in the kitchen making himself a cup of coffee, in his short shorts relaxing in their bedroom. Almost all the time ludo calls Benny either on FaceTime or call and immediately start with the phone sex or sexting.

— going along with the above after the event is over, Ludo doesn’t wait and makes love to his man. Then he’d offer a date, get a few drinks, eat good food and it’s back to fucking like rabbits. Ludo mostly initiates sex out in public but Benny loves provoking him too, it’s 50/50 I’d say. They’re always horny but Ludo is the horniest.

— * ludo has finally come to a realization after his official wedding that his brother Amaru is no longer a threat. But that doesn’t mean he’ll let his guard down.

— The beach is their second home away from home, pollito loves going there bcs that means he is far away from pp face and his bullying. — one of the best things is that both have finally closed a chapter in their lives where now they can finally live a peaceful life dedicating themselves to each other without worrying about those who have been against them since the start.

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A soft little laugh fell from Benji's lips while he shook his head just a tiny bit. Of course, AJ wouldn't call it cute, but in fact, Benji wouldn't change his mind about it. It was good that his best friend had a brother who was willing to take care of him that much and would look out for him. Bryce was certainly not a threat, but Benji understood where Cris was coming from. It was the first time they met, and he had to get to know Bryce. And it was Bryce who groaned and rolled his eyes upon hearing that this Blaze guy was not giving up just yet. Bryce clicked his tongue while his eyes narrowed a little bit. At the same time, he gave AJ's thigh a gentle squeeze. ❝I am sick of that guy. Next time he comes around, I'll confront him and punch him in the face.❞ Bryce said with a rather determined voice. ❝Why are we avoiding him!?!? This nutcase needs to be taught that he should stay away from you once and for all.❞

[cnlykills]

AJ loved how passionate his boyfriend sounded, but they were dealing with a crazy guy with crazy tendencies. He didn't like how Blaze was the center of topic nowadays. "You are not doing anything to him. What if he whips out one of tricks? what if he kidnaps you to get to me, or what if he gets my bestie -- i can't imagine what ludo would do, he's unpredictable and just as crazy too. What i'm saying is, i don't want none of you to get hurt or die because of some guy's obsession towards me." To think that it's a possibility these scenarios can happen made AJ sick to his stomach. His hand suddenly curled around Bryce's wrist until his hand interlocked together with bryce. his blue eyes reflected worry and concern, not for himself but for the people he loves and cares for. "babe, i'm not avoiding him... well maybe i am in some way. let's say we go with your suggestion about teaching him a lesson. what's the lesson?" AJ asked, looking at his boyfriend who sounded so determined to whatever plan he had in mind. Cris sighed, looking from Benji to Aj and the little prick Bryce. "You to be insane to win over insanity -- i can't believe i'm siding with your cocky boyfriend but he is right." AJ thought this was crazy enough, if both began to work up a plan together there was no stopping Bryce or his twin. He hoped that Ludo isn't mentioned, AJ knew his bestie wouldn't want his man interfering.

[deliratio]

Subconsciously, Elias took a step back. There is only so much you can do, so much you can poke until the last string snaps. And now that his grandfather wasn’t around, Elias was almost certain that this could end very badly. The younger Vampire pressed his lips together and narrowed his eyes a little bit while he was biting back the watery feeling in his eyes. It wasn’t the first time Lestat yelled at him, but it seemed even worse after the encounter they had earlier. The ancient Vampire must have ruffled some feathers with his mere presence, while Elias found him quite pleasant to be around. But Elias was not quite a measurement. 

In a defensive manner, he lifted his hands to show his palms. “Calm down, Uncle. You act like I insulted your entire bloodline.” Elias tried to sound as nonchalant and unbothered as possible, even though he was pretty much bothered. “You really need to get laid or anything like that. Your explosive outbursts are slowly getting out of hand. I’m not a five-year-old.” Well, he acted like one at times. But Elias didn’t want to admit that. Blue eyes followed Lestat for a bit, and for a split second, Elias felt the urge to kick the older Vampire in the back. French. The younger Vampire rolled his eyes. “Wrong direction,” he said after he ran after Lestat and then took a turn. Elias stuffed his hands in the pockets of his denim. He guided Lestat to a dark alley and pointed at the dumpster. “He is in there. I can handle it. I do not wish to enrage you further. You can go home. I would hate for you to have a stroke or an aneurysm, uncle.”

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lestat had no bloodline, perhaps one but that life was somehow left in shambles. Off topic, though the ancient vampire began to curse the air in obscene French, each word said off his chest like he meant it. For him it was easier to say these words in French and in his opinion it sounded way better. “You are insulting yourself?!” He said it loud with his thick French accent. And perhaps Elias wasn’t his bloodline, he is family. “You’ve insulted me by not learning French, but you’re out and about causing problems everywhere you set your foot on. Maybe treating you like a child would make that big head of yours have some sense.

With his anger far past his limit he began to walk ignoring the part of getting laid, getting laid was easy, finding the right fucking person now that was hard. Apparently lestat took a wrong turn until Elias decided to guide him in a dark alley. While barely anyone walked in alleyways these days, someone will happen to discover the body. Violet eyes stared at his nephew who asked to leave, why leave now when the other had created this fuss about his snacks being dumped shamelessly in the dumpster. “You already give me enough of that, I already have wrinkles appearing.” No exactly but he felt it, the wrinkles. Lestat knew he’s handsome, some even called him pretty. “Open the dumpster nephew, I’d hate to have to go home after all the effort you made.”

[joshuaballsett]

[atgvnpoint]

Why did AJ allow this to happen? This was the only question that seemed to linger in Benji's mind while – sadly – he couldn't quite keep his gaze away from Ludo. The towel was so low that he could clearly see the V cut. No, he shouldn't look at this part of Ludovic's body. He shouldn't think about anything but the party and how Ludovic was all over that red-haired monster. Was that really his only problem right now? Especially when it was certain that now that his phone was gone and he was locked up here, he couldn't go to his date? And again, Benji's thoughts traveled to AJ. If his best friend was involved, would he let Scout know about it? Questionable.

Benji moved around and sat down on the ground with his back against the door and his long legs stretched out. There wasn't anything else he could do anyway. Blue eyes, watched Ludovic moving to the lockers, then he lowered his gaze to avoid staring. ❝Wait what?❞ Ludovic's word made him look up. Did they steal Ludovic's clothes now? Oh, great. ❝Aren't you cold? You can have my jacket.❞ He offered and this time, Benji sounded worried. They had their quarrels but Benji was not an unreasonable asshole. And he still had to admit that his heart beat way too fast. Carefully, Benji lifted his gaze again as he tried so hard to calm his overly fast beating heart. The way Ludovic called him Benny did things to him. He was spiraling so immensely that he forgot how to breathe. And yet, he chuckled at Ludovic's words about them having a date in a locker room. ❝Well, I suppose it can be worse.❞ A smug little grin appeared on his lips. ❝I'm sorry for what I said earlier about your jumps. I didn't mean it as offensive as it came across. You must hate me quite a lot at this point. I cannot blame you.❞

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if he knew any better Ludovic felt those ocean eyes on him, he didn't mind at all. He did the same too. It became a habit for awhile. There was a pro to this situation, Benny wasn't going to this date with Scout. He became elated though he didn't show that on his face. He hoped that door stayed locked and the rest of their friends left them alone. Benny sat down on the floor, his back against the door looking defeated. Did he not want to be in here stuck with him? Ludovic had only a towel wrapped around his waist, no clothes, no phone. It was just he and Benny. After checking his locker, a sigh left his nostrils. "Yeah, they took it." honey hues meeting ocean blues. "It's still surprisingly warm in here, i'm good for now Benny. If i get cold i'll just steal the jacket from you." he says, moving closer to the other who still sat on the floor again avoiding his gaze.

Ludovic sat down right beside the guy he had just argued out on the court with, the guy he fumbled at the beach party. "what's worse than this? i think nothing. We just argued out there during practice. Sorry that you aren't able to go to your date." he said lightly, though he wasn't sorry at all. For what it's worth, Ludo had Benny here with him, all to himself without the outside world interfering. "Don't be, my jumps suck .....today that is." and the reason to that was this date Benny had. He disliked it, the only thing he could do was react. "I threw you a few punches, for that i'm sorry too. But i have a valid reason for god awful behavior." He sighed, looking away from the other. "The one you're wrong with is that i don't hate you, again, sorry if i gave off that impression. I couldn't hate you even if i tried." Ludo looked at Benny again, his heart did things, he tried concealing the bulge within his towel that was poking through -- tatted hands fell right over it to cover it up. "You're too perfect to hate Benny." revealing a smirk, and that same feeling returned. the one he ruined at the beach, he wanted to kiss him so bad, the itch to do so was there. Now Benny might start dating someone else soon, gosh life was cruel. "Of course you got your opinion on that but despite everything, if i could just press the rewind button i would've kissed you at the beach. I froze, didn't expect you landing on me ... our lips touched -- and it's been hell for me ever since."